[ Saturday's Kids Excursion @ Singapore Army museum :D ]
wheeee haaaaa !
guess what .
super excited !
first time go excursion with them .
woah , and i'm expecting more than 30 kids coming siol !
praise the lord .
I really had no idea how many kids were coming .
and the problem is not the kids , but the grumpy bus driver .
we supposed to start of by 1115 .
but one of the kid was late .
in the end we started off at 1130 ?
the driver was super mad .
was nagging .
and coffee still wont satisfy him .
he want us to reach at 1230 . how possible would happen siol ?!
he refuse to fetch the last girl char .
so it became my job to go and fetch her .
of cause i din't use my own penny .
hahahahas , got people sponcer .
no lah no lah .
its Raymond LEE .
he's super nice and thoughtful .
he lend me his hp knowing that my hp couldn't call out . so that i can call him when i need help .
even lend me his umbrella knowing that it's gonna rain and i'll be alone .
hahahahas , Thank God .
i have people to take care of me even when i'm serving .

got her :D
and off we go to thee ARMY MUSEUM -_-
i was @_@ in the car .






and finally REACHED :S

coming back to the kid isn't about resting .
carrying m giddy giddy fainting head i still need to help out raymond with dorothy .
to settle the forms and money blah blah .
we slowly moved on to the journey .
i can't explain much how "interesting" the kid was .




the trip is fun .
And scary .
the bomb bomb bomb is what i hate the most .
i almost didn't wanted to join them .
but still i will hold on to the sides and watch finish the show with them .
i'll be thinking like .
the kids dare to watch why can't i !
" but they got parents with them lei ....."
tsk tsk ,
its not the short clip is scary .
its the sound effects .
and inside the room was uber dark .
and I'll be so paiseh to let them see me screaming right ?!!!
so i shut my lips , ear and eyes throughout .
:x >.<
i really didn't expected so much to learn serving in children's church ministry .
i learned alot .
sometimes like it'll be hard like giving my time out serving .
kennah use by people to the extra miles job end up they gain points .
me ? nothing .
must 忍 all !!!
i use to hate being used by people .
i feel betrayed .
maybe you wun understand .
but as long as i know that'll be enough .
although a new member over there .
there'll be still people helping me when i kennah bullied .
so i'm really blessed :D
heees , sorry for this later entry .
cause recently i'm study and praying really much .
i've been praying pretty much on myself and the important people around me.
God never leaves me lor .
even during the dry periods .
He's there to encourage me .
very often i doubt myself living int his world for .
and very often i doubt my capabilities .
i doubt my faith for God .
very often i blame myself .
very often i feel like ending my life .
very often i let people down .
i watched a video that shalynne played during cell group .

my tears start flowing down .
very much is showing that i'm that girl .
that girl who was dancing with God with joy .
that girl who was distracted by many things around her .
that girl seperated from God .
that girl crying out to dance with God again .
that girl crying to breakthrough .
and finally in His arms again .
i wanted to share pretty much after the cell group to encourage them .
but i just couldn't put up much .
well , this is what i wanna say .
during last week's friday cgm .
i shared a testimony thanking God for giving me strength .
i wanted to add on , but words couldn't express how it was .
so i stopped there .
Although alot of people know that i broke up with guy for God .
guess nobody really understand why and how i started and ended the relationship .
like normal people , i cried after my failed relationship .
heart aches , heart aches and heart aches .
throughout that time ,. i was really alone and was praying real hard to breakthrough.
God then showed me the truth few days later .
i tidy up my feelings and downship-ness.
i fasted ,
and God touched me during my 3 hour quiet time .
i was refreshed and God answered my prayers .
the next day , my mom start talking to me and we ended the cold war .
my fever / flu was healed .
mommy blessed me with $$ . but still it'll go back to God .
the best thing is ..
until now i then realised ...
he's no longer on my mind .
i'm no longer struggling :D
10 things i really want to encourage Christians to

1. pray more for your spiritual life.
2. serve God more whenever you can .
3. read more of the word of God .
4. share your burdens and fellowship with your leaders more .
5. keep on praying to keep the anointing .
6. pray that you will not back slide
   
7. pray for yourself that you will not be distracted by temptations .
8. learn how to wait .
9. practice keeping a verse as a weapon to fight against devil .
10. maintain the relationship with God . be addicted to the holy spirit .

yup thats all .
i didn't say it'll be a short entry .
lol
tmr's 2.4 !
JIAYOU !