Sweet embrace where are you?

I'm writing with a very heavy heart .
Sis and I met a very tragic thing . None of us have expected this ,.
We were walking normally to get a cab after our lunch ,
And saw these 5 trees that were cursed . I was so scared , I told Sis don't go too near them..
My instinct kept telling me smethings is wrong, and my spirit doesn't feel right at all .
I begin to pray out loud and Karyn kept questioning what was that cursed tree about ..
Who knew suddenly..,
Sis got robbed by force and she flew outta the path.
A black motorcycle pulled away her sling bag by force they are Malay , nabei,
They rode their bike so fast that my Sis flew and fell on to the ground.
She knocked onto the ground and was bleeding badly!!!!
My heart pumped into silence. I ran to her and try to grab her up and found her bleeding all on the ground
I stood up and oie at them they look back but speed up and turned left .
Cb, their smoke smoke up the car plate . Pui!!!!!
Pcb, my sis lost all her valuables and mind . She gone stunned but remained calm,
I hold myself cool and stopped a car Malay somemore , pcb he just ask me to call for help to a cab driver..? And drove off,
Nabei, no wonder Malay are all going hell!!!!


We got into the cab and he speed us to a nearest medical hospital.
And one bkldl car try to cut our cab LANE!!!!!
But heng he dint dare to .
We contacted enren and we reached the hospital , according to Karyn the uncle dint charge us cab fares.
Sis got into the emergency room very fast as I kept on chasing them to speed things up..,
Karyn broke down and lost her emotions .
Sis head were all blood . All bloody her hair were all stocked altogether .
They clean her up and check her injuries,.
Not Only the head was injured , her Arm and leg got lotsa scratches too !
The crack on her heAd was around 1,5 cm and 2 cm deep.
My heart kept aching . But my sis is so brave that after the whole event , she dint drop one single drop if tears.
Me instead losing my patience cos the nurses and doctors are way TOO slow!!!!!



Enren reached together with Karyn family.
I felt more secure when I saw enren.





Sis did 5 stitches . 5 stitches!!!!<\3



Cut things compact now ,
We reported at the police station and present ourselves at the country inspector station.
They took photos for evidence,.
So on and so forth then we go to eat bak koot teh..
I was so touched, they rmbed !!!



Ending of we prayed a lil prayer when we were back in hotel .




And my lil prayer was :
If these were all just dreams that I often dreAmed....
I wanna wake up from this nightmare asap .
Amen,




Empty heart now,
Cher;;

In sunway now ,. Cold and happy .
Lol , watching tv under aye warm blanket about prison breakers...
HAaas , today I ate super yum jap food and had crazy shopping at bodyshop .
I didn't knew or expect that it's possible for us to walk back to our hotel.
But well, we walked and we made it. I can assure you , it was super scary for a night blind like me!
Jesus Christ ! I simply just walked closely with her infront and I kept walking outta line ...

It's like wow , you know . Tired but fun tho ,.... HA!



And my sis just now slipped and nearly fell down .,,!!!!
Wahahha! I laugh Like mad!!!!!!




I hope she will do as her promise for tmr :
Hellokitty!#•
and buckoot,teh !!




Xoxo ,
Cher;;

Taking Off tomorrow .

Bless me yo.

Xoxo,

Cherlyn,.

New mascara .

病了。。。。。。

fever , flu , cough , sore throat and severe headaches ...







:( :( :(




Sick cat now .
Good night .
; Cherlyn,.

Tao Li.

I think she is our glory glory .
Everyone should be proud of her !


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At this time , this chapter of of my life ..
I am confused ; very confused .
Even though i have no regrets in my world .
As it is . As I am sucha moving on person .

It confuse me even more , the purpose .
The purpose I see in every individual is at most a hard rock . like a mega gangster rock star !
What about mine ? Honestly right now , i have none . Ofcause I have a purpose to live for .




How many actually . How many actually live their life like Bruce Lee .?


Look , all the Lilees are here .



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25.11
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY .,Huimin.
Today , i only remembered all our happy memories .
and i laughed at myself .
Imissyou !




Cher,.

181818 后续.....

I oughta feel so sorry for my diary .

how can i miss out writting about my big day ?

My birthday on OCT 9 ~~~

lols , first of all , i must say i really enjoyed my day :D

I celebrated my birthday at arena .

Crazy party night with kacey , allen , gresent and wilson .

I met 2 other birthday girls . And they made me dance drop dead .

And I actually got drunk by this particular drink from a table with full of blackies .

OMG . literally ? & lotsa funny things happen after that not to mention ..

K.c with the others can't stop video-ing me my ugly moments . LOL

they were mad hillarious .I even said my old address on the way home ???

According to k.c .. Lol ..

They actually asked for my keys .. and my reply was : 妖怪...(refers to my beloved domokun pouch )

-.-'' they searched my whole bag and found it . and say YAH ,, REALLY YAO GUAI !!

I must've beeen really irritating . oh , and..

>.<>

The vids are totally amazing . cos , the laughter i produced was something i can't laugh out now . in anytime ..

-_____________-"

My celebration with my family "grew"a lill bit different from the usuals .

And it's my first time to celebrate it with my the other relatives ..

My birthday celebration with my family was always cozy . with only my mommy,and sis .

But this year , i wouldn't say weird . but surprising-ly , my 3rd uncle asked my mom to invite me for a birthday dinner with his family and my second aunt that also stays in hougang ?

