JACK FRUIT !
she is heartless lah .
scolding sichuan people ..
=.=
i mention this to all my friends before .
and heres the video .



hahahahas
got people scold back !!



english translate somemore ..



their chinese are so good lahs .
even scolding people also dont need vulgarities one .
=.= all the chao chao .. !


mommy was super mad about her .
everyday nag me about her .
say she's really ill mannered. blah blah .
hope she'll learn her lesson this time .
my mommy told me that she got locked up already .
yea yea ,.

God must be training me .
testing my patience and endurance .
i really cannot give up .
i really have burdens for my friends who yet receive christ and detest christ .
i somehow regretted myself for being a anti-christ in the past .
and that makes me a hypocrite in other people's eyes now .
sigh .
the reason why i never give up until now , is because i believe in God's promises .
i believe in prayers .
i trust the holy spirit .
if you ask me whether i still believe in revival , ofcause yes .
out right yes .
but somehow , you people reading this must really pray for me .
i'm getting a lil tired and depressed already .
cause after so long , things never happen ):
but i'll still jia you . and make things happen amen ?
getting people save ain't just like singing a song .
not just by words and strategy will work .
but i'll pray and let my prayers bring them step by step to christ .
yesterday while adora was praying for me .
God just show me lots of stuff .
He showed me people who tried to hurt me , and how i overcome the fear of the person .
same like wise i should overcome all these rejections .
and i felt this very strong burden for my friends .
yet i got this " useless " feeling after shalynne spoke to me.
went home and really pray to God about it lor .
cause its not by my angelic voice .
not by my electrifying eyes .
but only by His supernatural power ,
miracle will then start to happen .

Lol ,
i started with a new prayer in my prayer list .

• my waiting time will be short and sweet (:

haaas , this is the best .
even during visitation , what so ever .
dont like waiting lahs !
haaas ,
don't like waiting for anything .
so yea . waiting time .
short and sweet .
amen amen amen .



mommy hp is not working .
need to go fix it now T___T
alright .
bye .



although i really dislike you . i will accept you .
you can be acting in any ways . but i won't say anything .
you can be like saying you're willing , all just bull shit i won't care too .
you can always give me that sarcastic smile of yours everytime .
i wont give damn too (:
hate me in silence .
gossiping me in the dark .
cursing me with that fish word .
blah blah ,
but hey , tell ya a secret .
i won't care for anything that you're doing now ((:
cause you will end up being a murderer (x
and when murderer dies , murderer goes to .....
hell (:
kids also knows this .
so if you don't . too bad .
you surely go there ):
i'll still bless you (:

i love Chloe's cell group guys .
they're much more real than other people i see .
although come from different world .
yet when they come together they're a world of joy senders .
they brought so much joy into my life .
God amazed me.
when other people are still stucked .
I'm already enjoying in the presence of God .
its really my pleasure to be with them .
thank God for this cell group .
thank God for Shaylynn and Chloe (:
they really touched this lil fragile heart of mine .
God have been giving me alot of chance to learn how to love people .
when i say I'm willing to learn , he shows me way .
greater burdens for the children , people and friends .




i came from the same back ground they came from .
i understand how they feel .
all of them are really potential :D
i have faith in them (x
heees , love ya guys <3







oh yeah ,
YESTERDAY .
我咬破了我的手指！
i myself was scared when i see blood .
was so upset .
cried when i leave the train .
controlling my tears .
but , i can't .
i find myself stupid crying for a friend like that .


while everyone is trying so hard , there's just someone got stuck .
not moving on like everyone else .
what ever she say are bullshit i can say .
i really dont like people giving excuses .
people gossiping behind .
people who like to act very class like that .
thinking a world out of themselves .
说一套做一套.
我不喜欢假假.
i can say , i really detest this type of people .
and in my friendlist there is one like that .
that's really really sad !
really disappointed .
you really must stop this .
我真的不喜欢你. sorry .
zzz , spoilt brat .




theres people are very good examples from God :D

JANICE SOO you're awesome!
although you wasn't really getting use to the new culture of people .
you still move on .
you really gave me a big surprise .
your attitude of loving people is something i can learn from ohs .
you're a fast learner and thinker .
you're humble and nice .
so much more shu nv than me .
i will learn from you (:
learn to look quietly with great patience at the sides .
and then look go into the inside .
although young and innocent , haven't really see the outside world .
i can assure you ,
janice soo can be someone who can flow and commune really well with all sorts of people .
she can be a really good planner and helper .
heees , although she always see me fong with other people .
or sometimes even fong with her , she'll still fong together with me!!
never spoils the atmosphere .
being out with you can be really enjoyable girl .
love ya !! <3




