Monday, August 31, 2009

Stop seeking for attention today !



不准哭...我不要装可怜无辜...................











But why can't people get it straight into their brains ?


Okay , let me go straight to the point .




I used to have this problem .

And people around me also have this same old problem some even worst .


which is .. Self sympathy .














Too much of it . cause serious problem .


when we're young , when we fall down , our parents will come ..


" are you okay ? are you hurt ? " and we'll go whining and crying .





Same problem when we're older .


When we're older , we meet failures or rejections in life ..


We go whining , crying and worst still come up with ..


" sigh , I'm so poor thing .. Why is my life so sucky and lousy .. "


they go out seeking for care , concern and attention ..


Make up stories , to show people how sad and poor state they're now going through .


but not finding a way to get out of the problem .








It's silly !


When after listening to all the encouragements and going back to the same old cycle !


Keep making the same mistake then give excuses to escape from things .





For me .. I whine ALOT .


But I know my limits and I know who can help me .


So when I'm in trouble , I'll look for shalynne my cgl or my family members .





I've met people before that's very weird .


When they're sad ,


they call up different people to tell them how sad they are .


telling one after another .


But still , standing at the same old ground .





Once , he accidentally cut his hand by some knives or whatever ..


And he went around telling people he's bleeding and doing nothing to it !!


Good griefs .








Another one , worst ..


Too bored already .


Come up with nice stories to bluff people around her to get attention .


saying that she got raped etc .














It's too silly of us human beings behaving like that isn't it ?

















hahaha..


sounding very judgemental .


But , sad to say .. Some people are too silly to fill themselves with self sympathy .


And cherlyn says , you guys gotta wake up !








Why go make yourself so sad and down when you can be happier ?


Why go attract attention by bluffing people when you already know that people around you do care about you ?


Why go and make yourself so sick and want people to take care of you ?


Why why why ?


人活的好好的,为什么去不博取同情.





You guys must be thinking ..


Most girls fall in this area .


I'm telling you . You are wrong .





I've seen more guys doing more silly things to get attention .





Emo one side for nothing while people are happily enjoying in an outing .


then refused to tell the people what happen ..


Spoiling the mood by telling people he's very upset .


just upset .. or just thinking about stuffs .





It's not wrong !


you aren't wrong when you wanna go think about your stuffs .


But spoiling the atmosphere is your fault .


Since we're out and happy , why go think about those sad stuffs ?


Go sing K also sit one side emo .. still got feel to carry on singing mehhhh ?





Duh!











But , please get it clear .


I'm not trying to say when you're sad or you meet trouble you can't tell people .


Be wise !


Don't say you're okay , you're fine and alright when you're not at all !


Tell the right person , that you think they can help you or encourage you .


After listening , Get that advise straight ...


Don't go and find more people and complain with . it won't help ,


At all !














Self sympathy .. if you don't kick away that habit ..


you're gonna affect people around you .











Some people seek alot for friends attention and forgotten that your friends actually also need space .


When they have their work in their hands , they never contact you ..


You , becoming very desperate and you lose your faith for you poor friend .


go on whining about your friend ain't a good friend .





goes down to yourself , ending up with no more confident with yourself anymore .








Then go on , you get easily jealous .


Because of you don't have somethings like ..can be possessions or treatment .


You go on and feel like it's unfair ..


you're being neglected , people forget you ..


etc etc .














NO !


cherlyn says ..


Life ain't like that .


You don't really need all this to go around your world my dear .


Open up open up some happiness !





If you yourself can't love yourself enough . it will never work .


Learn to open up . Trust the one you love .


Think about the people around you . They love you !





C'mon , Jesus loves you too !


such a awesome person to love you ! what more can you ask for ??




















If you're sick today .


Ask yourself if you're happy .








Sometimes , you're not sick .


it's just that you're feeding yourself with the wrong medicine .








Laughter is the best cure (:









If you have the courage to attempt suicide .
Why not use the same courage you have to carry on the road you're stepping on ?







