God must be training me .
testing my patience and endurance .
i really cannot give up .
i really have burdens for my friends who yet receive christ and detest christ .
i somehow regretted myself for being a anti-christ in the past .
and that makes me a hypocrite in other people's eyes now .
sigh .
the reason why i never give up until now , is because i believe in God's promises .
i believe in prayers .
i trust the holy spirit .
if you ask me whether i still believe in revival , ofcause yes .
out right yes .
but somehow , you people reading this must really pray for me .
i'm getting a lil tired and depressed already .
cause after so long , things never happen ):
but i'll still jia you . and make things happen amen ?
getting people save ain't just like singing a song .
not just by words and strategy will work .
but i'll pray and let my prayers bring them step by step to christ .
yesterday while adora was praying for me .
God just show me lots of stuff .
He showed me people who tried to hurt me , and how i overcome the fear of the person .
same like wise i should overcome all these rejections .
and i felt this very strong burden for my friends .
yet i got this " useless " feeling after shalynne spoke to me.
went home and really pray to God about it lor .
cause its not by my angelic voice .
not by my electrifying eyes .
but only by His supernatural power ,
miracle will then start to happen .

Lol ,
i started with a new prayer in my prayer list .

• my waiting time will be short and sweet (:

haaas , this is the best .
even during visitation , what so ever .
dont like waiting lahs !
haaas ,
don't like waiting for anything .
so yea . waiting time .
short and sweet .
amen amen amen .



mommy hp is not working .
need to go fix it now T___T
alright .
bye .



although i really dislike you . i will accept you .
you can be acting in any ways . but i won't say anything .
you can be like saying you're willing , all just bull shit i won't care too .
you can always give me that sarcastic smile of yours everytime .
i wont give damn too (:
hate me in silence .
gossiping me in the dark .
cursing me with that fish word .
blah blah ,
but hey , tell ya a secret .
i won't care for anything that you're doing now ((:
cause you will end up being a murderer (x
and when murderer dies , murderer goes to .....
hell (:
kids also knows this .
so if you don't . too bad .
you surely go there ):
i'll still bless you (: