PS : THIS IS A RECORD OF MY PERSONAL LIFE . you can chose not to read it . (:


This is My Blog ANYWAY .hahahas !



I felt totally forgotten by someone so close to me .
Every single day , waiting for her return from work , no matter how late .
Listening to her worries about her dearest one away from homeland .
complains and complains .

Telling me , how much she wanna give more .
But how much i also gotta give .
which I'm tired of giving ..


Because , people never appreciates ..







I know it's wrong to think it that way .
But I'm really sick and tired of doing the way she does .


She forgets about my own needs .
She forgets about my feelings .
She forgets about my studies .
She forgets about my presence .



She robs away my freedom .
Robs away my money .
No privacy at all .
Robed away my trust from her .
& She can often rob away the smile i usually have on my face when I'm with my friends .


But out of love . I learn to accept .
Accepting everything .
good or bad .


For the whole morning .
Was alone at home .
Couldn't find a solution to anything .
I start to panic , I start to feel so much insecure .
Upset , deppressed ...
The lousiest feeling you could ever have .


I set myself at a corner of my house .
I stare in blank .
Cried until I'm tired , I closed my eyes ..
Was feeling so vexed .
Kept asking myself what can I do next ..
Why is my life like that .
Why am i always at this corner of my house .

God then showed scenes of myself ..
how I always encourage people ..
how I always cheer people up ..
how I always tell people how much God loves them .



Then God said this to me ..
Cherlyn ..
Your life is precious .
Precious to everyone around you .
Most of all , you're my precious .
You're important to your family , and your mother .
If you're the one and only person I've saved .
I will say to you , It's worth it .
It's worth it .

Cherlyn , I love you .


My heart was so touched , that I fell on my knees and worshiped God .
Presence of God was so strong ..
Felt the peace from God , and Touched !


Then experience a super warm fire flowing from head to toe .
It was so real , that while it's going through my body .
I can even feel it's flowing through my throat .
I felt like coughing out .
A lump of super thick phlegm thingy came out of my throat .
I felt so much better ! Because I was coughing alot lately .
I also felt my knees are so much stronger , firmer .
My old injury .. every single pain , it's like not there anymore .
Like the it does not ache anymore of knees from long time kneeling down .
I don't know why . The cracks in my knees I use to always hear is also GONE !


God not only touched me , not only encouraged me ..
God healed me !

My 3-in-1 God !
Hallelujah :D


Isn't this amazing ?
He fills my heart .
My previous worries ..
Seems like not important already .
I use to think that .. I have zero . nothing in my life .
now ..
Yes , I have nothing . Empty pocket also . But I have God .
A God that is greater than anything .
A big big God that can contain in any shapes of heart in this world .
The only one that I would be always willing to give to .
He's the God of my life .



Ask me who is the one I seek for whenever I'm in trouble ?

Now you know .
Because , no one can ever replace Him in my heart .
My number 1 :D



Ps : God also showed me a way to resolve everything .
and SOLVED :D


life still goes on . ((:

Xoxo .
I Love y'all !