Xoxo ,


Cher .

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Take Care & Farewell !

A Song from khalil for all my love ones .
( opps , and all that are reading this blog :D )
With lotsa XOXOs ♥♥♥


Sunday, August 23, 2009

A lil bit of Spells & Magic .



Blogger suck for a big time now adays .
Made my entries layout so ugly . like a big whole chunk of don't know what .


Souvenir for today .
Aye mos burger -corn soup toy -hp chain !
It's from the coin twisting thingy at J8 .
This was exactly what I wanted !
How lucky eh .
.
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.
.
..
Well it only happen once a day . -sis .


Xoxo ,
Cher.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

#1 God .

Sis got this for me :D



It's glossy PINK ! Loves it !!!!!!!!

My sis got me the theme of the 1994 picture Gallery .
I want the year 92 one ... awww , guess it's outta sale at mac already .




Well ...Take a look inside !

Hellokitty...
She cheers me up . love her .
KKB tried to test me about hellokitty ..
and .. to my surprise , it actually do know alot about her !
hahaha !
Example ..
Do you know the actual height of hellokitty is the hight of 3 apples high ?
She's tiny isn't she ?
Heees . kinda proud of myself already talking about hellokitty .
Lol . okay enough of kitty .
sorry for the intro , made me sound like aye lil girl .
well , Imma innocent child in heart . what to do .
*giggles*
FINE .
Back to my dairy .
I know , I know ,
it's been quite some time since I blog about my thoughts and giving this blog aye update .
My bad , my bad for neglecting it .
But hey , here it is okay .
Cut the crap .
I feel kinda stupid and sorry about the previous post .
it's so emo lah , to say the truth . I don't like it too .
so negative right ? super not like me lah ...
hahahaha , whatever .
That's why you see , I don't need any people to comment about my blog aka dairy .
If not , i'll be so "gao wei" - uncomfortable in hokkien while posting .
Right ?
Ehem , I wonder if people are reading this . they'll be thinking when I'm going to start .
But they'll never know I've already started writting about my dairy .
Hmmmm , I do have more thoughts to fill in here .
Somehow my brain now is still working on while I'm typing here .
Imma genius .
Okay , you see ..
I'm really amazed by God doing in everyone's life .
I don't know what He've did in yours , But I know , it's surely good :)
While Gloria Goh was sharing her testimony yesterday during cgm .
About how she counted all the blessings that God blessed her with .
It's so true .
I asked myself , have I done it before .
No . In fact , I've forgotten about the blessings i had experienced before .
maybe some of them , but it's like to me it's no longer that exciting anymore ..
Isn't it sad ?
and when I got home , I had a chat with my sis .
We're talking about some drugs issues first , and then some gangsterism stuffs.
I started talking and talking and it slowly became aye form of story testimony thingy .
No why , when my sister throw to me a question asking me ..
What was the main reason you went to play drugs and put yourself there outside .
It's so stupid and childish . Didn't mommy always thought you not to?
Then I replied , Out of fun . Naughty , didn't thought of anything . just liked the "Seh" feel .
And then she asked ..
didn't you know , taking drugs will cause and lead you slowly to death ?
OR worst , sudden death .
hmmm , I thought for awhile and laugh ..
Eh , I didn't know leh .
Funny isn't it .
At the back of my mind was .
Oh goodness , God really did picked me up from the death valley man .
PTL .
Then slowly , my sis started to question me about some other stupid things I've done .
I could sense her curiosity . not because she's stupid .
It's just simply because , she really don't see and don't understand why I'm doing all these things ..
That's like .. no benifit at all ?!
I didn't want to say everything to her .
Eh , c'mon , I don't know about you . But for me , I've never been so opened up with my family members before .
I feel embarassed . I thought I don't like to bring up the past , it's sinful and it'll make me CRY !
And hey , how much courage do you think you could use up to say it ?
You could've the courage to say it . But it's people mind to accept it .
I warned her thrice to tell her not to change her impression of mine after listening .
and she smile and nodded her head .
I started to speak . and said every single thing to her .
Like accounting to shalynne like that . like a leader .
And she listen , can sense she still didn't understand me .
hahahahaahaha .
Ehhhh.. I think I did not cry while saying .
and then to speak of the past , it goes on to big rewind back to the first time I got saved .
When I got in to my bed , it was like ..
Man ... I've came a very long way .. didn't I ?
Theres so many times , I didn't understand so many things .
But I've got through it .
So if , in the past of did it . I'm sure this lil trouble I'm facing now wouldn't be so big .
Because , God wouldn't give you something you can't handle with ! Amen ?
I started to pray ..
I began to slowly realised that .
Whether imma christian anot , God loves me .
It made me thought of how people love each other .
Some people try to keep a person their side , control them to not them stray away .
Some people get jealous easily . fight for their rights not thinking about anything .
God gave me a high bird eye's view of the whole picture .
I really couldn't express how much gratitude .
Because , firstly . I've not very lucky . I've never experienced much of a Father's love .
My mimi plays 2 charactor in my life . as a papa and mama .
I then felt the heartache of God , stretching his hand reaching out to me .
Wounds all over , dry and helpless . and he kept me safe .
Although until now , sometimes I couldn't accept myself for who I am .
I doubt myself . But Daddy God said , I've forgotten the past you didn't like .
Because , I don't like what you don't like too .
It came with such warmth , that he said dearly to me .
My dear daughter , Trust me . when you can't see my working hands . Trust my heart .
Believe in me , pull up yourself for you will stand strong for me again .
Though you keep falling . But my dear , you never fail to impress me .
wow .................
Though it was rainning like the entire zoo , with thunder and lightning .
I had a wonderful peaceful sleep .
Awesome !
The First thing that I'd learned in church was to put God first .
I take it as a Strong basic foundation in my spiritual life .
What about you ?
Bye , Earthlings .
Xoxo ,
Cher .

