First thing .
Re : amanda + me + stupid grey skinnies .
I'm not a person who keeps any secrets .
not to any stranger , or any good friends .
I don't know how to put it .
but seriously if you people were to come and talk to me about it ,
come and get understanding from me first ,
it will be so much better .
and stop talk shit to amanda can.
for goodness sake i wrote that post on Sunday which is a day before saturday .
and on sunday / monday i remember i called her and expected we could clear up this mess .
knowing that she will come and read my blog , i told her in the first place that i wrote things about thy issue .
What the hell .
and now because of bullshitters and adding salt and pepper .
she now think that i didn't dare to talk to her in face .
i do things cause i thought i couldn't keep it .
and i need to vent it out .
and if you want me to throw everything onto your face , are you fishy sure that you can take it ?
knowing that i can't manage anger .
knowing that after i throw everything onto your face our friendship might go bad ?
and now i don't know why , what ever i say or type on the blog seem to become a super big fishy fault .
as a result i need to say sorry here .
so bullshitters listen up !
I'm uber sorry posting that fishy post on sunday .
also , amanda sorry to have hurt your feelings .




2nd thing .
im super disappointed .
cause after taking so much courage to show how much i care about a person ,
that person still doubt me .
and because of this fish issue amanda some lost her fishy trust in me .
and i feel that she see me a totally different way .
which ever bullshitter went up and say to her about this issue , you people watch out .
gardania bread , whoever lah kay .
i don't care no matter what rank or what , i tell you i don't give a fishy care .
now i got this feeling like i can't do things good , and i made my friend super upset .
and i feel accused and unfair .
if expressing how i feel inside by typing things on the blog is like that ,
i will delete this blog right right away .
and anyone after this incident have any comment or any fishy problem with me .
be it if you're a member or just amanda's friend just come and talk to me about it .
And also , anyone having any problems the things that i say / do .
come and say it into my place lor .
i don't need any special people in my life to talk to me about it .
you don't need to share it with another fishy person about it .
you don't even need to act like you're kind .
you can just give me your fishy shot gun .
i don't give a fishy care .
but i simply don't like people sharing my own fishy stuff to any one else .
telling another special person to come and talk / explain to me .
YES , I MADE THIS VERY CLEAR .
I DON'T NEED !
maybe this isn't what my life should came about .
maybe , maybe i can't express myself well enough .
maybe people just suit to be scolded more than talking nicely .
maybe this earth now can't even have this thing call appreciate anymore .
I'm super disppointed , be it the cell group or the cogls who tried to make things worst .
be it the whoever bullshitters .
or any passerby that left foot prints here and went on cooking rojak .
okay , i just feel super lousy now .
nuff said .