you say that you still love and trust God .
tell me , how much ?

I LOST MY HANDPHONE TODAY .
SO , JACK FRUIT JACK FUIT JACK FRUIT .

i still need to do my blogging right .
lol .






` webcam with jan .
LOL .


crazy jan !
LOL .
revenge donee !
wahahahahahas ,
she zi liang kuang uhs !




WAHAHAHAS ,
MY BEST FRIEND :D




its suchha waste .
so xin tong , and i record it down ,.



set it so long with my time lehs !
lol .

what is after my 'N' lvls .??
okay , i've finally decided ..
ITE .
but what comes after my hnitec after ITE ?
Poly ???? i dont know why , but i don't like poly or jcs .
they gave me poooooor impression .
I'm really troubled lahs .
after listening naggings and teachings from my sister ...
1k ? 1.5k ???
TSK TSK , stress uh .
i really don't know what i want .
so , anyways ??
i know i will still end up in poly .
cause .. hais .
if not what ? private 'O's ?
irritating lehs . can't i quit studying ? T___T
tao yan making decisions .
seriously tao ren yan !
really up to God now .

STRESSED ?
uh huhs ...... T_T
never felt this way before .
finally decided to blog this down .
SOBS .
this morning head was boiling like hell .
got a fever .
and i ignore it . cause i want to go school .
then went to bathe .
come out then like kept smelling blood .
then thought i have a running nose .
rub it awhile then notice blood on my tissue .
my nose bleed !
call mommy and ask her what to do .
she ask me not to go school .....?
say its raining somemore .
then i do what i know to stop my nose bleeding .
drank super lotsa water and took my medicine from the super ex doctor .
T_________T
you know why ?
2 days more to EXAMS ! >.<
Thursday , can you don't come ?
just skip it to another day .
prayers is what i can give everyday .





忘恩负义。 ( just referring to a friend of mine . )
you see this you know it .
wasting all my efforts .
totally disappointing .
since you've forgotten .
then i shan't remember a single bit of it (:
enjoy your time with the love you have now .
cause i don't give a shit to a stranger i don't know .
the one that i know .
is no where found .

kinno hair grow long already ,.
picking a time out to bring him go grooming .
Lol .
im so tired lahs .
study study .
and still , i miss my time sleeping .
REALLY !
like the feeling lying on the bed with an empty mind of tomorrow.
mahahahas , guess its just so rubbish .
i have so many things that i need to adjust on .
and still struggling .
like recently i thought my time management is better .
but in the end its like , -_________- lahs
now adays i can't sleep at night totally .
like when the minute i lay myself on bed right , lotsa stuffs will come and call me .
its super cham lahs !
my heart kept counting down to the days of my SA1 .
and time flies like nobody's business.
GOSH .
and i really cant imagine myself failing .
)':
just can keep telling myself , i can do it.








why is cherlyn so cold now a days ?
why she so emo uhs ?
she miss her ex uhs ?
or she got financial help ???
her depression come back again ah ?!!!

-_______________- ''
im not emo !!!
Lol , i wouldn't even want to step out of the house if i am emo .
i just dont understand why people are so ........
GRRRRS , forget it . say whatever .
one thing is . i ensure you (:
CHERLYN IS STILL FINE ;D
so stop peck peck pecking .






thursday is boring lahs .
mdm waheeda want us to help her do feets .
and im doing those like to mend the ulgly feets one . .
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look at this ..
look like a foot to you anyway ?
-________________-''







another one is totally hopeless !.
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WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS !
okay , i know .




美女:DD

1st time go halland v !!!
LOL , dont laugh lahs !
you got go before mehhhhhhhhhhhh????
tsk tsk !!








WALA WALA !
and on the way home .
i wanted to pee peeeeeeeeeee !!
super urgent lors .
then no toilet .
SI BEI SIAN !
then i boliao , look out for funny people ....
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FUNNY NOT ??
HENG MY MOMMY IS MY MOMMY ,.
my mommy WONT wear like that .
heng my mommy got dress sense :D
hohoho .





then got this couple og Gays trying to be funny inside the train .
OH MY TIAN LAHS .
heng i only manage to snap dao they all sleeping .
before that the one in white was smelling the yellow-shirt-guy's neck lor !!!
then their hands all were placed near their pants' zip !!! >.<''
super EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKS !


okay , super er xin .







womenhood conference ;D
daisy ;D
gave it to amanda ! but in the end , it stil lan diao liaos !
sobs ~





hom-ed .
ka wu tong .
P.S * Dr kim Sunghae is awesome lahs ! LOVE HER !

2.4 beats me .
bongs lahs .
i nearly pass lor .
just by 2 mins .
-____- sbs .




the journey to yck stadium .