Sunday, August 16, 2009


Been listening to....




Run Away - David Tao .

Nod your heads while listening yo ! haahahahah !

In love with another song by coco lee .
kinda nice music piece . loves the lyrics , and love coco's voice !
loves it ..!

[ 美丽的主题曲]....

我看著鏡子里面的自己
不知道為什么我會失去你
閉上了眼睛回味這段愛情
學習忘記
能不哭泣
我想不想一個人旅行
耳機里聽著自得其樂歌曲
遇見陌生人
我也不會有所懷疑
生命沒有你
明天仍為自己繼續美麗
世界只有個你
誰也不能代替
如何把傷心權利
換成快樂的能力
什么才是愛情
如何揮別過去
若有人再說愛我
我還有沒有勇氣靠近
我愿不愿意相信我自己
有一首原創美麗主題曲
不需要別人
也能在你生命流行
早晚有一天
還會遇到粉絲遇到知音
世界只有個你
誰也不能代替
如何把傷心權利
換成快樂的能力
什么才是愛情
如何揮別過去
若有人再說愛我
要选择微笑还是离去
世界只有個你
誰也不能代替
如何把傷心權利
換成快樂的能力
什么才是愛情
如何揮別過去
若有人再說愛我
我看著鏡子里的自己


This song may is kinda emo , loner type .
but some how it sings out honestly from the heart ..
it's just so close to some one's feeling .
* I admit I missed the someone in this song .. but , it's over already..
And I've learned to move on . Because I know , what's best for me ..
Which is where I am here today .

I think I hate myself sometimes ..
Locking up myself in the dark ..
Crying for the small things ..
Feeling weak for nothing . like a useless whinning child ..
Being stressed for the least thing , and blame it all by myself .
I know it's silly to keep putting myself back to the past and 依依不舍..
I clearly know what's the problem with me , and yet I keep doing it .
I hate it !
Don't ask me why am I like that .. Because I don't know too .