Honestly , I feel totally awkward at first , because you know he's actually one of the most feirce uncle out of 5 that i have under my mom's family tree catogory .

The reason he'd asked us out might be because he wanted to celebrate my sis' birthday too that actually falls on the same month with me just earlier by a few days?

IDK . but i really do appreciate that . Thanks三舅~!

I received gifts ofcos this year

the above picture are not specially featured okay .

I you guys must be thinking they're both hellokitty thats why i only post this .

But this is the only picture that i manage to capture before my heavy work arrive .

the keyboard from hui ! which im typing them now ~

And the kitty with teddy , my all time love from lingli ~ .

I also receive quite a few cool gifts this year i must say ,.

My mom bought me a pandant . a ruby like one . and she hid it from me .(i thought)

to make me find .!! I searched the whole room and found no clue .

Then find out that my mom didn't hide it away for me to find .

just that the week end maid misplaced it ..

hmmmmm..another mad love.

I shall assume tommy hilfiger's dreaming from my sis was a birthday gift as well . Ehem ..

Cg gave me aye surprise celebration after cg .

I went to the toilet super urgently right after cg , cos my bladder were bursting .

and when i came out , sha were announcing things . and half way through she bamp out the birthday song ! Super heart melting moment with a small lil cake with a warm hearting candle~

how sweet ?

They gave me aye printed half tee . that i mad love .

I super love half off shoulders nao . and the shirt got OMG printed in big Fonts .

ha . I like that ! Thanks Sha , thanks guys :)

Ehhhh...

I also got receive from ahboon !!!

I seriously thought he'll forget my birthday nor .

But he rmb sei .

As usual present sent directly to my door step .

hahahha XD

This year , very special .

GOT 2 !

One fury bag that caught ahboon's eye a whole time . and a pair of golden leaves falling ear danglings .

Super nice right ?

And ...

I'm Super cold now . i must hit the sack now .

Updates soon ,

Xoxo,

Cherlyn.

Oh Bring back , oh bring back , oh bring back my ah boon to me to me !!





I MISS AH BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON !!!




That lucky cap must be enjoying his taiwan trip lor ..
humphs ,
JEALOUS ! ):




; C H E R ,.

Melody that brings me to a whole new world .

One after another ...

have anyone really felt the way im feeling now ?
the feeling of losing someone forever , and having the regrets all left behind under your heart .. it's silent pain . & it kills you slowly ..




Tell me how .. how can i live on like this ..?





I think I'm really going crazy soon .



God , SPARE ME ...!!!!!!!!




Cherlyn,.

My Love ; My Fate .

You will fade away .

Sometimes , I do still feel sorry ;

But , each time I feel that way , I know that I'm happy .

Cus , Giving up now may seems like forever .

But to me its like I've done my greatest dance move under the lights .

So please be happy for me that i skip this page for now .

I have more things to do .

And that will not include the trouble-some twinkling sound outside my window.

I'm sure You know , It's not the rain drops .

That actually my heart is bleeding .

I'll miss you always .

Xoxo ,

Cherlyn

Sun illuminated on our earth, but only once a day not forever.
Same as good things, not forever.
Don't take it for granted.

So what can I say ?

What can I say - Carrie Underwood .

Piercing words, eyes are red
Watched your taillights in the rain
Empty heart filled with regret
I know we were both to blame

And I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
So I said all I had to say
In letters that I threw away

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
What can I say?

How did it come to this?
I think about you all the time
It's no excuse, but I wish
That I never made you cry

I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
I couldn't find the words to say

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
So what can I say? What can I say?

What can I say? What can I say?

I hate to think all you had of me
(I said all I had to say)
Is a memory I left you, pace between what was meant to be
(In letters that I threw away)
And the mess that it turned into

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
It's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
What can I say? What can I say?

Catch The Fire Yo,

They ran pass Hougang ave 8 . & I manage to snap 'em .

oH YEA oH YEA oH YEAHHHH ~

LOL .

I left Ooosh the other day .

& Imma so not going back . I'm so happy .

MUAHAHAHAHAHA .

Went to Vietnam for holiday and I had fun .

The stones , the PHO , the NIGHT MARKET . and last but not least the elegance hotel @ honoi.

I really miss the great hospitalism over there . they really take good care of you .

I super wanna upload all the photos here .

Loves ttm,

Cherlyn,.

今天，感触很多..
觉得..
我在这个世界拼命些什么.... ......? 累死我...


还有..这首歌..我很爱..

大口的呼吸 像離了水的魚
大步的離去 用我最後一絲力氣
每陣風 每場雨 都加速愛情的凋零
散發出 斑駁的氣息
眼看愛 慢慢的腐敗 慢慢的解散
慢慢沉入暗黑的深海
這個世界上 什麼東西不會壞
大口的呼吸 像離了水的魚
大步的離去 用我最後一絲力氣
每陣風 每場雨
都加速愛情的凋零
散發出 斑駁的氣息
都怪我 偏偏要去愛
偏偏要等待 偏偏幻想我會是例外
不管那時候 愛得多不知好歹
壞了就該淘汰
明明我早就明白,...
....坏了就该淘汰



算了..
不该再想你了,. ((:



Xoxo ,
Cherlyn ;

@$@#%#$!@##%$@#$!@#!@#!

Hi diary , I'm upset . VERY UPSET.