ADORA , ( I'll type the rest in Mandarin . and you better try to understand what I'm writing! get ready your Chinese dictionary uhs ! )
HAHA !
你很坚强哦。
虽然你身边的人离开了这个世界，你依然还是很乐观。
劲力的在照顾我们。
很努力的在服饰我们的主。
你从来都不会用一样的眼光看人或看事。
你很善良， 也很体贴。
也很漂亮！！
你从不拒绝帮助人。
总是会经全力去为别人着想 。
也不放弃。
带着大将之峰！
很有上进心。
是一个领导者最佳人选 ！
说到来， 你好象什么都会。
总是很厉害就对了啦！
你是我学习的好榜样。
加油哦！！




Dear friends ,
so long ..

i've decided i want to be a shu nv .
i'm so gonna do it (x

serving God can be tiring , but fulfilling .
yesterday 本小姐 cried ..
Shalynne discipled me . oh well , i learned a lesson .
the heart , the attitude .
this 2 keys are kept in my mind now .
came back and 面壁思过！[ reflection ]
conclusion was ..
already said sorry , why not just accept it ..
really felt so sorry , maybe i just could not express myself well enough .
sorry ..



it has been a "lovely" week for me.
my heart sings ...
" wonderful love of Jesus .. mighty love of Jesus .. i will bless the Lord forever more ~~ "
visitation ; cell group meeting ; busing ; cch service @ Jw church ; chc main service @ Expo
these commitments i go for were a big change of life style for me .
busing is the biggest challenge for me .
i have air sickness . so often i will feel uncomfortable during the long journey .
but still i will pray before i start my journey serving .
never once i will ask myself , " what am i here for ?? " never .
never once i felt like leaving .
i feel happy . i feel glad .
other people can say that I'm insane , I'm silly , I'm stupid .
or even a busy body who knocks on children's door every Thursday to see how they're doing .
yes , i care .
Jesus didn't just bless the adults .
Jesus cares for the children
check Mark 10:13-16 .
they ain't unhappy when i visit them .
they pretty much enjoy spending time with me in fact .
sorry to burst your bubbles . (:





i really learned alot of things in church .
if my grandmother is still on earth .
i will want to share everything that I've learned in church .
and tell her , how much God loves her.





I nearly teard during my last cgm when shalynne was sharing .
she shared about her serving God .
how much willing she pours herself for God .
it really touched my heart . and hats off ~
it was our last cgm at the east side already ,
yea wanted to say this in the earlier entries that my cg is combining with Chloe's cg soon (:
but i was still praying over it . yea .
nono , im still praying over it .
met the people over there .
pretty much different from our cg .
have more interesting , funny , cute people .
love them (x




i felt a lil discouraged .
but holy spirit reminded me ..
She whispered to me last night gentle .
" cherlyn , remember you're God's best testimony . remember how he've transformed your life! "
i felt so much better .
and yes .
I'm still shinning for God :DD

I can't speak .
I can't sleep .
I can't think .
I can't weep .




man ,
i feel like cutting my hair lehs .
feel like cutting my hair short .
cutting a pointed n in the middle of my fringe .
then rebond my hair straight.
can wax my hair like nobody's business with wax and stylo milo bantino .
but look super not su nv . mommy surely kill me .



my SA1 dint go well ,
i fail my math paper .
didn't got distinction or top in class .
just realised that I've really yet to study well enough .
maybe i should pay more attention ?
sometimes , i really don't understand what's wrong .
i put in so much effort man .
first time cried for my results .
felt so heart aching .
hais , guess no one feel the way like me .
was even more upset , when my friend told me that he copied my answers during Chinese paper .
and he scored the same with me !
i cried like ..
hais , more over ..
my super unfair F&N teacher ..
hais , life is always unfair . so i shan't say much bahs ?
i find myself wondering around .
with that disappointment .
come home , have alot more stuff to do .
still have to face my unreasonable mother .
i really tried my best to satisfy her .
but whatever i do , did or done ..
will just be shouted at , thrown away or !@#$@%@#$@@##!!
i really don't understand why .
i told her that I'd rather we stop talking than quarrel .
i felt super lousy .
i really feel so tired .
don't feel like explaining myself anymore .
tired of crying , tired of everything .


i enter my room , look at myself in the mirror .
i see myself as a sun flower .
raising my heads up high to the sun .
following the light .
or rather , avoiding the darkness .
not looking on the left or right . just the sun (:


i saw my tired eyes in the mirror .
the things i used to see in the past .
filthy languages , bloody fights , my helpless self in the dark , the hatreds , the lies , the betrayers and the heart breakers .
i see myself in the past chasing after freedom .
searching back the innocence .
looking back for the love i use to have.
and found the only one person i can find peace in His arms.
He held me up at my lowest point of life .
pulled me through away from past .
love and understand me .
accept me for who i was and am .
gave me the opportunity to live again (:
I've said this alot of times , but i want to say again .



