Five loaves and two fishes - corrine May .

(:
" i often think about that boy when i think i'm small
and i worry that the work i do means nothing at all .
But every single tear i cry . Is a diamond in his hands .
And every door that slams in my face
i will offer up in prayer
So i'll give you every breath i have
Oh Lord , you can work miracles
All you need is my Amen . "






i've made it guys .
finally happy again !
yes .
not saying i was sad ago .
haaaas , but anyway .
yesterday marilyn brought her photo album to school to show us .
and can you imagine ?
we've got 2 whole pages of neo-prints all together .
marilyn and i were very good friends then .
we use to go out everyday after school to take neo-prints at bishan J8 .
lol , i don't know why , but i remember there use to be people who like to create conflicts between us last time .
after that we were never that close again , cause i was badly influence and was mixing with wrong company ,
marilyn and gang in school left me alone and i got even worst then .
thats not the point anyway .
one thing i wanna share is , she is super cute lahs . cause im not the type that will really keep the neo prints and put them nicely in a album .
thats so sweet of her .
i even saw some neoprints i lost in her album ,
she keeps the memory like so save ..
:D
and i share it with mommy .
mommy even still say people like me always fotget stuffs . i will never treasure my precious memories !
): im not lorrs ...


pictures i took over the past few days ...




by the way guys .
Fann wong has a super pro pose she like to pose with ...
which is super difficult to pose .
i can't even reach that .
she got really straight posture .


okays okays .
i can't carry on like this ..
i do save up memory lahs ..
today while mommy ask me to clean up .
i saw this book once again ..
my primary school time hobby ..
asking people to write their stuffs in my book .
using all kinds of super expensive colour pens ..
i use to buy so many , untill mommy was super mad at me of wasting money .
and i think this is the only one left (:
my 1/9 class photo .
PLEASE DON'T BOTHER TO LOOK FOR ME !
my classmates and i all look ugly in this picture , because that camera man never say 123 !
lol , for one thing i know , hui hui and gektheng looked super funny in this pic . xD


THIS !
my past time toy when i was 5 ? 7 ? mommy claim that i know how to steal her cosmetics and play when i was 3 ..
i didn't know i could be so pro ...
i really still remember this set !
i even lost the brushes which let mommy super angry !
she even canned me ..
hahahahas ..
i like the light blue one ...





my ex tuition teacher gave this to me when im .. primary 3 ?
i remember i use to make all the teachers that come to my house leaving with tears .
and i often make my mom so paiseh .
lol ..some were just too afraid to teach me anymore gave excuse like she got chicken pox and stuffs , and never came back . LOL
jan and i :D


my favourite albums and singer !
as y'all can see that one in the middle is my favourite album of all .
my sister bought it for me :D
this album i can say yes its better than khalil's one :p
its sylvester sim's from singapore idol . he use to be my favourite idol , bet some of you already forgotten him .
although he got a weird charactor from what i heard from media , i still love his music :D
in this album theres not even a song that i don't like .
Rebecca Tong en's album is also super good .
some of her songs that i listen to in this album had actually healed my broken heart last time .
haaaas ,
and not forgetting my idol now .. khalil :D
tong en and khalil they both made new album. and they're already out .
heees , waiting for "somebody" to buy for me ..
i realised that khalil's music is always about the same lehs ..
haiyo , its okay , i'll still support him .




a FIRST d.i.y bag i made !
i still remember i did it with xuelian .
lol , hers was nicer than mine a million times .
mine is like ....

......................
get it ?
LOL ....




ming hui's christmas present for me !
so sorry , i show this out late .
but any way , i love it .
cause its pink :D
my favourite accessories ..


guess which one is the oldest one ?
a ) hard shining cross ?
b ) pink blah blah necklace ?
c ) colourful bracelet ?




tadahhhh ~ ( b ) is the correct answer .
and ( a ) is the youngest one .
infact that bracelet was from my primary school puppy love lover .
haaaaaas ! ( -____________-'' )





nail polish are my faves too ~
i threw away alot .
cause some of them were already spoilt and harden inside already ..
gonna get more from the face shop .




this winnie a pooh fan from hui hui .
CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE ?
we bought this just for sports carnival .
the sun was super irritating ..
and thats super lame of me and hui hui .





a present i forgot its from who already ..
think its mommy bahs ?
but i liked this sharpener alot alot !
it was super ex last time .
and little things like this can satisfy me when im young last time .
haaaaas , till now im still using it :p

lets make every thing go pink ~


showing some neo-prints which look super funny ones ..
lol ..

took this with my cousin and judy .