It's weird you see ..
Call me weird , Stuborn , Stupid , Dumb or 太依赖人了..
wait .. Being to relying on somebody is not very good ..
but .. isn't this how the way we live ? which is rely on someone's shouders when we need them ?
but why does this rely slowly builds up like an addiction , an need and something you can't live without .
And why does love , brings hatred or dislike at the end of everything.

I didn't like people who are not independent ..
But now ... I ask myself , was I even independent before ?
I crapped ?
Tell me who was ..?

A Loner ? A beggar ? Aliens ?They all also need love ..
Maybe , their heart is already dead bah ?


I like this part ..


若有人再說愛我
要选择微笑还是离去



To me this song concludes ..

The main person to love is , should be yourself first .

yeap . I think ..

Love and Live , just lack another letter . it's an I there ..

If you can't even love yourself enough , how would you be able to love others ?

How can you love someone , when you can't even treasure your life enough ?



okay okay ..

Too Emo like that for a whole post .

later people say I fake lah , lead 2 lives ..

Outside cheerful happy , At home emo elmo . don't know who is who ah !

Split personality ?! wahahahah ....



Hmmmm ,

There are some things that I feel I should not post it here .

so friends if interested to know can just ask me , if lucky , i might tell you !

LOL ..




Hearing my sister's sharing of a BFF is so fun .

I wanna make lil prayer to God for a good BFF too ..

ofcause huihui , you're still my best friend kay ! hahaha .

I want a BFF in church with me too.

hahaha .

A spritual good friend . Encourage each other in hard times ..
etc etc ...
so cool eh .
Not forgeting my bbff . kuah kb .boon boon boon !
important friend leh he .. tsk tsk .. best in sg and jb and some say batam ah .
LOLS !
Roahhhhhhhhhs .
I'm so messed up right now .
2 tim 1:7
Amen !
Okay okay , needa go now now now .
Xoxo ,
Cher
Love kinno ! A picture of my nono for you guys :D



hahahahahaha ! kinno siam .
psa 77:19
1 sam 16 :7 .
These cheered me up and encouraged me ..
Rahhh .
Gombedhetto !
Congrats Gerald and Eunice for the graduating from SOT yo .
Nothing much for update , but lotsa complaints only ..
sian ..
will do a ranting post soon .
hahahaha .
for now ...
I really don't know what to say ..
Chiaos !

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

I JUST DON'T LIKE IT .
NOT ONLY DISLIKE .
I HATE IT .



Ridiculous .





Would you understand .
Will you respect me for Christ's sake ?



Sometimes , I would rather just close one eye .
Don't care whatever is happening .
Act as if I'm in a dream and wake up in a whole new house knowing everything thing that happen was just a bad bad dream .

You are the owner of the house . The leader of the family .
Your decision is crucial .




But please , have some thoughts for others before everything you do .


I can understand your lousy attitude . that you actually don't care how people feel .
because you only thought of yourself as the bigger picture .


But have you ever thought ..
This will actually hurt my feelings ..?


............


Enough said .
I'm always in the wrong .

Friday, August 7, 2009

The Back Crew Hero .




Sometimes .. I feel like a lil worm .. like this ..
I'm kinda inspired by the picture above . Are you ?



Today , I went for job hunting with huihui :D .
hui hui is awesome ,
she cheered me up several times when she see me got rejected or she can sense that I feel discouraged ..
I've never had a good feeling about finding a job or having a job all along . hopeless .
Upon the stress I had from my mommy etc .. I was totally upset regardless I'm at home , or outside in the city .
I feel totally small , and useless ..
And ...


Huihui's a cheering machine . She almost filled me up with confidence over and over again .
I feel so secure when I'm with her . She's like a lucky star . A good friend :D

Loves her !
♥ ♥ ♥



Finally gotta feeling to blog how I really feel.
I really feel very very glad .

God never fail to put wonderful people in my life .


God is good all the time . All the time , God is good .



During today's Cgm ..
Although it felt a lil rushy , messy .. The presence of God is still good .
In fact , God spoke to me during worship .