My 159 bus got stucked in the middle of no where @ shengsiong mart .
I gotta alight and walk to work if not , i'll be so damn effing late .
I got up from the last seat of my bus and got bumped into this si 38.
FAT , Block my way nevermind bag carry until so big dont know for what ,.
I say "excuse me" she look at me , then act like nothing happen continue talking on phone !
Sarah jessica Parker ahhhhh! I raised my voice this time to say excuse me ..
She then siam . then i walk pass her . she shout across " CB LAHHHH! "




WAH .. I jitao angry and should back : "HELLO! 好狗不挡路没有听过吖???"
then she keep quiet and look at me one kind , I took off my shades and look back at her 2 KIND .




rahhhhhhhhhhh,.
PU SENG AHHHH.




死三八,never die before .




Worst still , the stupid driver left the whole bus of passengers alone and gone to shengsiong shopping !!!!


HORRIBLE !



& someone ask me to help her take things from her bag today .
she didn't want to tell me where is it , so i searched .
And she blamed me for qiao-ing her bag .
Seriously ridiculous .
不要脸!!who wanna qiao your bag ?
next time ownself take , i'm not here to help you take things like your ah sam okay ,.?



Fuck up .



Lousy day.
;; Cher .

Finally ! :D

Perry is talking to me as usual .
I can fly . He's redye-ing my hair soon .
I'm over the moon ..




And now ....

I'm going out to play with kacey my love & gang !













Lalalalalala .
Cherlyn ,.

我爱他...

我爱他..很爱他..




你想象不到的那种爱. (:





Xoxo ,
Cherlyn.

Wish you'd never looked at me that way.

Hi , I wish I could hug my kinno 24/7 .





Class now adays is sianified .
From friday till now . Perry wouldn't be coming up anymore .
He won't be talking to us anymore .
He won't say hello to me as friendly as before .
My heart is brokened .



Why is he so dao to us now .
Just by what they say , he just loses his trust for us now .
I really have nuts to say .
But we really do trust and respect him .




Hopes he comes back to us soon ,
& I hope I'll pass my test .
Hands don't shiver . PLEASE .


I don't know why , but i really hope to escape from this nest .
His words kept changing .
I can't tolerate his misbelieve.
Others are calling me not to leave but stay with his team .
But sorry , I hope I wouldn't be the chosen one to stay.
I really am thankful of him , But I won't wanna work with him .
Cus , I wanna be free .



While working @ Ooosh, the speakers played ByeBye * . Thought of Yan & huimin.
& now , I do miss huimin alot .
I wonder what she'd say .



BYE.
Cher;

JUNEEEEEEE.Want Love or Fame ?

All random-ly up yo.
HAHAHAHAHA.






Xoxo
Yours Truely.

Xoxo ,
Cher.

Today when I was packing my bag for the day as usual .
I always had to have these things in my bag for the day which are super heavy ..

1. mirror,comb.
2. hair kit tools.
3. working uniform
4. make up pouch
5. notebook
6. daily schedule
   
   And when I was folding my working uniform to put it in , i thought ,...
   how i wish i don't have to carry my heavy hairkit tools wherever i go .
   just simply working on my basics .
   I thought again , hey no . it's my dream isn't it ..
   why is it becoming sucha burden for me now ?
   Isn't that what I want ? Lotsa questions kept popping out
   
   
   
   
   I had this urge to not bring my hair kit totally man .
   but I thought again , hey no . I can't live without them .
   They're now my living tools already .

   
   
   
   Isn't life too tough ..?
   If I had to chose . so much .
   Right now , I'm loving God ,I'm lovin' my job . lovin' school , loving my church.
   And what else can I even complain ?
   Sometimes I do blame myself for pushing myself too hard .
   And neglect the people around me .
   Like A. J . Thank God , they're always helping me out when i can't manage after school cus i have to rush to work .
   they're always there to help me when i can't manage my models . like rinsing their coloured hair .
   I always have to rush off , and i don't have the time to wait for the hair colour being processed .
   They always help me to take care of my work etc , without any word.
   
   
   
   
   Today , while we're putting dye one sha's head .
   My head went blank . I was like in outta space thinking of fire fighters in space or whatever i guess .
   Perry gave us instructions on what he wanna do , what he don't wanna see .
   And When he ask me to do it . I went to do the things he don't wanna see ..
   Like . omg , cherlyn what the hell are you doing ??
   
   
   
   
   Ask me now , I don't know either .
   Last week worst .
   
   
   
   
   During work attatchment , I was curling a model's head .
   super longgggggg , more than 20 inches man .
   and it's artificial hair , all plastic-y and like elastic kind extention attatched.
   To-The-Hair.
   She claimed it's 100% real hair , I really doubt so .
   Cus , When my curling thong gets into it right , smokes kept coming out .
   And mind you , because it's not real hair I put the thong temperature to only 90 deg.
   and , it's burning the hair like as if it's cooking ! burns my fingers like mad.
   normal natural hair can take up to 180 deg. and hers were like .. wthhhhhh.. T_T
   when i feel like giving up . i was just drawing the 3rd section only !
   Like 6 more to go !!!
   WOAHHHHH, worst still , I burn't my fingers more .
   Not because of the irritating artificial hair .
   Cus , I took the wrong side of the thong!!!
   the heating part . instead of the handle ...
   Omg ...
   I dropped the thong on the tray .and started spraying setting hair spray on it .
   Woah , It was super hot! AS hot As my mom's hot pot cooking chicken soup kind .
   SOBS .. No more hu hu from mommy...
   Perry came to take over me when he sees me getting out of hand .
   and , same like me . he burned his hand handling the wrong side of the thong .
   he threw the thong on floor and shouted OUCH!
   Then he look at me with a face like . and said ..
   Now i know why your hands were shivering when doing the hair already .
   cherlyn , this kind of hair .. you must do qi gong one . look at me arrrh .. i do let you see ..
   i said ,, ORH.....
   hahahahahahahaha.
   he was sweating like mad . cus it was VIP room ..
   
