life is precious guys .
everyone dies .
but not everyone lives .
today holy spirit awakened me .
i should not live any guilt .
i should stay happy , firm and calm .
to continue my life , and see what i can do next to help her family .
not crying over a death matter .
although lotsa people say that i shouldn't go anymore further .
but i still think that .
i needa have some respondsibility .
and the initiative to go forward to show some care and concern .
although i dint attand the funneral .
but deep down my heart i really care for her .
i dont and cant attand funnerals .
i only attand family ones .
for those who thinks that its my fault .
im hereby to apologize from the bottom of my heart .
im sorry .
its not just the way of life people shall live .
im not a good friend .
and i really regret .
i shouldn't had leave her alone when she needs me .
i shouldn't be so selfish .
i should have encourage her more .
and shouldn't had been so 'xiao xin yan '
i should have accepted and forgive whatever she had done .
and then shall have not have the result like today .
im sorry .
for those who cheer me up , encouraged me .
thank you .
for those who had talk to me ad i dint reply .
thank you , im fine .
for those who dont know what really happened and wanna know what happened .
come find me and ask me .
for those who want me good , translate this clip of video to chinese for me !
i needa super pro cantonian .
the handsome cool man there is khalil fong (:



*to passerby(s) : uhhms , cherlyn is not like that one .
not losoh one .
nonono , shes not like that one .
im not suffering depression or what so ever .
nonono emo .
thanks you .
once again , cherlyn is not like that derrs !.
and rest in peace sandy .
i miss you .