God totally appeared to me like a papa .
Showing me lotsa scenes about this wonderful servant of God .
A lady with full of dreams and vision ..
Showing her love and service around the people around her .
Staying positive , full of faith and on fire for God..
Encouraging the the weaker ones .

It then turned into a point that , she was trying really hard to put the smile on her face wherever she go .
She picked up a phone call . she broke down and cry . because she had to give up a big lot .
I don't know what it is .
Then a crowd came over , not on her side . She stood strong and continue to where she know she's gonna be .
Criticism came ..
But she continue to smile and said Amen .


God then show me ,
when she was alone in her secret place praying and seeking God alone .

Enjoying her quiet time .

and I'm shocked when the lady turned around .
God show me her face .
Her face was full with tears and compassion worshipping God ..
It turned out so familiar , that I took a zoom look again ..

And it was none other than .. my sister .



I was so shocked . stunned , and really speechless .


You guys must continue reading .


Because , all along I've been thinking that ..
I've always been the only one giving up things .
I've always been the only one losing out , to sacrifice .
The only one to feel lonely .

I'm so selfish .. to think that I'm the one that really suffered alot .
That actually , She went through much more !
How can I have the thinking that she'll be always strong .
How can I have the thinking that she also have her hard times outside alone ?
How can I have the thinking that the smile on her face actually fades ?

How could I ??

How could I not appreciate this sister that have looking after me , keeping me in her prayers ?
How much more could I expect from God .
without her , everything could be different .
I wouldn't have experience the realness of God so close ever before the first time !

All this mindsets hit me so hard in my heart and mind .


I couldn't stop speaking in tongues . I just want God to give her whatever she can't receive .


God then tied a peace purple ribbon over her neck .
And told her that she is free .




I felt so touched . And totally understand what God was trying to tell me .
I feel really really amazed by God .



I don't know where I had this courage from to post this entry .
I don't know how my sis will feel after reading this .
after all she reads my blog .


I'm really not speaky mushy kind of person .
I don't know how to show my appreciation some times .
That's why , some times I prefer to not say anything in case everything leads to a quarrel .

Our fellowship sometimes could be a total silence for a whole hour .

I feel bad about it .



And I wanna say a BIG Thank you to my beloved sister .
I wanna take back all the times when I made her utterly super upset .
& I want her to know , from the bottom of my heart that ..
Daddy God loves her , and I love her too .


Like the others ,
Jie , I'm so so so proud of you !


Jiayou !


ps // Thanks for borrowing me your ez-link card to go for cgm today .
you've done a big big help :D




Xoxo ,
Cher .

Monday, August 3, 2009

I'm blind in the dark .....

It's all about Cherlyn .


1 . I love Pink. and I hate Orange .
2 . I don't wear beige color bras .
3 . I love cutting my hair sometimes .
4 . I wash my hair twice everytime .
5 . I have serious 洁癖.
6 . I love Gerald butler .
7 . Imma Christian .
8 . I used to be "小燕子"in my group of girlfriends back in primary school .
9 . I'm made of water . I prefer to gulp then drinking sip by sip .
10 . I hate mee rebus .
11 . I love using a straw to drink chilled drinks .
12 . I love Ribena .
13 . I adore people with Great Confidence .
14 . I like wise man .
15 . I can cook . ( not better than my sis or my mom )
16 . I write better with black ink pens .
17 . I cry alot . and I can cry on command .
18 . I don't like people that lie to accomplish somethings .
19 . I can learn languages super fast .
20 . I love to dance secretly in my room .
21 . I enjoy Praise and Worship in my room .
22 . Bathing is my way to cool myself down .
23 . I forget things that I don't want to remember easily .
24 . I don't like to walk behind people who're smoking .
25 . I hate rude people in the public that speaks loudly .
26 . I love cam-whoring with my friends .
27 . I'm not a very stick on person , but I call up jianwen every night to chat .
28 . I love everyone around me even though I don't really like some of them .
29 . I'm very straight forward . I don't 拍马屁 .
30 . I like sincere people . with no motives .
31 . I don't like the feeling of being sick .
32 . I love Veggies .
33 . Imma drama queen .
34 . I believe everybody can sing .
35 . I have stage fright . It's a miracle whenever I sing on stage for choir .
36 . I'm afraid of heights .
37 . I am tall .
38 . I've zero knowledge in wheels . oh , only scooters .
39 . I'm lousy in racket games .
40 . I like to give kinno a big shock and laugh at his reaction .
41 . I don't like noisy shoes and places .
42 . I love coffee .
43 . I can't eat sea food .
44 . I don't like waiting .
45 . I feel happy when I receive good news from my friends .
46 . I like good quality stuffs .
47 . I only carry leather bags .
48 . I'm well taken care of by my strong mimi . although imma single parent .
49 . I think I'm the luckiest girl in the whole wide world .
50 . Some times I cry in bed when I miss my grandma and hsiao yan .
51 . My Blanket in the most precious one that I can't live without .
52 . I pretend I'm on the phone when I met people I don't like .
53 . I hate being stalked by strangers .
54 . I don't like the feeling of people not trusting you .
55 . I hate explaining .
56 . My favorite number is 9 .
57 . I love nail arts .
58 . I've met someone that look really like me here on earth ! *Twinnie*
59 . I feel really really honored to have shalynne as my CGL . She taught me how to love .
60 . I Love Jesus . He's my first priority .