   
   
   
   My life is too lucky to have people giving in to me .
   I'm really guilty .
   Upset .
   Cus , of my dream ..
   my mates , my colleagues have to give in to me so much .
   and , I seem to have nothing to say , except to accept their offers of help .
   I never asked from them , trust me . It's really their heart sincering wanting to help me .
   I thank them today .
   and one of them said..super touching ..
   " Cherlyn , please don't mention .. looking at you so chiong for your dream, just makes me wanna help you more . Please don't feel that you're alone or you owe us kay ? I'll be there for you ! "
   Woahhhh , The last time i hear this was super long ago liao ..
   wait , like don't have ley .
   
   
   
   I really feel super guilty .
   And I feel like Imma super selfish , if i really were to take them for granted .
   Ofcause I wont lahhh. But ..
   
   
   
   
   Right now ..
   There's really nothing much I can do . Except to accept .
   Sigh . This kinda feeling sucks . Like super selfish ..
   
   Sigh .
   
   
   
   
   
   The other day me , eve and hiroko san was talking @ OOosh bar.
   I asked hiroko san to give me a jap name .
   I requested for a name starting with L .
   And , she said something that sounds close to a vular word in hokk.
   and Eve really laughed out loud saying the the vulgar word over and over again.
   I was like .. Woahhh , laugh at me lahh .. it's not the bad word lorrr..
   sherry heard the conver at the counter. and told perry ..
   Then perry came and talk to me ..
   saying that I shouldn't have share dirty jokes at his place .
   I was like huh ?????
   I didn't share any joke or laugh ? hmmm, okay ........
   Then he said .. I know ! I went to scold Eve off already,...!
   (in an angry manner)
   I kept quiet . looked at him .
   he then moved on saying about class ..
   
   
   
   
   & Today , I heard news about Eve resigned ..
   I was so shocked ..?!
   I kept asking why..
   And he told me it's not regarding me . so don't needa ask ....
   
   
   
   
   
   Rahhhhh.
   I really don't wish to know if it's really because of me ..
   I really .....
   
   
   
   ): ): ):
   Am Very guilty ...
   
   
   
   
   Sighhhhh,,...
   
   
   
   
   
   Shakarabahaiiiiiiiiiiii.
   
   
   
   
   
   God , You raised me here .. I will not give up .
   you're the only reason for me now to continue . So strengthen me again!
   
   

Xoxo
Cherrrrr.

It's been awhile .. isn't it ?

才发现,很多东西不能只用一个角度去看..
很多东西要闯过了,伤痕累累,骈体岭伤..才能学会..
太多失望的记恨,不是一天两天.
而是要领悟了,在"心"爬起来..




人的勇敢，很多时候都是要在软弱的时候才会诊的秀出来..
上帝也许才能从中让我门体验他的力量..





想东西其实很累..
而,以前的人我应该记完了..现在有点后悔..
我害怕在跟着人群走..


{♥}
因为有你牵着我,让我不再害怕黑暗.
让可恶天杀的魔鬼离开我的世界..
让我在被爱.
就因为我拥有你..
{♥}



将就够了..



赞美主!
Loves ,
Xoxo ,
Cher ,. ;;;;;

I MISS HUIMINNNNNNNNNNNN~

All of us miss you ..

hiroko san miss you too ..

T_T

sigh ...

Cherlyn.

What hurts the most ..

I don't know when did this seed grew at the bottom off my heart .
To reject everyone .
But since the day you saw me , you want me to remove the seed . I did .
& I promise to try to bloom another garden .
I want to be who Imma gonna be . not here . Ain't stoppin'
Faith arised in me , I step forward with expectation .
But , devil didn't let me go . he took away again yet again another friend of mine .
sand , xiao yan now .. hui min .
I really don't know how to react to this .
I just don't wanna try to be a stronger self from learning this lesson of losing .
I really hate it .
But I just have to go through it .
I can't be anymore sorry to have said those mean words .
but , I really can't bear to lose my friends .
I seriously miss huimin . I really am still in stunned world .
She was really still fine the other day ..!
Just in a few hours , devil took her away ..




My heart never stop aching when her name is being mentioned .
She's still so young , she haven't got married !
We haven't got to hit our dreams , how can she be so selfish to have chose to left us ?
all of a sudden ? all these question marks never left .



Looking at the photos we took , I told myself ..
Huimin , I will do my best of what you couldn't manage and you wished to do .
Imma gonna do your part extra to fulfil both of our dream .



Can you hear me talking ?
Beibei , I'm so happy when your father went to beat him up .
I'm so so sorry , I know you'll be upset .
But still , hearing of the news of him being beaten up just got me all excited .
Because , I feel he deserves it lor .
Don't be mad okay ? Ps : your dad looks super man when he's talking for you :)
*envy* I never had that kinda experience having my dad's protection !




Well , If that's really you in class today .
I hope , you'll really rest in peace .
Don't naughty! Stop wondering around already .. okay ?



