What if today I'm blind , and I manage to type this .
And so what if today I'm ugly and I made you vomit ?





LOL .



okay , super random .
worldly words to describe me ?
I'll choose Ugly and Blind .
Ugly on the inside and the outside .
Blind in my decisions .
and thats me , with thousands of imperfections within me .
But , You love me still .



Faithfully .




And I've decided ,. To give You my all .
As for the rest of my life , to be with You , till Eternity .




In your hands I'm warm .
By the moulding of Your love I became beautiful .
In Your eyes I'm precious .
Oh , what else can I say about Your unconditional Love ?





How true is that ?
That You are Love .




Xoxo ,
Cher.

Imma happy girl .

saw my new ahgua floral outfit ? lols !

okay , enough of laughing .

This month is the most heartwarming month..i can say ..

listening to all christmas songs all around me ..

Watching christmas lights ..

hahaha . childish of me ..

but it always melt my heart .

lalalala , i dont know what i'm saying already .

But imma super happy .

with myself , my friends and God !

heeeese...

Xoxo.

Cher

opps , I love 大头贴!

A story of a deaf girl who wanna play violin ..





Loves it ..


Am inspired !
But more excited !



Cus i'm going for svc at this coming sat !
I miss svc ! super duper muchhhhh .
& I miss my cg alottttt .



muackkks .






With loves ~
Cher.

Silence , for a moment .

I can see how dumb you are .
Asking dumb question . hanging on that fake sacarstic smile on your face .

I hang on with my anger . look at you with my warm fiery eyes .
Dumb kind soul , hear me . I'm no one for you to judge .
Now wouldn't you shut up .


Back ground sounds are stomping up through my ear drums .
I closed my eyes and bow down , hearing the back of your gossips and complains .



Heads spinning , spirit low .


The silence in my heart so clear telling myself , that I know I know .
Complicated mind boiling up in my mind that I have to keep myself reminded .
Again and again , that he's safe and sound .



Too much sayings and reasons running wild .
The rain drops falls on my right cheek .
I look up at the fading sun & was reminded of your smile . so dearly .



My heart feels heavy . I hold on to my breath .
I keep the peace of heart within me .



& learnt , Love is patience .

Ain't stucked anywhere .

My grandpa passed away recently on the black friday of thirteen .
it's just coincidence lah .
All I know is .. I have the coolest couple of grandparents .
& They're now resting in peace .







Am having fever now . Sick .
I'm beginning to miss grandpa already .
Am missing all the happy times .



Well grandpa , I know you hear me saying i love you .





& Thanks for being the coolest grandpa in my life !
I will keep all the sweet and happy memories with you and forget the face before you left .






Farewell ahgong ..
( take good care of ah ma ! )




Cher;
your ah mei .

SO WHAT

SO WHAT

SO WHAT .

It's so no big deal at all .
don't behave sucha big *@!$!
sick. oh damn . damn it .
乐for u ? oh i hate u .






So Get Lost!

A nice song for all my sisters out there :D

A persons without vision wouldn't be able to do great things .
And now .. I have quite a number of decisions to make .
which sucks .





But still , I'll remember my first priority from the start till the end .




刺猬-温岚..



最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单 是寂寞或
悲惨 一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还
傻 刺猬的坚强全都是假象

我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

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about now what's on my mind .. ?
唉．．．懒得去管　顺其自然!!!
gotta ring up boon boon boon now .
Bye !


Xoxo ,
Cher .

I DID NOT PHOTOSHOP MY FACE .

I DID NOT PHOTOSHOP MY FACE .

I DID NOT PHOTOSHOP MY FACE .

WHY MY EYES LOOK BIGGER ?

COSMETICS LAH .DUMB .

DIDN'T YOU NOTICE I APPLIED MORE MASCARA ON MY LOWER LASHES ?

ESTER FRAME MUSTER FROAM ....

JEALOUS OF MY BIG EYES , GO LEARN MAKE UP AND MAKE IT BIG .

ROAH !

okay . thanks anyways . i didn't know that I had such huge eyes .

until you comment. (:

So ..

I DID NOT PHOTOSHOP MY FACE .

My Nose ,

My eyes ,

My hair .

My everything lah okay .

Tsk x10 !

