The angels came into my dream last night .
i didnt know they are angels .
until , i finally figure it out somewhere .
hahahahas , sure sound childish .
the angel came and some how encouraged me .
haaas , somehow said that i've been doing really well .
ask me keep up the good work ..
good girl infront of mommy , friends and family .
and she said , some of my secrets out ..
then bla blahh i cant remember , she just said well done .
uhm , i really dont know what is this dream all about .
Gosh .
but its a good dream anyway ! <3




then right .
i came to a thought like ..
some times i really need to relax myself like jianwen.
really so care free until . every day can "kiao kar "
then no need think so much .
sometimes i need to do things that i dont like .
please understand that , i dont like to do them so !
and please what ever i do is for God's sake .
i sometimes do have orders to do .
then after i tried to help something i actually dont need to do ,
people try give me another image like imma busy body .
AM I STUPID OR WHAT ?!
you'll say .
" they dont appreciate or care then leave them alone lahs ! go care for what ?!! "

WHO DONT WANT ?!
every one sure want a easier way .
why would i lead my life like a cinderella ?
Gosh .
some more people will complain i do not good enough ..
WTFish ?!
i just want to rant it out .
i admit it .
i seriously felt this is totally really not me .
this is something ive never been like doing about .
i really hate being controlled over or what .
when you tried to accomplish something with instructions .
then still need to face what come next .
RAHHHS .
hate the feeling totally .
im not acting like what i want others to see me outside .
i just dont want to see my bad self in the mirror like before .
its really sad .
when what ever you've done people just treat it like you dont deserve anything .
okays . this is my blog after all .
i can write what ever i feel inside .




Recently got stalked by a stranger .
really strange stranger .
i dont know what he's up to .
seriously , really scared .
but it's over i guess ?
hope so (:(:




i made it for the 48 hours fast with God !!!
HALLELUJAH !
amen amen , super happy .
my prayers did work well i guess ?
mommy's 2 opponents stalls next to her are all closing soon .
that she no one will come snatch customer from her liao .
wahahahas , good thing .
RESOURCES OH LORD !
man .
i have this very strong Faith in me .



Today went to Amanda's condo to practice singing .
morning had my porridge a bedok market !
i tell you when i taste the first sip of chin chow ..
can fly i tell you !!
then eat the super nice porridge .
tell you super heavenly .
suddenly its just a happiness burning inside you .
like you're really getting more and more closer to God .
some one so great in your life is really awesome !
ofcause porridge and chin chow cant do !
currypuffs <3
amanda still belanja me eat sweet corn somemore ! :DDD
hahahahas , super blessed with food .
and then practice went well .
but i just felt like going to east coast , vivo , sentosa .. blah blah
just places that i can enjoy fresher air .
i just need air to breathe .
then .. we went to go in all the facilities in the condo .
wahahahas .
we went swimming .
it was raining . i didnt care .
Amanda is super afraid of cold water .
she sat under the big big umbrella stand .
i swim swim until song song .. the security guard come and said this ..
" eh girl ah better get up you know .. now raining ah .. later thunder strike ah !!! "
he added on .. " you never watch the news ? the dragon boat one !! 5 people die ah ! "
i was like .. errm .. okays !
i thought it was because of the people didnt wear life jackets ?!
okays whatever .
then we praised and worship under the big big umbrella .
pray for shalynne , yueze and my mommy !!
so we went to the gym and do some work out .
hahahahas , we chatted bout some super funny stuffs.
the rain seem not that heavy already ..
then we decided to like go back to the pool .
indian uncle said " cannot not lah .. sorry ah .. manager very "niao" one ah ..."
then we go to the hot hot spa pool .
tell you super hot .
but feels good :D
come home with skin tear some more .
at first thought its the rocks or what that made my skin feels spiky .
hahahahas , then know its skin burn liao !
* faints *
then went to the steam bath room .
20 degree .. feel like nothing ..
increase and kept increasing until we nearly forgot uncle say cannot reach 40 .
wahahahas ..
the steam room is like sauna but not the usual burning charcoal one .
i felt the steam one feels better xD
play until tired ler .
go bck her place eat ice cream (:(:
wahahahas , still got the bitter bitter biscuits to go with ice cream .
auntie shared with me about my future plannings .
like ive never thought before one .but auntie just simply shoot out like so easily .
yet so encouraging .
then thought over what auntie had said .
then find it kind of true .
compare bakers to beauty therapist ..
baker seem really a better job ehs ?
hahahahas . after how auntie explains and all .
not bad not bad , at least now i learn to think !
thanks auntie ! <3




tomorrow Dry run for competition already .
and , friday competition somemore !
people know who you are must come support me !!
xDD
i need popularity points !!! *
okay okays .
i need to end here .
it feel so much beter after screaming everything out from heart .
at least im still me after all .
(:



Jesus , you reigns inside my heart .