Love you .
Xoxo ,
Cherlyn.

You left .. all sudden .
Left nothing spoken .
You promise to come and see joyce hair .
You told me you love God ..
You're the silliest girl i've ever seen who's so in love with a lousy person .
You're also the most brave person who dares to hold a knife to protect her love one .
You taught me how to bear through .
You don't like me to be unhappy ..




And now , you're gone .
How do you think me and the other girls are going to take it ..
You always ask whether we're listening to you .
have you ever listen to what we say ?
And now , you can't hear us .. you're so selfish ..


You simply took away everything .
and gave us only a 3 month memory ..





Huimin , we really miss you ...
Rest in peace ..

Toothache the monster .

2nd Wisdom tooth on the left side bottom is growing very the much .
It's causing me to be in pain for 24/7 very very the much .
Damn . HURTS MORE when sleeping ..
喜欢听歌的我,都会因为太痛到觉得歌很难听...
howwwwwwww .




PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!

PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!

PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!





*PRAYERS*
Sobs ..



Eating pain killers . eat until sian ..
Last time I don't let ah le eat pain killers de ..
hahaha , I also never eat before ..
but really pain until .... sigh ..
eating it every 6 hours ..
unhealthy hor ??



pray for me lah .




Test didn't go well for me today , because toothache strucked me halfway during blow drying .
Pain killers weren't by my side ... had to bear through it . with my head spinning ....
SIGH...
Perry must me very dissapointed ...




Cried ...




Tired le .
Good night .

Don't ever leave me in the dark anymore .

Just , secure me in your arms safe .

Cus , I'm tired of searching for you .

MARRRRRCHHHHH.~

LIFE'S BEEEN TIRINGGGGGZXZXZXZXZXCZXZXZZXSSSZXZX.
Ask me how am i? I'll reply not as good as you .
LOL .



school work school work school work school work school work church worrkkkkzxzxzx .
rahhhhh . where's my rest day ?? hahahaha .
Schedule is powderful packed .
Kite flying sessions with vin is really super fun .
and oh , yeah . I'm enjoying my classes to the max .
Coloring , perming comes in . wheeeeeeeeeee .



Even though I have my freedom , i still feel restricted .
Sometime , I feel I'm worst than a prisoner .
Wth, move to new house don't even have big door's key .
Gotta hit the bell everytime . . stupid lor .
I don't know whatever . I just feel it's super immature of 'em .



I don't know what .
Recently my dad sent me aye sms saying that he met up with aye accident .
that he injured his arms and legs .
I didn't even bother to reply . Am I heartless or what ?
I can even treat it like nothing happen ..
TSk... I really don't want to care much .




Found any difference with my hair ?
I dyed it . Perry chose jap black for me ..
hahahaha .
Okay lah , many ppl say i look better with black hair ..
But I feel kinda uneasy to it now .
cus , i feel super blackkkkkkk .



I really just wanna love myself more .

Well boon boon .,

Please get well sooooooon!

Xoxo

Cher ;

Finally forgotten him .
But during sat's service , that bitch actually sat right behind me .
wahhhhh ,. ji tao moodless .
And she's tone deaf . so she sing damn loud with tone gone wrong .
super distracting .
Thank God i get over it . I thought I couldn't .





Finally recovered from my super high fever .
becoming super forgetful .




Ahhh , cherlyn come back .




Xoxo,
CHER.

I love ALPEOR .

I LOVE ALP ALP ALP ALPEOR .
lalalala .
loving it more than yamano .
OOOPS .
check it out ..!
My new love of skin care brand .

Alpeor's website . HERE




hahahaha , I got discounts , you don't have .
Alpeor's effect is just way too awesome .
Their skin care penetrates the fastest !
And you know what , they're best formulated for allergic skin .
Double shiokness .

I'm just so lucky to have met alpeor's CEO , Mr Alex .
His own philosophy have really inspired me .
& I really admired his attitude of how he's running alpeor's skin technology .
Super specific , accurate and efficient .
We need more this kind of people in the world of face mannnn .



LOVES for ALP ALP ALP ALPEOR ! :D




Wearing their night cream tonight .



XOXO !
Cher.

I don't like you . Get it ?

I don't need your diamond blings or your dirty money .
No point of you going around asking about me .
Quit searching .



Cus , I'll never let you in .





; Cher .

Pervert Fuck Off .

Today , a super heavy rain struck down when I leave Ooosh .
then bobian took a cab down to hougang from town .
then met this si indian uncle driver super sicko .
I told him where i wanna go , after awhile while waiting for traffic light ..
He said .. " sorry ah , miss please excuse me ah ... my baby brother is misbehaving .. "
Then I was like , huh ? Then I act like i never hear . Cus i don't get him .
Then he adjusted his seat to the lying down kind .
And he fucking UNZIPPED HIMSELF ! FUCK seriously .
he effing show his black penis lah . WAS DAM EFFING GROSS .
& I was seriously fucking shivering scared .



He adjusted his seat back to normal when the green light shown .

Wanted to call someone .. then mobile no batt . don't know why can't on. maybe kennah rain water then sot diao . !!
Walau,damn pissed off that moment .

Then he keep looking at me at the mirror .
then I use hand cover my face , then look outside ..
then fake fake talk on the phone . which i think work alot .



I was damn pissed off .
He kept on rubbing his penis , and making alot of noise .
Keep on "tsk " and he kept on talking to his "baby brother" aka his penis to behave ..



WTH LAHHH .