BOOOOOOOOOO!

updates yo ,

It's raining heavily outside .

I'm kinda in a super good mood .

but , great grand aunt came to visit .

and that's a anna sui thing .

never mind .

hahahahaha .

my kinno is freezin' cold now .

And I'm so odeaso boreddd .

oh , my blog .

Nothing much to really update about actually ..

I sleep early to wake up early the next day daily .

Cool or what ? =.= my night life is so sian now ..

and ah boon must have bored his ass out everytime when i fell asleep in the middle of chat .

hahahaha ..

sorry lah ..

The other day had an awesome chat with manda ..

When I say awesome .. you know what I mean ..

I really had fun !

We chatted for like a while .. prayed for each other ..

I thought we both felt much better and encouraged after that .

Kept laughing..

Fighting ! means 加油for koreans .. hahahahah ..

FIGHTING !

With loves ,

Cher.

Time's running out .

Feeling very down and very very tired ..






craving for my 无敌铁金刚 strength from my daddy God ..
biu biu biu all my enemies !






RAHHH !




Happy belated birthday to Casper lim ah gui !
May all your wishes come true ahh .
Stay strong and positive yeah.
Jiayou (:



Xoxo ,
Cher.

Meet my irritating Sister ...

I may have done things that's not right .
Mistakes and mistakes .
I'm just not as smart as you in words . But that does not mean that I stupid or dumb .
And even if I've done the wrond things in the past ..
That does not give you any right for you to bad mouth me to mom .



And that does not mean that you can act like a 和事老..
Because you're just faking things around . just to get mom's trust .
and cheat her .

Sis ...


That's all you can do ?







you're ...
real born lazy , retarded and irritating monster .
Everyday diao at home use computer ..

Kay kiang step one hand of house hold wanna lead things ..




When she can't even handle herself .
flexy foarm .



Everyday at home so free .. choose job to work .
Job never choose you already good liao lor .. muster frame ....
Now so free at home .. walk my kinno very hard meh ?


Veryyyy xin ku mehhhh ?

Action speak louder than words .
and for now .. I don't see any more effort coming out from you .
It's like as if you dont care .


It's not I wanna condemn you or suan you ..
it's that what you're doing now is really super fake .




You don't want people say .. then don't let any chance to let people say you lah ?
I thought that's what you've always like to say ???



Wa nao wee ..
at home eng eng cheng cheng take money ..
I still need to help you ah ..



Eh , hello . Last time when you not around ..
I walk kinno , bathe him , feed him .. all by myself .. Did I complain ?
It's just a simple task to do .. a simple respondsibility .



You can't even fulfil a simple task as a dog owner ?
Then please , don't have the cheek to say that you treat him good .. you love him .
Crap lah kay ?
Or like kay kay say what morning walk him already ..



I thought you say kinno one day eat once enough already ?
You just fed him ..
Don't tell me you effing starve my dog from morning till now ..

MUSTER FRAME ....!






You can give all kind of excuses that you're busy .
But please spare a thought for other people can .
Flexy foarm . Work until so tired .. come home ..
you simply just feed him and ask me to walk him ..



Push every respondsibility to me ..


Behind my back tell people you take good care of him ?


PUI . plus BOO lah okay .




Lousy . As usual . Say only .. Action . Zero lei .





Got cert ? Just some ink that's printed with your name on .




I can imagine how my new house will look like with your that kind of yaya papaya mindset .
Current house like that ..
New house .. no need say .
Still ugly with you incharging (:




By then please hor .. Don't blame on the contractors or designer .




Yah lah . That concludes my angry post over this yaya papaya .
I knpow you guys will surely feel sorry for me living with this kind of sister ..



and also for kinno .. a lousy owner .





Keep her in prayers lah k ?




Cry baby ..... only know how to cry mother ..
want money , go work yourself .


That's what you say mah right ?




Everyday at home eat sleep use comp .
So fat ..
I see le also gao wei ...




NIGHTMARE SOME MORE !




Muster frame lah .





* not happy with my freedom of speech ? eff off . Cause you're an eye sore to me also .

Bye .

it's 本小姐's 17th Birthday on 9'Oct !

♥ - Fish&Co - BillyBombers - KBOX - LJS - ♥

Ling li made this birthday card for me !

