Valerie send me these !

Check it out .
IT'S ALL KINDA FUNNY .!

ALOHA .

have been nua-ing alot lately .
badminton and tennis ..
even practiced pingpong ~
Lol .. play until sian ...
bought a new black fbt shorts .
rawrrrs , bored ..






met ling li to make cards for our new friends ;D
simple and nice .
thats what jiji said! Lol .
;x ;x





Then went back home to shower etc etc .
travelled down like a like 55mins journey to jw without music .
cause i forgot to bring my ear piece out . Lol .
Then met the peepos going for audition !
Man , although you guys missed the audition .
But i hope you guys will continue to jiayou alrights ?
next week next week ,. Will keep you guys in my prayers ;D






Then choir practice ;DD
it was awesome .
Kelly was so nice . Kept guiding me throughout .
So that i won't be lost (:
so nice right ?
then during other groups were practicing , and we've got lesser thing to do ..
She offered me this !
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NOT CIGARETTES LAH .
its written there " Smoked Plum " .
hahahahas . ke ai lei ~
Look like cigs lor !






today got rejected thrice for job interview .
SBS . even Street survey also need 18 and above ..
walau ... sadded liao .
man ... how ): My building fund like that cham liao lahh ?!
God , please show me a way ):





alrights , I'm gonna go practice my songs etc .
it's so nice to sing parts ! XD lovin' it.

I KNOW I'M CUTE OKAY !
hahahahahas ~~
see my hair , so stylo ~ mai siao siao .
but i think my elder sister look chio-er when she was in her Ks.
cannot put up here lah , she might kill me !
then i have to collect each person $2 liao .
hahahaha ,




It was just a joke .





have lotsa shopping cravings right now now now .
Going to shop for more bling bling before AC.
rawrrrrrrrrrs ,
and Candice would be my shopping partner :D





Anyways .







*drumb roll *







HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED JANICE !



although i know this year one is a super lousy one .
because you're having all your projects etc etc .
No time to pamper yourself a lil bit .
well well , jiayou kays !!
love you loads loads loads !!!
stay sweet and chio !


ps / our ice-cream day . when then can go ? ):






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Called up my my ex lead .
and it was super ... sad .
Will be serving until AC ends .
Then i'll start serving in Choir already ..........




Lotsa things are happening at home .
and I'm carrying a heavy heart now .
have been crying nights and nights under my blanket .
Maybe someday ,
I can leave this place and face no more all these hurtings .





have lotsa stuffs to plan now .
i must zhen zuo qi lai !
hmmmm .
okays .





So long folks !

I passed my choir audition test !
happy .
Still remember what my sister said to me before when i tell her that i wanna join choir .
" you this type uh ? wait long long lah ! "
zzzzzzzz




lalalala , wheeeeeeeeee ;D




but the sad thing is ..
I'll be leaving Children church .
I'll be missing those children that call me teacher .
man ~ those kids that will give me sweets on the bus when i'm air sick.
when we play legos , dinos , barbie dolls and winks magazines together .
during visitation , bus-ing . and etc etc .
and those that bully new teacher and then accepted me one ..
my ahbeng group ~~
I will miss those hai zi men .



Well , this is my calling .







I don't know how to explain to my ex lead leh .
troubled .



(:
In order to go through the joy , We have to go through pain .

I'm so so sorry for the late update .
My mom forgotten to pay the starhub bill and , they cut off my internet connection ):
sobs !
have been meeting alvin almost everyday for breakfast and out with him for thy whole afternoon.
Lol lol .







Lol .
so here's a update for my this whole week .




monday?
Had dinner with jan jan again @ simei !
she got her new JJ lin's CD .
We .....

pasted our name all over the fridge at 18's chef .
hahahahaha , super funny .





Kinno and his favorite ball .
XDDD




Did visitation on wed .. * no voice *
-- thanks shaoliang for the cover ;D








then badminton with the bestie .
Swimming with him again ... the next day . ehem ( thurs :D )





HAD SO SO MUCH FUN .
that i forgot every sad sad stuffs that happen before that .
heees .



then we entered into mac , ordered ice-creams ..
A auntie gave me a balloon !
pink colour somemore .
then i made alvin taking the balloon for me for thy whole day !!!
Lol Lol . evil me ~~


Ate dinner .
and saw these ....
The times with him is filled with so much laughter and joy.
my heart was so dead dead dead .
But he just appeared in time to flush all those sadness away .