Then when reach hougang le that time ..
He say .. " aiyoh , young lady , you so pretty .. i don't charge you lah .. have a nice day ..."
I was like .. easter frame muster froam .
I throw $10 on the don't know what and stomp out off the cab .



I FEEL FUCKING OFFENDED MAN .
Why me .. so suay ???



WALAU .




Whoever is cursing . you better stop !



I'm so worried over someone .
I can't sleep at all .
Don't forget me .. will you ?



Cher ;

New year planszxzxzxzzxxzz!

I re-edited .
I'll cut short . In point forms .

• No boyfriend for 2 years .
• learn to be more patient .
• Master the skills that perry san teach .
• Be as good as perry san .
• Win myself .
• Save $400 per month ? (hmmmm)
• Cut the length of my hair . no more long hair !
• By the end of the year , I wanna be a ready hair stylist .
• Forget about my past .
• Focus more on what I'm doing .
• Don't wear lip gloss on windy days .
• Buy more mascaras , it's never enough . *abit wrong hor ?* Shakehead*
• Drink more water in the morning .
• Eat my meals on time .
• Eat more carrots T_T
• Practice to be more polite .
• I wanna smile more often .
• kick the habit of funny expressions .
• no more Tsk .
• Yes to the word awesome .
• Spend more time with kinno .
• Listen to more happy songs .
• Delete all the emo songs .
• Love my new toilet .
• Wear good push up bras . no more cotton on .
• Practice healthy skin care routine daily. ( which I'm doing now )
• Remember to wash my towels .
• Practice on dollie heads 3 times a week .
• Spend lesser on food . and more for shoessssss :D
• wanna get a DKNY watch . still considering .
• Go for driving lessons by the end of the year . ( unconfirmed )
• Have more revelations and visions from God . spend longer quiet time .
• Quit eating fries . no more fries from macdonald's .
• Wanna buy a good lasting boots . price ain't a problem .
• Hoping to change the attitude of myself .
• Buy new shades .
• Think more positive .
• Have my schedule planned monthly properly .
• Be more flexible to changes . * Cherlyn cannot be so systematic!!!*
• Be a less perfectionist .
• Be more acceptable to the things around me .
• Be more open in inspirations .
• Forget L .
• No more Cantonese songs .
• Overcome the fear of height .
• learn to be more brave .
• accept criticism .
• learn how to encounter sarcasm
• Have more grace with people I don't like .
• Quit disagreement .
• Buy more snacks and toys for kinno .
• Be more organised .
• Walk faster .
• Work on everything I've listed .

Happy Chinese New Year to all !

Gong Xi fa Cai ahhh .

Cai yuan gun gun lai ahhh.

Kuai gao zhang da ahhhh.

Xue ye jin bu ahhh..

Fu ru dong hai shou bi nan shan ahhh !

Huat AHHHHH !

Imma Lucky child .

Even though I'm feeling not as happy as before .
Even though I've lost quite alot of few things because of my mistakes .
That made me so cold to all the things happen around me ..



But I will never deny one thing ..
That I'm really blessed with lotsa good people around me .
My life can be filled with lotsa suay things , I can tell you .
Eh no , Perri san says they're not suay things .. they're called challenges ..
Yep .. But , seriously speaking , I always have good people that give grace and help me along the way ..




People that are close to me will know ..
The first person that helped me alot through this hard time ..
Jacelyn .. my current boss .
I mean .. ofcus , partly if it's not by her ..
I won't be here today to have the chance to work part time and study .
Like cey said , " you think what , your mom open shop ah . want what time work jiu what time work ? "
But surprisingly , she approved ?
I don't know her well .. but from recently after a few months of observing her ..
I can feel , she's a not bad person . and I kinda look up to her .
It's very rare when I look up to a person okay ?
Lol ..
Recently in my work place , my manager accused me of copying checking perfume inventory .
My manager reported to her , and she agree and approved to fine me a whole sum of $80 for copying .
Which made me so angry that I actually asked her out and reason with her .
She didn't believe me . until I asked her to check the cameras again .
She didn't said anything . she kept quiet . and looked at me .
She just said okay .
Then after a few days , I heard from my cey that during company meeting she actually speak up for me.
she felt so bad that she need to take back her words .
Because , she never took back her words . thats her principle .
But because of me .. she ...

I'm so greatful (:



Before entering into her company , I really considered a effing long time .
Cus i have to work on week ends , which will make me miss my weekend svces ..
God told me it'll be temporary . & I'm gonna make it through.
I prayed a long time in making this decision .
Even sha also actually objected .
But I kept on praying . & believing .
And who knows .. Everything went well .
Jacelyn actually don't need part time .. but she approved to let me continue .
I always thought of her giving me the worst scenarios and outcome .
But she always give me the best scenarios going according to my schedule .
Where to find seriously ?
Boss going according to you . totally not bossy . super nice right ?


What made me felt bad is that ..
She actually don't treat others that well like me ..
From others sight , I'm really favoured by her .
Because everyone knows that I won't stay long . But she's still keeping me .
and all her secret blessing gifts she gave ..
Just because she feels that I have great potential in her company ..
She told me that her doors will always be wide open for me .
She dotes me like no body's business man ..



I'm really touched .




Really thank God for her ..




haha ,
my friend sent me like a chain email for new year self changing chart or smth .
I've done half of it . and will post it up in my blog soon .
Oh ! and more updates about Ooosh with perry san ! my superstar .