22 was my number .

gosh .
when i see ong's face . i nearly faint .

it was so red lahs .
i then tell him .
gosh , i don't wanna run anymore .
i'ld rather take roller coaster .!!

and afterr ...
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MAHAHAHAHAHAS . still got one X on my forehead .
don't look like me anyway .
FATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT .
then my eye one big one small .
don't worry . this don't happen to anyone else .
only me .
-___________________-''
anyway caught this song .
and i thought its very nice .
by meng fei chuan .


除了想你除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记整理心情
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你
我决定:放弃你




yups .
you are so 不值得！

[ Saturday's Kids Excursion @ Singapore Army museum :D ]
wheeee haaaaa !
guess what .
super excited !
first time go excursion with them .
woah , and i'm expecting more than 30 kids coming siol !
praise the lord .
I really had no idea how many kids were coming .
and the problem is not the kids , but the grumpy bus driver .
we supposed to start of by 1115 .
but one of the kid was late .
in the end we started off at 1130 ?
the driver was super mad .
was nagging .
and coffee still wont satisfy him .
he want us to reach at 1230 . how possible would happen siol ?!
he refuse to fetch the last girl char .
so it became my job to go and fetch her .
of cause i din't use my own penny .
hahahahas , got people sponcer .
no lah no lah .
its Raymond LEE .
he's super nice and thoughtful .
he lend me his hp knowing that my hp couldn't call out . so that i can call him when i need help .
even lend me his umbrella knowing that it's gonna rain and i'll be alone .
hahahahas , Thank God .
i have people to take care of me even when i'm serving .

got her :D
and off we go to thee ARMY MUSEUM -_-
i was @_@ in the car .






and finally REACHED :S

coming back to the kid isn't about resting .
carrying m giddy giddy fainting head i still need to help out raymond with dorothy .
to settle the forms and money blah blah .
we slowly moved on to the journey .
i can't explain much how "interesting" the kid was .




the trip is fun .
And scary .
the bomb bomb bomb is what i hate the most .
i almost didn't wanted to join them .
but still i will hold on to the sides and watch finish the show with them .
i'll be thinking like .
the kids dare to watch why can't i !
" but they got parents with them lei ....."
tsk tsk ,
its not the short clip is scary .
its the sound effects .
and inside the room was uber dark .
and I'll be so paiseh to let them see me screaming right ?!!!
so i shut my lips , ear and eyes throughout .
:x >.<
i really didn't expected so much to learn serving in children's church ministry .
i learned alot .
sometimes like it'll be hard like giving my time out serving .
kennah use by people to the extra miles job end up they gain points .
me ? nothing .
must 忍 all !!!
i use to hate being used by people .
i feel betrayed .
maybe you wun understand .
but as long as i know that'll be enough .
although a new member over there .
there'll be still people helping me when i kennah bullied .
so i'm really blessed :D
heees , sorry for this later entry .
cause recently i'm study and praying really much .
i've been praying pretty much on myself and the important people around me.
God never leaves me lor .
even during the dry periods .
He's there to encourage me .
very often i doubt myself living int his world for .
and very often i doubt my capabilities .
i doubt my faith for God .
very often i blame myself .
very often i feel like ending my life .
very often i let people down .
i watched a video that shalynne played during cell group .

my tears start flowing down .
very much is showing that i'm that girl .
that girl who was dancing with God with joy .
that girl who was distracted by many things around her .
that girl seperated from God .
that girl crying out to dance with God again .
that girl crying to breakthrough .
and finally in His arms again .
i wanted to share pretty much after the cell group to encourage them .
but i just couldn't put up much .
well , this is what i wanna say .
during last week's friday cgm .
i shared a testimony thanking God for giving me strength .
i wanted to add on , but words couldn't express how it was .
so i stopped there .
Although alot of people know that i broke up with guy for God .
guess nobody really understand why and how i started and ended the relationship .
like normal people , i cried after my failed relationship .
heart aches , heart aches and heart aches .
throughout that time ,. i was really alone and was praying real hard to breakthrough.
God then showed me the truth few days later .
i tidy up my feelings and downship-ness.
i fasted ,
and God touched me during my 3 hour quiet time .
i was refreshed and God answered my prayers .
the next day , my mom start talking to me and we ended the cold war .
my fever / flu was healed .
mommy blessed me with $$ . but still it'll go back to God .
the best thing is ..
until now i then realised ...
he's no longer on my mind .
i'm no longer struggling :D
10 things i really want to encourage Christians to

1. pray more for your spiritual life.
2. serve God more whenever you can .
3. read more of the word of God .
4. share your burdens and fellowship with your leaders more .
5. keep on praying to keep the anointing .
6. pray that you will not back slide
   
7. pray for yourself that you will not be distracted by temptations .
8. learn how to wait .
9. practice keeping a verse as a weapon to fight against devil .
10. maintain the relationship with God . be addicted to the holy spirit .

yup thats all .
i didn't say it'll be a short entry .
lol
tmr's 2.4 !
JIAYOU !

candice tagged me !
oh my tian .
why this time when i have a lesser song playlist ??
T___T




How to Play
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

How are you feeling today?
K2G- PuffyAmiYumi .
UHMS ? how ami suppose to make this song come sense .
hahahahas , i feel alright .
uhms . yah . -.-

Will you get far in life?
Toku Suru Karade - PuffyAmiYumi
MUAHAHAS , i don't even understand this song .
so no elaboration .
never thought of it before anyway .
yes , i think so .
one thing is i wont assume anything .
" shun qi zi ran " ^^

How do your friends see you?
Green Apple- PuffyAmiYumi
NANDESKA ?? see me as green apple ?
maybe i'm sour ? and not as sweet as red apples ?
omg . crazy !