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I felt sorry to have rejected all the stuffs he said to me .
I was really touched .
After so long , he's still here with me .

跟着直觉。。 我不退缩。。
我发现。。你爱过的人可以有很多。。
但是要遇到一个能够真的爱你的。 真的很难。。
他对我真得很好。。我的心一直都很确定。
我让你等了好久都没有给你答案。。 对不起。
谢谢你陪了我那么久。一直在身边照顾我。。
从来没埋怨得忍着我。。 迁就着我。
我很感动。
真的。。




So how could I even just put my heart into some elses when they don't even care ?
You simply took me for granted . And you can't appreciate me .
Where were you when i needed you most .
You're right . I am silly .
I'm just too silly to have believed all the lies you said .




I will make up my mind to decide today .
And I'm not your 7 eleven.





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* New song ! *

If I were a boy -- Beyonce .

[Verse]
If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed


[Verse]
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)


[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

[Vamp1]
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

[Male]
You know when you act like that
I don't think you realize how it makes me look
or feel

[Beyonce]
Act like what
Why are you so jealous
It's not like i'm sleeping with the guy

[Male]
What

[Beyonce]
What

[Male]
I said yo
Why are you so jealous
It aint like I'm sleepin with the girl
[Vamp2]
But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

You name me as your best friend infront of me and others .
And you promised me that I'll never see you faking yourself away ever again .





But why do I still see you lying to others .
Backstabbing people .
Betraying your friends even around you ..?
I once said to you before , You'll get deeper and deeper if you keep on digging in to the mud.
And you said that you wanna come out of it , because you learned your lesson .
But still , you fell in . And you repeated everything all over again .




Why do you like to fake that mask infront of people .
Lying to others isn't the best for you .
I know you don't want to .
But why start it ?
Everytime when you feel like saying and rubbish , Just SHUT UP ?!
why let out the bomb at Sentosa ?
say until got dragons and tigers coming out from your head .




But I'm glad that you've always been honest with me .



You know that I won't blame you .
And you know that I don't like people who lie .
So why do you still do it ?
It's not just those small lies or like any white lies .
It's like all those super fake ones .
That's why everytime when you lie , I'll only look at you , and not complain a single thing .
Because I know deep inside your heart that ..
You can lie to other people ..
You can also lie to me ..
But you can't deny the truth to yourself about the facts .





I'm quite sad . But well , I hope you can really try to stop it .
If you have nothing better to say , Then don't say anything .
Doing nothing is also doing something (:




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I was super annoyed Yesturday . ( sat )
But I controlled myself to not shout at him .
I just hope he'll learn to be more sensitive next time .
Especially treating girl members in our cg .
I mean , as a cg we should protect our members right ?
You knew something personal / bad things happened to out member .
We should guard our mouths well especially in the public right ?
I mean , Even if the member don't mind . It's still personal .
Maybe you could ask those question to her personally / ask the cgl right ?
no need to ask those questions ( which i think is super sensitive ) infront of so many ppl right ?
Think what ? Interview uh ?



I understand that you're concern with what happen to her .
But seriously , there isn't a need to do those lah .
I mean , how would you feel if you're in her shoes ?!
think about it !
People ask you like ..
" eh , He / she really beat you like this like this uh ? how uh , pain anot? Why he do that ? "
in front of people .
Embarrassing enough right ?
I was super pissed already when listening .
How do you think the person will feel when answering ?!




Man , I hope you'll take note of that next time .









(: girls have fragile hearts .







Hmmmms , Went to JB with mommy today .
was quite sian ~
I have 2 super big monster in my throat now .
))))))))))))))): SAD .






Chatting with someone super darling now !
Chaos !

what a lao fu zi day man .
Lol , went to lingli's place to give sean and ya ling tuition in the early noon.
yeahh , but on the way was super suay lah .
step out of my house , opposite my block got 2 ahbeng keep on zoot zoot me -..-
super irritating ..
then , went to take bus , when alighting that time ..
the coins in my purse all dropped out and the whole bus needa wait for me to pick up all my coins .
OMG . was so embarrassing lah . everyone staring at you ..
rawrrrrs .
And finally reach there already ..
sean : HUH .... MATH AGAIN UH ? CAN DON'T DO ALREADY ANOT ..WE DO ENGLISH LAH!!!
me thinking back , ehs , sounds farmiliar lei ..
i always complain that to my tuition teacher in the past also..