MORE MORE MORE UPDATES SOOONNNN.
Till then .
bye :D



Xoxos ,
Cher.

3rd day..
still no news of them ..







What should i do now .




Goodnight ..

YOU MESSED AROUND WITH THE WRONG PERSON,

Today during work .. I...
Saw someone's back view super like L .
Yellow lion spike head .
Vest and shirt .
Blue pants that dont match to go with ..
Grey shoes . ( super alike the nike that i bought with him at leftfoot. )
Shucks , is it him ?
I went to look , but can't see the faceeeee !
The person went out from the kopitiam exit with his cigs .



My heart nearly stopped for a few seconds .




Sian lor .




Even if it's him .. so what ...?

Lol , same old thing what ... DUH !



------------------------------------------------*





ACCUSED ME THAT I EFFING LIED ?
DON'T LET ME SEE YOUR GF ON STREET .
I STILL EFFING HAVE MY OLD PHONE WITH ME .
AND ALL THE SMSES YOU SENT ME THEN , WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER .



THEN LETS SEE WHO'S THE BEST ACTOR IN TOWN LAH HOR .



CURTAINS FINALLY CLOSING ..



LOL .


you can say whatever you want .
I have nothing to hide .



Hur ,
Good luck .


------------------------------------------------------*

UPDATE :

Needa pack up my room already , cause of moving to thy new house yo !

threw away all my primary old memories stuffs .

found lotsa neo prints and i'm keeping 'em ..

Thenn...

I threw all the things that the effing UGLIEST ghost gave me .

ALL MEANS ALL . not even a card is left .

Instead of feeling sad , I feel relieved .

Even though one of it used to touched my heart alot .

Now i wont see it anymore , so i won't think about him anymore .

But by throwing all of 'em away , it's a good ending point .

To embark on my new starting point .

And I'm happy . Cause I've forgotten the person .

who ah ? I don't know . I don't want to know .

Accused me with all you want..

Cus , not only me know that you're that kind of person .

and how flirt you actually are .

People misunderstand me , i won't care .

And I won't blame them . Cus they're also innocent .

hahaha ,. whatever . I hate explaining .

BYE .

ticks ticks ticks .
I'm racing with the time .




Busy like siao .
Don't even have time to shit .




drank green apple + mango ice blend bubble tea today .
super double shiokness .



Oh darling , anna sui's dollie head for $38 real 100ml tester .
Sucha good buy for collection . why not ?



Today is sucha chupalang day .
& , now , i don't even feel like the energy to write secrets here .





Cus , today got hella alot of people give me their effing attitude for nothing .
And hella alot of people gave me unplanned last minute decisions for me to do ..




& Imma so hella pissed off .
Don't simple say things are easy when you can't do it .




Don't assume things .
Easterframe Muster froam lah .




Lao niang now damn sleepy .
Goodnight .




Xoxo,
Cherlyn,.

I may fall . But I never stop trying ,

Thank God man , I'm finally feeling much better .
Today ..
Perry want us to reblow dry straight for our dollies .
and so we did . again , all over again .
lol , my dollie still looks the best among all . lalala ..
others all pong sai gao hair look . only mine is dangerously way too chio .
I'm not lying . it's true , even perry says so .
BLEAH .

huimin wash my hair for practice .
Had a bad headache after that .
super seh , on the way to work .
but manage to be early for work . so double ptl .



Had lunch and had my medicines .
Strength was all I needed from heaven man .
hur hur ..
do my perfume inventory .. wipe my australis duties .
wooosh , 4 hours gone . 6 receipts only ..
sbs ....
then needa do outlet return . double sian . cus got super alot of hidden chupalangs .
aiyah , OT until 10 . no double $$ .. sob sob .



Today while listening to songs in my music player and browsing through my daily picts from the past ,.
i find myself questioning myself alot of emo questions ..
which i myself dont understand or care all along .
like since when have i become so cold .
since when have i become so much bo chup .
since when have i become so shut down on the inside .
why am i such a unhappy person now ..
where did those happy smiles in my photos gone to ?

I really hate the way i am now ..



But , i just can't do anything anymore .
just holding on to someone . closely in my heart .
pulling myself through this hard time with God .
focused on the vision I had .
I just simply wanna obey and follow through .



ignore all those hurts and noises around me .
cus , maybe from there .. I can find my peace .




Just there ,
I learn to love myself more .
Still the same , no need explanations .


Cus , the best love I've ever found through God is the strong trust .

See this space below . This is lovely ..

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams!

Live the life you've imagined .

- God to cherlyn

Source : faith .

下起雨也要勇敢前进,脚步要更加坚定!
Cherlyn ah cherlyn , be brave !




btw , my poor ah boon dislocated his arms ..
he only got his arms fixed after a terrible 6 hours or more ?
super heartache luh .
Don't know whether he's better now already .
But he sound over the phone . as excited and sweet as always :D
Keep him in prayers ya .



Oh , ah piaos .. shoo shooo away from ah booon!



chucks chucks chuckszxzxzxzxzzz :D




Xoxo ,
Cher ;;

我恨你.非常...!

EFF . EFF . EFF .

CHERLYN CONDEMNS ALL SCREEN COWARDS , PHONE COWARDS , AND BLOODY WHAT EVER COWARDS .

screen cowards : People who don't dare to say facts infront of your face , only knows how to type on their private blogs to complain about you . seriously , irritating-ly FUCK ,.