She spent 2 days doing it yo.

So sweet of her .. Thanks sweetheart (:

世界上没有别人比他跟懂我了!!.....
BOOON BOOON BOOOOOOOOOOON~~~~~~~~~~

礼物!

Jianwen came over and pass me his present for me .

诚意满满哦~

hahahaha .. ah boon drew himself up there . Stick man !



BAHAHAHA ...
I BURST OUT LAUGHING WHEN I SAW IT .
♥ so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! XD






and 熊宝宝's wrapping paper ! ♥



What could it be ?
His clues were : It's Pink and HARD . You'll get Real high when you see it ..








My answer ? : A Calculator ....










Result ....
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Yes ....

it is .....
SONY ERICSSON HELLOKITTY EDITION'S PHONE ! ♥



I nearly faint when I see this .
Goodness ..







The other day I asked a friend to help me check whether this phone is still selling ..
they told me it's limited edition .. and it's ... Sold out !!!!!!!!








And how did he get it ??
No idea !









I can't stop saying uh-uh like shin chan ever since i received this ..
UHHHHHHHHHHHHH UHHHHHHHHHHH ~~~~~~~~~

Because I was like so shocked !
I was so so surprised ..







Thanks boon boon for the present ..





Also .. All the well wishes from you guys .



Not forgetting sweetie edna's blog entry on my birthday !



You guys really cheer me on !








I felt all the love from you guys from the sincere smses you guys sent .
They're so much appreciated .
I'm so so touched , Encouraged and loved !









万分的感谢~~
Let us all continue to 加油 yeah!



With truck loads of loves ..
Cher ♥

Trashing all my anger out in prayers .




Job 23:10 .




Phew .
Someone returned me back my IC yo.



Awesome .
Thank God .

I will remember the way of how you're treating me all these while .
And you better bare all these in mind .
But one thing I promise to myself , I'm not going to treat you any better too in future .
And , I will not effing allow myself to follow your selfish footsteps .






All the things you said .. you expect me to believe ?
Talk to my hand .
You wanna play selfish ?


Like to see me suffer ?




Ha . See who's gonna be at the losing end .



Damn bitch .
You messed around with the wrong person .




Hating you is so tiring .
But , I really really hate you .

WATCH IT YO.










This cheer me up .
XD

Kac.失望.ey

That I tusted you .




You cheated me again .




But I learned my lesson ..




Trust nobody in the marketplace .






Super upset .


Damn you.
But I'll try to forgive you .
But for the time being .
I hate you . So Shut Up .




Girls cheat better than guys .
I believe it now .




Cries ..
Cher .

How are you ???

SO FAR SO GOOD .

SO FAR SO GOOD .

SO FAR SO GOOD .

I know you miss me very very very much .
hur hur hur .




Someone lost part of his memory from a accident .
And he manage to remember everyone and everything .
But he just dont remember me .
Pictures and messages in his phone still can't let him recall who exactly I am .



Man , it sucks to be forgotten. Why me ???




Sigh ,..
Well , hopes better for the future buddy .
Get well soon .



Xoxo ,
Cher

Updates yo.

Rainning days sucks .
Wonder why people say rainning day's are romantic . XIAAA .



So lei zhei , must bring umbrella and all , some more so colddd !



Miss my night life .
Everyday meeting the sun in the morning is terrible .




My favourite lunch of all yo .
Black pepper chicken rice with the yummy soup ! 3.50 nia :D
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

This .

Eating fruits almost everyday .
It just cost me 1.5o and I have like 6 kind of fruits inside there .
super shiok !






Today I got fined of 30 cents of dian perfume wrong .
They got the perfume hidden at the display , never tell me , blame me of not asking .
How cunning .


Suan niao ...



then got one 怪叔叔came into my shop today testing me about fragrance .
see me gong gong like that ..
Then I let him test the perfume , he end up asking me whether they are all original .
=.= like only airport sell the originals .. what's wrong with them .

He then ask me about the prices . We sell cheaper , he say it's fake .
Other people sell so expensive you complain , we sell cheap you complain .
=.= what's wrong with you man .. Hello ???