Lol , then i piak the worksheet on the table and say " CANNOT . MUST TRY ! "
then he was like , can discount anot ..
=..=





ya ling is more hardworking and nice .
very polite and adorable :DD
she's coming to church next SAT !
wheeeeeeeeeeeeees ~
Yaling cried in the middle of everything .
because her feirce sister scolded her ):
awww , look at her swaollen red red eyes ..
encuraged her and cheer her ups !
see .. this good teacher here not only teach them math and languages .

I also teach them how to smile :D

she took like 5 minutes to smile lor . hahahaha .
super cute .

IT'S ME ME ME .

my faves !!
man , okay lah .
Ribena rocks .





I've been thinking alot lately .
And I find myself contradicting round and round with myself .
Sigh .
我讨厌这份暧昧的关系。
i really miss him ..
so much .

this moment when i think .
i still find myself confused .
man ,
what should i do ...

Today suppose to do visitation with Shaoliang @ Serangoon de.
BUT BUT BUT .
he chu stunt .


While i was on my way to Serangoon , he called and told me that ..
" hey sorry leh , not today actually .. is tmr .. where are you uh ? "
i was like .. okay okay , it's alright .. i'll see you tmr then .
roarrrrrrrrrrrs .



went to Plaza sing to walk around ..
even walk around all those auntie auntie shop ..
to kill time ..
from 4pm - 6pm lehs !
cause i arranged meeting with my dearest JANICE for dinner .

SAW SANRIO SHOP !!!!!
*faints *
then browse around ..
and saw the poster like they need workers to work there .~~
was super excited and went forward to ask whether i can work here ..
take application form etc ..
then in the end the sales girl ask me how old am i ..
I was like .. " ehem , I'm 16 ? =/ "
then she stare at me in silence for like 6 seconds .
and tell me that they are recruiting 19 years old one ...
))): sad uh , kennah rejected .



WOULDN'T IT BE SO NICE TO WORK IN THERE ?
awwwwwwwww ~~~





then finally times up , went to clementi then to dover .
found janice and we headed off to simei .
she was 忍-ing her pee pee .. hahaha .
until we reach the shopping mall , she had her releaseeeeeeeeeeeeee .
Lol ...




we had our dinner @ Eighteen's Chef.
sounds pai kia right ??
18 siao gang comes in my mind right away .
and then jan told me that actually the boss recruits the ex-convicts to work in there .
to give them a 2nd chance .
so cool right ?



Janice ordering the foodies .
heees , snap picture of her without her notice ..
eh sikali she know and pose one lor !
wahahaha , jkjk .



We ordered the Student set . which is like only $6.40..
the set have ...

• bake rice / pasta at choice of sause
• Ice-lemon Tea
• Ice-cream

the serving is just nice .
Jan orded some sides to add on ..

the soup didn't have enough flavouring ~
but not bad lah .








super crispy and nice .
it was served pipping hot .
whooooooooo ~










* drooools *
















SEE the webbie cheeze ~~~
*fat* but yum yum ~






until Ice-cream ..
jan i and i were like super full already ...
woahhhh ..
i ate like 3 t.spn jiu cmi liao ..
Lol ...





We left and went walking around the mall ..
and visited the pet safari !
Vivo one bigger lor ~~





and hammy !

happily cuddling together ~~
so cute right ?!




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This is for me one lah .

super cute right ~~~~~
omg ...









A day with Janice is so fun fun fun !
have been eating bak chor mee and kopi tiam food almost everyday ~~
hahahas ,.
can just simply fast for 72 hours withought thinking of any food or temtations .
hahahah .
jan shared lotsa places she know of having those nice nice food .
I was so excited when she was saying ..
want to follow her go explore also leh ..
hahahaha , XD
will go visit her after school more often ..
heeees . XD
then can tag along jan.soo and mayling .. cause their school all so near ~~
heees , (x