Will you get married?
TeenTitansThemeSong- PuffyAmiYumi
WAHAHAHAS , " teentitans , GO!!!!!!!......"
maybe yes .
if can't find a good one , i won't .
right mommy ?

What is your best friend’s theme song?
Tokyo Nights - PuffyAmiYumi
ARE YOU SURE ???
*faints *
its a cute song anyway :D

What is the story of your life?
Nice Buddy - PuffyAmiYumi
during visitation i teach my kids about being a loyal friend kays !
haaas .
proverbs 14:7
Go from the presence of a foolish man,When you do not perceive in him the lips of knowledge
kid's bible version ..
Stay away from a foolish man, for you will not find knowledge on his lips

What was high school like?
Toku Suru Karade-PuffyAmiYumi
this song again .
i don't know lehs !
i'm still studying in secondary school darling .


What’s in store for this weekend?
Teen Titans Theme song - PuffyAmiYumi
chiong uhs !!!
" when there's trouble you know who to call. .... TeenTitans !"

How’s your life going?
Simple-PuffyAmiYumi
simple , nice and sweet .
do you understand ?

How can you get ahead in life?
Tokyo Nights - PuffyAmiYumi
as shinning like the stars ?
HAAAAS !

What’s the best thing about your friends?
Simple - PuffyAmiYumi ( again !)
uhms , yah . as long they're themselves . and they love themselves .
simple and nice with no cunning hearts (:

What song will they play at your funeral?
Green Apple - puffyAmiYumi
-_______________-''

How does the world see you?
Nice Buddy - PuffyAmiYumi
HOHOHO. i don't believe (:

Will you have a happy life?
K2G - PuffyAmiYumi
YES YES , perhaps K2G means "Keen 2 Go "
GOGO , jiayou !
Don't worry be HAPPY ~~~~~!
***- ZI HIGH ZHONG - ***



okay im high until sick of answering them nicely liao .....
cause skip here skip there also these 7 songs ......
Sibeisian

Do people secretly lust after you?
Toku suru Karade - PuffyAmiYumi
yeah .

How can you make yourself happy?
Tokyo Nights - PuffyAmiYumi
^^ yeah

What should you do with your life?
Teen Titans Theme song - PuffyAmiYumi
yes (:

Will you ever have children?
K2G - PuffyAmiYumi
keen 2 Go ? nono , I won't intend to .
I'm super afraid of giving birth .
to think of it , its super scary .
But i love kids .
aiya . see how lahs .
im still 16 ? not 28 -______________-

What song would you strip to?
Green Apple - PuffyAmiYumi
geeeeez , i catch no ball .
whatever but i will still answer
No (:

What does your mum think of you?
Nice Buddy -PuffyAmiYumi


What is your deep, dark secret?
Simple - PuffyAmiYumi
i've got none .
just that imma super lazy person .
but i guess everyone else that know me sure know .
hahahahahas

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
Tokyo Nights- PuffyAmiYumi
-no comments- bless you enermy :D

What’s your personality like?
Toku suru Karade - PuffyAmiYumi
Karade sounds brave ..
hohoho !
我是勇敢的女孩！

What song will be played at your wedding?
Nice Buddy -PuffyAmiYumi
hahahahas ! finally found my partner for life so must be more LANG MAN !
-____________-


-no more !-
I am tagging:
1 ) Amanda ?
2 ) Gerald ?
3 ) Jianwen ?
4 ) XinYin ?
5 ) Xuelian ?

**people , it isn't necessary to really play this thing .
haaas , so dont worry :D **




Anyway , back to my dairy :D
saw this scary thing .
was scared and took a picture and save it somemore .
brave right !!



cook japanese food during F&N class .
haaaas ,
god sushi , cha soba , miso soup , tempura prawns ?...






Cook with Marilyn , Juliana , Huihui , Gek theng and Melissa .
our food is the best lahs .
class finish ours .
then the one that they cook all wasted siol .
hahahahas ,
had fun .
this time round V.H !!!!
yay !!
heng i didn't work with melissa alone ..
if not i will eat super gross/disgusting der cha soba ...... >.<




Yes , I'm like that .
love the blogger and blog .
XOXO .
bye .