He wanted hugo boss . then hiam say he's afriad of buying the fake ones ..
walk around my shop like walk garden like that ..
In the end still buy , made me earn my push money .
So ... not bad lah huh ..


Btw , He finished almost all the tester's papers ..
Goodness .




A super funny thing happened today .
I supposed to call a customer to come down and collect her goods .
And I ending dialing the wrong number .
A bangala answered , and I tell him I dialed the wrong number .
Then about a few minutes later ..


He called back !
Bangala : elllllorr , you calll me ar ?? you find me arrr ? "
Me :Yes , Sorry I call the wrong number ...
Bangala : Oh , isit , okie okie , you call me for what arrr ?
Me : Wrong number lah dey!
Bangala : You find who ar ???

*-老娘not happy already-*

ME : CALL WRONG NUMBER LAHH! *kup*
bangala : ......*tooot toooot toooot*


-few minutes later -


He call again . ( my shop phone no caller id )

Bangala : elllloR , tell me lei , why you call ar ????
Me : I tell you I call wrong right . you call back again I call police send you go back bangaladesh !
Bangala : okie okie lah .. don't angry arrr .. I just want to know ... ...... ...............
* I kup the phone *


hahahahahahhahaha !





Lols, Okay .
bad example lah huh ..
don't learn don't learn . (:





I got the first place for today's sales yo .
Call me queen .



Bitches , get outta my way !


hahahahahaha .


Xoxo ,
Cher .

I miss church svc ...

I think of You whenever I feel it's hard to go on .
I think of Your love and grace whenever I feel it's hard to accept or forgive .
I think of You whenever I feel lonely all these while .




I miss your presence !
So so so much already .





恨不得马上把工作辞了,
恨不得在感受你的同在.




and most of all , I miss all my friends .
It's been quite awhile since I meet you guys .
Boohooohooo.




I got 8 mosquito bites this morning when I wake up .





And I have to work an hour more tmr .
rahhhh , working life is so whinny - complainy for me ..



Sad ..
Who else still really reads this blog ?

ahhh , and kinno stinks . oppps ..
abit random cause he haven't bathe for the week .




When you think I've forgotten you , remember , I miss you .





Bahhhhh . Bye for now (:

I do not know alot .

Will you come and be my all ?

With loves ,

Xoxo ,

Cher.

Imma so so tough cookie .

Studying shampoos , perfumes and cosmetics now ..




Issey Miyake is my all time favourite .
But recently I'm so in love with tommy girl . No idea why .

And I love Paris Hilton's " just love me " .
Just love her lah . madness , she rocks .

CK stinks . and Burberry Brit don't smell that good to me.
At all .


Most of all , Montblanc's men's perfume smell super man . Loves it .

hahahahhaa ,


Oh , I thought I achieve quite a good result today .
I manage to dian finish a row half's perfumes without a single mistake !
no mistake means no fine . so ? Awesome for me and you .



The new word I like to say now adays is ...

CAN

I can make things work .

I can sort things out .

and most of all ..

I can do all things through christ who strengthens me .

Loves !
Xoxo ,
Cher .

It's not easy being me .

Don't read my blog if you think it's all crap .
Again and again , I say . This is my blog . Not your entertainment .




This url won't change .
My blogging style won't change .



I've never wanted you guys to appreciate this blog or dairy of mine .







-------------------------------------------------------♥

Your words affect my every move in my life .
Because , you're play aye important role in my life to guide me in this walk .
But before you ever speak an advice , have you ever spare a thought for me ?



It's so easy for you to say ,
have you ever thought of your judgement over me is how serious ?
Saying of easy to wait for another opportunity .
How long more .Please , it's close to a year already
Staying at home for 5 days , can't find any doings for my body .

Collecting coins , like a beggar . Desperate to just do dwell in desired place .
Say nice , I have faith in God. just to convince myself that I really place him as my first priority ?

How have you seen me as ?
Being free of weekdays , escaping that saturday to go to church ?



In the end , you still ask me to look this episode in a bigger picture .



I want to get connected .
And your reply was all negative .
Who's doubting me .



The people around me, are sacrificing .
And how can I be even more selfish ?
To keep my foot and working hands out there when I have a good chance .
I have faith that my heart won't change .
But where are your trust with me ? Zero .

It's disappointing .