SAME GOES TO OTHERS .

Hey black shortie , since you like to play screen show .
I play with you .
First thing first .
Don't label me .
Don't fucking judge me .
Seriously , YOU ARE NO ONE TO JUDGE ME .
Even if we WERE friends last time or even much closer ,.
YOU ARE NO ONE OKAY .

I already said , I don't give a damn about you .
Cus, you don't effing give a damn about what I said or explained to you .
I give you what you give me dude .
Don't act as if I need your understanding or forgiveness .
Don't believe , Suah . I also don't care .

Because , I've been honest to you .
No point wasting my effort to be nice to you .
Seriously , don't act like as if I owe you a living or I should be sorry towards you .
本小姐,use to care , but now ? HELLL NO .



You can blame on me all you want .
Keep those fucking FAKE shits and lies that you assumed tangled in your heart and mind ,
FOREVER .
I DON'T CARE .
& I won't care anymore .



JUST DON'T FUCKING COME AND "O.O" WITH ME ANYMORE .
it's no longer cute / adorable to me .
infact , disgusting .




ask me to fuck off .



HEY ,
YOU FUCK OFF FIRST LUH OKAY ?
Or maybe jolly well roll off flow off . or like a dust kennah i blow off by 1 single second .



You're just an eye sore blister to me now .
with all you fake lies and you Good acting of sympathy .
hur hur , carry on and go ahead to those who don't know you well enough .



Cus I've seen enough .




Nuff said .
Shucks , I just made myself swear like mad because of a irritating DUST .



Fuck seriously .



aiyah , I don't care lah .
my flu sucks too .




Sorry dear diary ,
I just dirtied you with his shadows of his name .
I know how you feel .
And i feel sorry for you .
but , surely not him .



Good night earthlings ,
Bye dear diary ,.



Fuck off , Ghost .

Your tiny eyes when you smile .
Your warm hands that warms me up .
Your strong arms that protect me from harm .
Your lips that brings sweet melodies to my ears .
Your heart that melts my heart .




You just make my day so well .




Loves ,
Cher .

So what , if they have the world ?

Almost like nothing to fill in about over here this empty blank space.
Maybe all left with my sadness in my heart .




I got the feeling that this post is gonna be yet another emo entry,.
How ... I feel quite bad leh .. Aiyuh , my blog anyway right ..?


Haha , In my daily smiles you guys surely feel that Imma super happy person .
But people who read my blog would know . I am not ..





It's not that I have a "split personality " kinda thing ..
Just that , I don't know why . I don't like people to see my weak side .
Sigh . & I'm use to it already . People call me a fake .


I don't care . anyways (:



Alright , new class have started for me ..
Doing my professional hair styling course currently .
Met a super "bubbly" lady that's super noisy in my class .
I don't like her .. But I have to face her daily for now .
Her voice really irritates me every single second when she speaks .
Because she like to ask stupid questions .
Questions like i think she didn't ask before some brain processing like we do ..?
Yeah , which is damn irritating .
What ever the lecturer says , she surely would comment on it .
Super distruptive lah . Tsk , she's irritating .





I talked to her privately about her problem durring lunch .
Like the way she like to ask people questions .. Her question sometimes can be quite offensive .




Erm , just take this example :
* Irritating Girl * : hey , you have a tattoo ! when did you got that ?
*Person A* : Oh , 14 .
* Irritating Girl * : I see , so young got tattoo ahh ...! You must be a chao ah lian last time lahhh !
* Person A * : Ermmmm....*Silence* ...
* Irritating Girl * : AIYAH , NO NEED SHY LAH .. I ALSO AH LIAN . but why your ang gong so cartoon one ???
* Person A* : ( Ignores her )




She's 20 , but look like 30 and the way she talk is like 10 years old .
I'll take it as she have some mental problem that caused her to be so suay .
Cus she have to live up with that pea brain for the rest of her life .
Btw , she's not ah lian at all . Just a ah lian wanna be .



I think even ah lians are better than her . More mature than her .
Shucks , I sound super mean now .



Whatever .




我也许就像你说的一样、就是和全世界不爽.
不开心的都收着.泪都流在心里,..
然后在心里加了锁头.谁都不让靠近、
别人给的关心，说的话都不听.




现在的我还是觉得..一个人就够了.




真的...



Cher;

Imma super upset .
Somebody effing play a joke on my hair .
And now it's effing spoilt .
I'm now damn boiled with hatred . Don't let me see his face again .
Cus I'll really give him lotsa uncountable tight slaps on his cheek till he cry .



I'm really super disappointed with him .
And my hair today is really effing ugly .
He cut it so thin that it look super like don't know what the fuck .
In fact the condition of my is like lousy now .
Serious . I force myself to work .
If not , i don't even feel like stepping outta the house .



I can't sleep at all when I think back .
Cus , this is the first time I feel so regret .
& fucking hopeless about it .




Damn it, seriously .
fuck up , And now , It's reaching new year . I so don't wanna show up .
Fuck , Sorry , I just swear damn alot .
Cus , I'm fucking angry now .
Don't stop me .




Never been so upset before .
Cried for NIGHTS AND NIGHTS . thanks to that mother fucka !




Give me a million ,and I'll sue you to jail . Damnnnnn !



Don't feel like meeting anyone . Anymore !
And fuck , no more camwhore sessions !





Feel my griefs ?
But you have no way to help me .



Thanks vin anyways .
for cheering me up as always .




Love ya .
Cher .