Lol ...
did you guys really read it through ?
Im just a lil bored to post about this I guess..



well ...

Blogger is sucky now adays ..
I can't seem to upload any pictures still ..
Rawrrrs .

Anyways .......





Happy 20th Birthday City Harvest .

The 20th annivesary was way to awesome !
hahaha .. here's the whole day ..

11pm : met twinnie at city hall and went over to her place to stay overnight .
12 + : reached ..Bathed and ate twinnie's hand cooked maggie mee .
1am : we caught aye horror movie showing at chnl 8 ( was showing about christianity too ! ) twinnie was so scared !
3am : we're still awake , listening to twinnie's life story sharing :D
-all the way till 5.30 am- : We pack up and get changed for choir .
6am : met choir peeps for shuttle bus to go S.I.S . ( the bus was so comfy .. I fell asleep )
630am + : Reached . and started choinging for choir .
- Served 2 services - Enjoy!

I was totally having a hard time looking for my cg during the svc .
Because I have night blindness .
Was praying hard till I find them .
My night blindness actually got worst .. sigh ..
Everytime when I'm alone in the dark .. And I can't see .. I'm so so so afraid ..
:'(



luckily Gerald came to my rescue ..! If not I really wouldn't know what to do ..
Thanks bro .. :)


The presence of God was very strong throughout the service .
I fell under the power of God when Pst alex prayed for the church .
Was touched .
I found back my first love with God .
And felt so save in his arms again .
it's so papa love .
That experience .. is irreplaceable .



I didn't get the miracle building block , cause I was serving .
Got 2 umbrellas . 1 purple for my sis . and 1 pink for myself .
But I left it on Gloria's car ... hahahaha .
Oh , The first time on her car is so funnnnnnnnnnnn !

Although we're lost , but it's enjoyable man .
lol , my sister helped us to find our way back to the right track home .
how lovely !


Home sweet home after a long day .
Had a good rest .


Ate botak jones with sis .

and ......

I receive a prank call today .
My sister settled it for me .
hahahahaha . sis pretend to be miss lim and my mom!
hilarious to sis' face that way ..



LOL ..
I'm still wondering .. who could it be ..
it's just so strange .
Well , I shall just ignore this matter and go to sleep now !
it's 315 am already .



Chiaos !



Xoxo ,
Cher!
I don't know why . some how my blogger is having lotsa of problems now .
I can't seem to upload pictures here . or edit fonts and structure .
Weird . My comp is really having a problem . Omg , Is it sick too ?
Woah , Human virus ..Computer virus ..Geeez . Virus are everywhere ~


I got so so so many things I wanna update about .


Good ness ..