well well , I'm hitting the sack soon..
* LIGHTS OFF ! *

i dreamt of hsiao yan this afternoon when i was napping !
MAN .,
it's awesome , cause i rmb every single part of the dream like super real ..
and , i could control everything in the dream .
in my dream it happen like i met her along my house near by cc .
where she always seat around staring at some cool guys playing bball ..
and , in my dream i was on my way to cgm ..
so i walk passed the cc , i couldn't believe what i see , and shouted her most funny nick name.
to see her reaction ..
and she yelled back .. si liu liu !
i was super happy and went to embrace her .
OMG . i could still remember her perfume .. the one i gave her on her birthday .
super nice . and i ask ..her ..
eh , zha bor .. not bad uh , still wearing this perfume i gave you . hmmm , Good taste uh !
then she replied .. of cause lah , my favourite from my dearest BFF leh ..
i was so touched and ask her how was she ..
and the first thing i asked her was ..
did you met God ?
or like , did you enter hell or something ?
she laughed and said .. she got no idea ..
but she asked me not to ask about all these . so i changed topic and ..
said that i'm going to cgm ..
so she say : eh .., pei me eat lunch then go leh ..
i was like , huh ? dead ppl eat lunch too ?
i was like ... hahahaha .
we went to eat at ramen 10 .
i ask her whether she read my blog or check her friendster ..
she say she did leh !
Lol . and say what she read my post super xin tong i kennah bully by karen ..
O.O amazed .
so we chatted . and i cried and say i super miss her alot alot .
and she sayang my head and said ..
其实我也不想离开你们的。。
我也很像回到过去。。 和你们开心平凡的日子。。
我以前真得太傻了。。
很后悔当时作的决定。。。


then i kept crying ...
but at the same time encouraging her to not think so much ..
cause she'll remain alive in my heart always .
she told me she enter into her parents dreams too .
but they kept crying and she left ..
she even asked me to really take care of her parents and etc .
i promised her i will and she gave me a smile .
and told me that she's very happy for me .. and someone .
quite surprised she knew about it .. kekes.
she then showed me my birthday card she prepared for me . { it's PINK! }
it was super nice .. and there was a 2 page long messaged inside for me ..
awwwwwwwwww , how i wish i could take the card along with me when i wake up .
and i say , zhabor . i don't feel like waking up sia ..
then she pushed me to a light and say it's time for you to go back .
i woke up falling out of my bed in tears .



my butt still aches now .
damn hsiao yan .





Hsiao Yan is so gone gone gone .
and miss her her her .
my best friend ever .
standing before the black and white photo of her ..
reading all her news articles ..
assuring the face is hsiao yan ..
again and again ..
i admit , i can't accept it until now ..



but she's gone forever ... ):
so i'll just keep her in my prayers ~






mou ren mou ren mou ren .
<3

man .
I'm feeling so lousy now .
Feel like throwing a thousand stones into the sea .
arghs .
I kept having this someone in my mind .
question marks and question marks .
flooding through my mind .
and i feel like crying .


But I know very well what my heart thinks and wants .
*IMH.IMH.IMH.IMH.IMH.*
lol.




and out ~
LING LI holding the tickets .



oh man , thank God to have them around me me me ! <3 width="425" height="344">

the guy actually farted , and every one left with eeeee ... yucks ...
and he was super embarrassed .!
with his girlfriend .
omg , i was like .. eh ..!!!
Lol .
the third video is having lotsa problem .
i don't know why , maybe too long or whatever .
sorry , if y'all can't see it .
wahahaha .











Cherlyn is happy !
the other day i was feeding kinno medicine ..
and he rejected the medicine and start vomiting all of it out .
i was angry because of the mess he made .
and stared at him ..
He look at me with this eyes that is telling me that he really don't like it .
then i said to him like , " you sure you really don't want ?
if you don't swallow this , even God also cannot help you liao hor ! "
then i stumbled and thought ..
eh ... nono ..
then i thought ..praying for my dog for healing of his paw .
i had this feeling to .
so removed his E collar ..
and i started talking to him like ..
" kinno I'm going to pray for you uh ~ " like he'll understand and like take it he agree to .
so i hold his paw and started speaking in tongues holding his body close to me .
i started to pray for him .
to be surprise , he did not struggle like he always do.
he willingly looked down and stay under my chins to let me pray for him !
so i confess that kinno Don't need medicine to be save .
I said ..
Kinno will be healed in Jesus name .
And he should not be sufferring from any more pain or itchiness .
i prayed for the suspected thorn or glass peice inside the paw to be gone in the name of jesus ..
this little thorn can't make him hopping forever .
and It will be removed now !
kinno remained the position and did not struggle to leave still .
and i started thanking God .. praising kinno for behaving well ..
I lifted kinno's face up and told him in the eyes..
Kinno, prayer is the voice of Faith!
he stared at me and gave me this funny look like he's confused ..
he started running around not hopping .
normally and he's not licking the paw .
i checked kinno's paw ..
and ....


!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
praise the Lord !!!!








IT WAS LIKE THAT........






PRAYER IS THE VOICE OF FAITH !