His name is Jesus .
He's my Lord and savior .
He's my father and best friend .
He's my dictionary .
He's my hiding place .
He's my remedy (:


yes ,
i can't live anymore happy without his presence .
i can't smile without his comfort .
i can't sleep without a single prayers with him .
i can't love without his love and mercy .
i can't find my way without him . he's my campus of life .






so why lock yourself away from the light .
be a sunflower today (:
sweet and beautiful like me .
Cherlyn (x

MOMMY'S NEW SET OF FRONT TEETH SUPER FUNNY !!

anyway , she's still my pretty mimi ,(x
have not been blogging for thy past few days .
hahahas , was doing lotsa test papers and revisions .
preparing for N.
hmmms also , my health , not very good these few days .
i know what y'all thinking ..
" you body all along very weak one leis ...... =.= "
i just pass out my poo poo which was stucked inside for 2 days .
havent been eating for the past few days . felt sucky !
lousy infact .
then have tummy ache , flu ..
i hate my weak body .
i dont like to be in pain .
i dont like my air sick .
i get giddy easily just from a car trip .
thats so pathetic can ?
T___T
then when you aint feeling well , you dont have sweets or ribena ..
thats even worst .
will vomit !
but i always will keep it . untill late nights , sleeping time cant tahan then vomit out =.=



mommy just bought bananas .
she even order me to eat 2 bananas a day !!
woahhs ...
1st time sia .
imagine my mommy will count the bananas and make sure i eat 2 aday !!
*faints*
but mommy cares for me luhs .
love you mommy ! <3



oh mommy ,
comes mother's day !
yeah yeah , the whole day was spent rotting at my grandpa's house with 2nd aunt !
she spoil my plan lahs .
i planned to bring my mommy go take SINGAPORE FLYER lehs .
can go lang man .
i saved the money for so long for it .
in the end cant go .
that 2nd aunt kept nagging its wasting money blah blah .
but 1 year 1 time mahs . i bring my mommy go , also not bring any other stranger .
somemore its mother's day lehs .
WHATS SO WRONG WITH THAT LAHS ....
pfffffffffftt !!
somemore i bring my mom go also not bring her go . why she kaypo sia ... =.=
- mood turned off -
then forget it , since she say waste money ..
i say nvm lor ,
can go else where shopping at least dont stay at grandpa house nothing to do right .

they just simply sleep lahs . sleep finish eat . eat finish sleep !!!!

=.= !!!!!
then hom-ed with a pot of flowers from there .
gave mommy present .
she like it <3>
not bad lah huhs .
dint manage to get sis' kang nai xin for mom.
sobs .
cried like siao .
cause i also dint get my blue roses for mom .
the prices was simply siao-ness !







to end .
i have nothing to say .
cause no camera = no life .


OH BRING BACK .
OH BRING BACK ,
OH BRING BACK MY CAMERA TO MEEEEE !!

I wish you well- Mariah carey



* pause my imeem playlist . *


When glory days turn to stormy nights
You must have been so petrified
Didn't you, didn't you feel so cold
You against the world in a losing fight
Captive of your demons inside

So you sought an enemy
(I'm not your enemy. He lives in you, you know it's true)
Like times before to mock ignorantly
(But the Lord said love, love your enemy so just...)
Take heed to the Word it's time
Check Proverbs 19:29
Don't cry

I wish you well
I wish you well
I wish you well

I truly wanted solidarity
Still wearing my blinders back then
(So much I didn't see)
I weep for what I dreamed we all could be
I'll keep you in prayer till the end

Still bruised, still walk on eggshells
Same frightened child, hide to protect myself
(Can't believe I still need to protect myself from you)
But you can't manipulate me like before
Examine first John chapter 4 verse 4

And
I wish you well
I wish you well
I wish you well

Be strong in the Lord and power of His might

If my shows of gratitude are miniscule
Inside your mind, sorry
(I'm so sorry, please forgive me)
There's only so much I can do I love you and did all that I could