Cause , I thought , you knew me better ...

You've never taught me how . or any solutions to help this time.
But all choices and choices to want me to prove my heart for God .
Just by going to desired place .
Stressing me out , judging me . Is this all you can do ?


I can't face you to tell you all these .
But deep down , I really wanna have a big quarrel with you .

I wanna scream all out at your face .
Can I ?
Can we work things out ?







All alone here .
Buried with all these .



Have you ever thought of this ,
That will I be able to handle this all alone ?



You just said ..
What ever you do , I support you .



Is that even convincing ?



Why does everyone think that I can do this all by myself .


Sorry ,
我做不到...

Love's like a merry-go-round .

It looks fun , grand and romantic on the outside .

You feel lucky when you just got in it .

Happy when you feel like flying .

It's so fast , that the moment it stops , you feel dizzy and lost .

And you ask yourself , where to move on ..

- cher .

Less is MORE ... ?

Happy to know that I've been blogging for passing 500 posts of entries already .
wow , how long have I been blogging ?
hmmm, not as long as XX or DY . But confirm longer than Lao Zha Bor .

muahaha .



I think , today I won't be blogging about how long I've blog .
But , how long I've been staying in this house blogging my everyday life in this blog .





hahaha . I'm talking a lil strange here ..

Alright , My house now has been officialy sold .
My mom is kinda happy and excited of moving into a new place ..
I don't know .
But , that idea haven't been a good idea that I agreed or like .
I just had to move along , even when I hate it .

To be honest , I hate it .
I'm kinda upset over this episode of my life .
Especially , my mom's idea of selling away the house .


But, as time goes by ..
I've learned to not have anymore expectation from my mom .
Also , to really push myself and expand my heart to learn to understand people more .

When more and more people came to see the house .
Listening to them talking about prices of the house ,
My heart aches .
I don't know why this house meant so much .
To me the house is way beyond those prices , it's priceless .
It's precious .
Every corner of this house is filled with lots of memories .
I'm so gonna miss this place ..
I don't wanna leave .
don't wanna leave .


Today , a guy came on knocking on the door to see the house .
He saw , and he like the house .



They just finish signing contracts .
I was in my mom's room patting kinno , hopping the contact would fail .
Sad .. I then looked at kinno .
Somehow , I think kinno also knew what was happening .
He looked sad ..
He stayed quietly with me .




I don't like changes .
But I have to accept changes .
Through this , I know .. I have to learn alot of things .

To be more flexible .
To be more a more bold person .
To be more understanding , especially for our love ones .


Well , it's so easy to say .
hmmm , all I could say is .




I think I'd gained knowledge from this episode .




加油!



Xoxo ,
Cher .

When I say I am afraid . I mean it .

Can't you take my words seriously ?

Am I really a joke to you ?

Or do you really find things funny .

Is it really that funny ?

Damn Bugs . DIE DIE DIE .

Stop seeking for attention today !

不准哭...我不要装可怜无辜...................











But why can't people get it straight into their brains ?


Okay , let me go straight to the point .




I used to have this problem .

And people around me also have this same old problem some even worst .


which is .. Self sympathy .














Too much of it . cause serious problem .


when we're young , when we fall down , our parents will come ..


" are you okay ? are you hurt ? " and we'll go whining and crying .





Same problem when we're older .


When we're older , we meet failures or rejections in life ..


We go whining , crying and worst still come up with ..


" sigh , I'm so poor thing .. Why is my life so sucky and lousy .. "


they go out seeking for care , concern and attention ..


Make up stories , to show people how sad and poor state they're now going through .


but not finding a way to get out of the problem .








It's silly !


When after listening to all the encouragements and going back to the same old cycle !


Keep making the same mistake then give excuses to escape from things .





For me .. I whine ALOT .


But I know my limits and I know who can help me .


So when I'm in trouble , I'll look for shalynne my cgl or my family members .





I've met people before that's very weird .


When they're sad ,


they call up different people to tell them how sad they are .


telling one after another .


But still , standing at the same old ground .





Once , he accidentally cut his hand by some knives or whatever ..


And he went around telling people he's bleeding and doing nothing to it !!


Good griefs .








Another one , worst ..


Too bored already .


