It's glossy PINK ! Loves it !!!!!!!!
My sis got me the theme of the 1994 picture Gallery .
I want the year 92 one ... awww , guess it's outta sale at mac already .
Well ...Take a look inside !
Hellokitty...
She cheers me up . love her .
KKB tried to test me about hellokitty ..
and .. to my surprise , it actually do know alot about her !
hahaha !
Example ..
Do you know the actual height of hellokitty is the hight of 3 apples high ?
She's tiny isn't she ?
Heees . kinda proud of myself already talking about hellokitty .
Lol . okay enough of kitty .
sorry for the intro , made me sound like aye lil girl .
well , Imma innocent child in heart . what to do .
*giggles*
FINE .
Back to my dairy .
I know , I know ,
it's been quite some time since I blog about my thoughts and giving this blog aye update .
My bad , my bad for neglecting it .
But hey , here it is okay .
Cut the crap .
I feel kinda stupid and sorry about the previous post .
it's so emo lah , to say the truth . I don't like it too .
so negative right ? super not like me lah ...
hahahaha , whatever .
That's why you see , I don't need any people to comment about my blog aka dairy .
If not , i'll be so "gao wei" - uncomfortable in hokkien while posting .
Right ?
Ehem , I wonder if people are reading this . they'll be thinking when I'm going to start .
But they'll never know I've already started writting about my dairy .
Hmmmm , I do have more thoughts to fill in here .
Somehow my brain now is still working on while I'm typing here .
Imma genius .
Okay , you see ..
I'm really amazed by God doing in everyone's life .
I don't know what He've did in yours , But I know , it's surely good :)
While Gloria Goh was sharing her testimony yesterday during cgm .
About how she counted all the blessings that God blessed her with .
It's so true .
I asked myself , have I done it before .
No . In fact , I've forgotten about the blessings i had experienced before .
maybe some of them , but it's like to me it's no longer that exciting anymore ..
Isn't it sad ?
and when I got home , I had a chat with my sis .
We're talking about some drugs issues first , and then some gangsterism stuffs.
I started talking and talking and it slowly became aye form of story testimony thingy .
No why , when my sister throw to me a question asking me ..
What was the main reason you went to play drugs and put yourself there outside .
It's so stupid and childish . Didn't mommy always thought you not to?
Then I replied , Out of fun . Naughty , didn't thought of anything . just liked the "Seh" feel .
And then she asked ..
didn't you know , taking drugs will cause and lead you slowly to death ?
OR worst , sudden death .
hmmm , I thought for awhile and laugh ..
Eh , I didn't know leh .
Funny isn't it .
At the back of my mind was .
Oh goodness , God really did picked me up from the death valley man .
PTL .
Then slowly , my sis started to question me about some other stupid things I've done .
I could sense her curiosity . not because she's stupid .
It's just simply because , she really don't see and don't understand why I'm doing all these things ..
That's like .. no benifit at all ?!
I didn't want to say everything to her .
Eh , c'mon , I don't know about you . But for me , I've never been so opened up with my family members before .
I feel embarassed . I thought I don't like to bring up the past , it's sinful and it'll make me CRY !
And hey , how much courage do you think you could use up to say it ?
You could've the courage to say it . But it's people mind to accept it .
I warned her thrice to tell her not to change her impression of mine after listening .
and she smile and nodded her head .
I started to speak . and said every single thing to her .
Like accounting to shalynne like that . like a leader .
And she listen , can sense she still didn't understand me .
hahahahaahaha .
Ehhhh.. I think I did not cry while saying .
and then to speak of the past , it goes on to big rewind back to the first time I got saved .
When I got in to my bed , it was like ..
Man ... I've came a very long way .. didn't I ?
Theres so many times , I didn't understand so many things .
But I've got through it .
So if , in the past of did it . I'm sure this lil trouble I'm facing now wouldn't be so big .
Because , God wouldn't give you something you can't handle with ! Amen ?
I started to pray ..
I began to slowly realised that .
Whether imma christian anot , God loves me .
It made me thought of how people love each other .
Some people try to keep a person their side , control them to not them stray away .
Some people get jealous easily . fight for their rights not thinking about anything .
God gave me a high bird eye's view of the whole picture .
I really couldn't express how much gratitude .
Because , firstly . I've not very lucky . I've never experienced much of a Father's love .
My mimi plays 2 charactor in my life . as a papa and mama .
I then felt the heartache of God , stretching his hand reaching out to me .
Wounds all over , dry and helpless . and he kept me safe .
Although until now , sometimes I couldn't accept myself for who I am .
I doubt myself . But Daddy God said , I've forgotten the past you didn't like .
Because , I don't like what you don't like too .
It came with such warmth , that he said dearly to me .
My dear daughter , Trust me . when you can't see my working hands . Trust my heart .
Believe in me , pull up yourself for you will stand strong for me again .
Though you keep falling . But my dear , you never fail to impress me .
wow .................
Though it was rainning like the entire zoo , with thunder and lightning .
I had a wonderful peaceful sleep .
Awesome !
The First thing that I'd learned in church was to put God first .
I take it as a Strong basic foundation in my spiritual life .
What about you ?
Bye , Earthlings .
Xoxo ,
Cher .
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