Maybe when you're cursing me
You don't feel so incomplete
But we've all made mistakes
Felt the guilt and self-hate

I know you've been there for me plenty
Maybe still got love for me
But let him without sin cast the first stone brethren
But who remains standing then
Not you not I see Phillipians 4:9
(Put it into practice and the God of Peace will be with you)

So
I wish you well
I wish you well
I wish you well

(He who the Son sets free is free indeed)
No weapon formed against me shall prosper
Surely God is my salvation
I will trust and not be afraid
The Lord, the Lord is my salvation
I will trust in Him
Yes, I know that I know that I know that I know

But I have had God's help to this very day
And so I stand here and testify
To small and great alike
So the more you curse me
The more you're blessing me
The Word said it
Love your enemies

Do good to those who curse you
Pray for those who mistreat you
Psalms 129:2
They have greatly oppressed me from my youth
But they have not gained victory over me
(In Jesus' name)

I wish you well

He that keeps his mind state on the Lord
He will keep them in perfect peace






So I wish you well

AWESOME SONG ISN'T IT ?
love the singer , love the song .
Enjoy !

Is love there yet ?
why do other ppl always like come and re-ensure your love for God.
I often tend to want to ask this question to the people .
" if you love God why you like that .............. "
its weird , and it makes you self doubt ..
i decided not to ask anymore this type of question .
cause it really make us self doubt ...
are they shoot down that way cause they feel they cant love God enough ?
wouldn't the ppl that ask them look into he/her self first ?
This is such a personal question .
And i wonder how would a baby christian feel and think after that .
My heart aches very much now adays as i try to reach out to some friends around me .
although i keep smiling .
Every night during my quiet time , i cry out to God .
the Love i have and others have for God cannot be judge or limited .
so i will not do that again .
As a family , we should trust each other .
we should believe in each other like how God loves us .



it came to a contradiction when people say that we cant blame others .
but in another way , we cant blame ourselves or self doubting .
so how ? we keep everyday as neutral ??
cause whenever something happen ..
we wont blame others or ourselves .
so no one improves ?
no one will try to change ?
every one will stay at the same spot ?
no lah , just kidding .
just a funny thought i had .
of cause i know we need to change ourselves for the better if we want others to change .
hahahahahahas .





These days have been awesome for me .
Exam period ..
i will still ..
fast . so that i can train myself not fall into temptations .
pray . so that holy spirit will continue to work among people in my life .
praise . to lift God's name to the highest .
worship . to bless the Lord with my angelic voice !!! WAHAHAHAS .
just kidding nahs ...
but thats me only lahs .
i dont know about you .
but ever since the leaders share about prayers ..
now i'm so into it . so sensitive to the holy spirit .




So many bad things will happen .
but you know what . i will not take zip myself into it .
cause i have holy spirit with me :D

I WANT A NEW HP !
roarrrrs ,
without my hp .. CAN DIE UHS !
rely to much with the alarm function .
now trying to go with normal alarm clock lors .
mommy zeng 4 alarm clocks in my room .
T______T
then today super suay lahs !
i had a dream like i put a $10 in my purse .
and then when i go out this morning for pm , i forgot to bring any money out .
I THOUGHT I PUT MONEY INSIDE LIAO !

lol lahs .
funny bodoh.
Pm was simply AWESOME .
after so we went to eat lunch ..
i ate ban mien and .. and it made me felt like vomiting for the whole entire day
more suay even, something super disgusting happen .
i was with amanda and janice soo ...
then ...
this fat gross ang moh with or biang dress sense came forward and talk to us .
at first he was just asking where can he find pretty girls in singapore .
he say its his first time coming to singapore .
and then , he carry on with his nonsence asking for sex .
EWWWW LAHS !
amanda and i were so disgusted and disturbed by what he said .
and then when jiji came , she went and grab jiji's hand like ...
lol , then when jiji come , he still seem like interested with jiji somemore !!!
still ask us whether we want to know his"scummy secrets "
本小姐不想知道啦！！！ 给我滚！！！
=.=




then after expo service .
JIJI AND OTHERS TRIED TO BE FUNNY LAHS
i went in the toilet ,
come out they all gone missing .
and then when i see them , they were all laughing at me lahs !
lol , kept laughing at my "worried face" cause no phone mahs .
nearly got lost 2 times !
woahhhhs ,.
was kind of pissed of when they try to be funny lors .
cause its super scary and its not funny at all lahs !!!
CHILDISH .
humphs !




i want to really strive .
strive for God .


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