Come up with nice stories to bluff people around her to get attention .


saying that she got raped etc .














It's too silly of us human beings behaving like that isn't it ?

















hahaha..


sounding very judgemental .


But , sad to say .. Some people are too silly to fill themselves with self sympathy .


And cherlyn says , you guys gotta wake up !








Why go make yourself so sad and down when you can be happier ?


Why go attract attention by bluffing people when you already know that people around you do care about you ?


Why go and make yourself so sick and want people to take care of you ?


Why why why ?


人活的好好的，为什么去不博取同情.





You guys must be thinking ..


Most girls fall in this area .


I'm telling you . You are wrong .





I've seen more guys doing more silly things to get attention .





Emo one side for nothing while people are happily enjoying in an outing .


then refused to tell the people what happen ..


Spoiling the mood by telling people he's very upset .


just upset .. or just thinking about stuffs .





It's not wrong !


you aren't wrong when you wanna go think about your stuffs .


But spoiling the atmosphere is your fault .


Since we're out and happy , why go think about those sad stuffs ?


Go sing K also sit one side emo .. still got feel to carry on singing mehhhh ?





Duh!











But , please get it clear .


I'm not trying to say when you're sad or you meet trouble you can't tell people .


Be wise !


Don't say you're okay , you're fine and alright when you're not at all !


Tell the right person , that you think they can help you or encourage you .


After listening , Get that advise straight ...


Don't go and find more people and complain with . it won't help ,


At all !














Self sympathy .. if you don't kick away that habit ..


you're gonna affect people around you .











Some people seek alot for friends attention and forgotten that your friends actually also need space .


When they have their work in their hands , they never contact you ..


You , becoming very desperate and you lose your faith for you poor friend .


go on whining about your friend ain't a good friend .





goes down to yourself , ending up with no more confident with yourself anymore .








Then go on , you get easily jealous .


Because of you don't have somethings like ..can be possessions or treatment .


You go on and feel like it's unfair ..


you're being neglected , people forget you ..


etc etc .














NO !


cherlyn says ..


Life ain't like that .


You don't really need all this to go around your world my dear .


Open up open up some happiness !





If you yourself can't love yourself enough . it will never work .


Learn to open up . Trust the one you love .


Think about the people around you . They love you !





C'mon , Jesus loves you too !


such a awesome person to love you ! what more can you ask for ??




















If you're sick today .


Ask yourself if you're happy .








Sometimes , you're not sick .


it's just that you're feeding yourself with the wrong medicine .








Laughter is the best cure (:









If you have the courage to attempt suicide .
Why not use the same courage you have to carry on the road you're stepping on ?







Xoxo ,


Cher .

Take Care & Farewell ！

A Song from khalil for all my love ones .
( opps , and all that are reading this blog :D )
With lotsa XOXOs ♥♥♥

A lil bit of Spells & Magic .

Blogger suck for a big time now adays .
Made my entries layout so ugly . like a big whole chunk of don't know what .


Souvenir for today .
Aye mos burger -corn soup toy -hp chain !
It's from the coin twisting thingy at J8 .
This was exactly what I wanted !
How lucky eh .
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Well it only happen once a day . -sis .


Xoxo ,
Cher.

#1 God .

Sis got this for me :D



It's glossy PINK ! Loves it !!!!!!!!

My sis got me the theme of the 1994 picture Gallery .
I want the year 92 one ... awww , guess it's outta sale at mac already .



Well ...Take a look inside !

Hellokitty...

She cheers me up . love her .

KKB tried to test me about hellokitty ..

and .. to my surprise , it actually do know alot about her !

hahaha !

Example ..

Do you know the actual height of hellokitty is the hight of 3 apples high ?

She's tiny isn't she ?

Heees . kinda proud of myself already talking about hellokitty .

Lol . okay enough of kitty .

sorry for the intro , made me sound like aye lil girl .

well , Imma innocent child in heart . what to do .

*giggles*

FINE .

Back to my dairy .

I know , I know ,

it's been quite some time since I blog about my thoughts and giving this blog aye update .

My bad , my bad for neglecting it .

But hey , here it is okay .

Cut the crap .

I feel kinda stupid and sorry about the previous post .

it's so emo lah , to say the truth . I don't like it too .

so negative right ? super not like me lah ...

hahahaha , whatever .

That's why you see , I don't need any people to comment about my blog aka dairy .

If not , i'll be so "gao wei" - uncomfortable in hokkien while posting .

Right ?

Ehem , I wonder if people are reading this . they'll be thinking when I'm going to start .

But they'll never know I've already started writting about my dairy .

Hmmmm , I do have more thoughts to fill in here .

Somehow my brain now is still working on while I'm typing here .

Imma genius .

Okay , you see ..

I'm really amazed by God doing in everyone's life .

I don't know what He've did in yours , But I know , it's surely good :)

While Gloria Goh was sharing her testimony yesterday during cgm .

About how she counted all the blessings that God blessed her with .

It's so true .

I asked myself , have I done it before .

No . In fact , I've forgotten about the blessings i had experienced before .

maybe some of them , but it's like to me it's no longer that exciting anymore ..

Isn't it sad ?

and when I got home , I had a chat with my sis .

We're talking about some drugs issues first , and then some gangsterism stuffs.

I started talking and talking and it slowly became aye form of story testimony thingy .

No why , when my sister throw to me a question asking me ..

What was the main reason you went to play drugs and put yourself there outside .

It's so stupid and childish . Didn't mommy always thought you not to?

Then I replied , Out of fun . Naughty , didn't thought of anything . just liked the "Seh" feel .

And then she asked ..

didn't you know , taking drugs will cause and lead you slowly to death ?

OR worst , sudden death .

hmmm , I thought for awhile and laugh ..

Eh , I didn't know leh .

Funny isn't it .

At the back of my mind was .

Oh goodness , God really did picked me up from the death valley man .

PTL .

Then slowly , my sis started to question me about some other stupid things I've done .

I could sense her curiosity . not because she's stupid .

It's just simply because , she really don't see and don't understand why I'm doing all these things ..

That's like .. no benifit at all ?!

I didn't want to say everything to her .

Eh , c'mon , I don't know about you . But for me , I've never been so opened up with my family members before .

I feel embarassed . I thought I don't like to bring up the past , it's sinful and it'll make me CRY !

And hey , how much courage do you think you could use up to say it ?

You could've the courage to say it . But it's people mind to accept it .

I warned her thrice to tell her not to change her impression of mine after listening .

and she smile and nodded her head .

I started to speak . and said every single thing to her .

Like accounting to shalynne like that . like a leader .

And she listen , can sense she still didn't understand me .

hahahahaahaha .

Ehhhh.. I think I did not cry while saying .

and then to speak of the past , it goes on to big rewind back to the first time I got saved .

When I got in to my bed , it was like ..

Man ... I've came a very long way .. didn't I ?

Theres so many times , I didn't understand so many things .

But I've got through it .

So if , in the past of did it . I'm sure this lil trouble I'm facing now wouldn't be so big .

Because , God wouldn't give you something you can't handle with ! Amen ?

I started to pray ..

I began to slowly realised that .

Whether imma christian anot , God loves me .

It made me thought of how people love each other .

Some people try to keep a person their side , control them to not them stray away .

Some people get jealous easily . fight for their rights not thinking about anything .

God gave me a high bird eye's view of the whole picture .

I really couldn't express how much gratitude .

Because , firstly . I've not very lucky . I've never experienced much of a Father's love .

My mimi plays 2 charactor in my life . as a papa and mama .

I then felt the heartache of God , stretching his hand reaching out to me .

Wounds all over , dry and helpless . and he kept me safe .

Although until now , sometimes I couldn't accept myself for who I am .

I doubt myself . But Daddy God said , I've forgotten the past you didn't like .

Because , I don't like what you don't like too .

It came with such warmth , that he said dearly to me .

My dear daughter , Trust me . when you can't see my working hands . Trust my heart .

Believe in me , pull up yourself for you will stand strong for me again .

Though you keep falling . But my dear , you never fail to impress me .

wow .................

Though it was rainning like the entire zoo , with thunder and lightning .

I had a wonderful peaceful sleep .

Awesome !

The First thing that I'd learned in church was to put God first .

I take it as a Strong basic foundation in my spiritual life .

What about you ?

Bye , Earthlings .

Xoxo ,

Cher .