this super long ago neo-print when i was sec 1 or 2 ?
when we still have the princess trend .
Lol .

with jan ! love this cause got hellokitty xD

all look dumb and funny . with my ugly hair last time .

i remember i bought this set of uno cards from my friend last time from my primary school mate .
love hellokitty toooo much !
use to collect hellokitty sweet candies case ..
heeees , they're delicious and cute !


some hello kitties stuffs ..
use to only like to use hellokitty wallets .
like everything bout her .
dont even care if it look super childish .
haaaaas !

my favourite set of hellokitty & dear daniel .
the japan one ! :DD
KAWAII NEHS ?
imma super pro .
can keep it so well untill this state .
i also like the england one .
but mommy kept it too deep inside the cupboard ..
lol ..





i love this alarm clock lahs !
its so noisy and it can work super well ..
but after much throwing and stuffs , its gone sot sot already .
well , its still chio :D




have been bored at home like siao .
studying studying like .. -__________-''
i need some nice music to entertain me .
and now adays im just so in love with olivia Ong :D
her songs just sooths my ears (:
and .. CNY SHOPPINGS !
gosh , i haven't done any still yet .
would somebody accompany me ? T___T
ordered some skinnies and tees from manda .
hope it'll rush in time .
lol .





i don't know why but i just love to wear my school big blouse at home .
i got one super long and big blouse which i don't wear it to school .
haaaaas , anyway . i like to snap pictures with it too .






browse through zhelin's profile in friendster .
and i saw this ...
i didn't think twice ...

MY CHAN !

SARANGHEIYO ~
haaaaas , super in love with coffee prince .




seriously sometimes i don't understand why people wanna look down on people studying in N.T .
especially those studying or teaching in N.A / EXPRESS / SPECIAL steams one .
we people are the most hard working ones .
you'll seldom heard our names being called out in assembly or any turn up detention classes than the other chao ah lian and bengs wanna be in N.A .
everytime when theres like personal grooming stuffs ,
the first class they purposely look for is my class .
and , so far our class is too good in the first place until the teachers can't spot any , accept for some " buay zi tongs "


1 ) N.A and above classes can wear sports shoes , ankle socks , low belts / loose pants and having dyed colour hair .

THE TEACHER ACTUALLY BELIEVE THEM THAT THEY HAVE NATURAL RED HAIR !
which is super fake and bias !
look , you enter with normal black hair .
now with natural red hair ?
how stupid is that ? some even say they swim too much , and the water spoiled their hair...

PRETTY PLEASE !!



2 ) we N.T class having the previlege to go on courses and care programme .

whats so wrong with that ??
going on courses can upgrade our skills and care programme really changed alot of my class mate's attitude of studying .
it helped alot .
the school didn't want our grades to pull the school reputation down , you people like to say its anderson !!!
so there for i don't see why you need to be so jealous .
this just shows that these students are just so proud and selfish .
like only they can have all the good things and we N.T students ain't good enough to have them .
look , we are not retarded students !




3 ) i don't see why you people need to be so worked up saying N.T students just can't study .

and all surely will end up in I.T.E .
then says the I.T.E its really the end .
not saying my school mates .
even others till now thinks that I.T.E is so so bad .
whats wrong with them ?!
like as if poly and JCs wont have any black sheeps .
-____________-''
super childish way of thinking .



4 ) teachers thinks that N.T student only knows how to COPY !

man !
i got really very offended when teachers say this .
all they know is looking down on us .

there was one science teacher use to come in with his laptop .
give us work sheets , put up the slide show .
ask us to copy .
never open his mouth to teach .
and once the class copy finish the work , he happily walks off even when the bell haven't even go off yet !

super annoying !
i ask him why he never teach us , he even say this ..
" i teach you all can understand meh ? your class won't listen to me , so why should i teach . i thought all you all know is copy ?! "
i was like , SAI LI KONG KUM !!!!!!
i mean how can he say this too a student even if he think so ???
its so super hurtful , and a super bad bad BAD example !
i was so angry that i walk into the principle office to find kiao ku !
kiao ku is the best .
at least she listens to me :DDD




aight , nuff said .

a mysterious letter from U.S "Victoria's Secret"

the address written on top of the letter was not ours .
but it stated there #03-3*3 blk 59*D ( shan't let you know it )
so i thought maybe the post man blur luhs ..
made a mistake .
mommy reminded me to remember to send it back to the right mail box at 59*D.

the next morning before going to school ,
i walk to 59*D to send it back .
i was looking around at the mail boxes .
i can't seem to find #03-3*3's mail box .
then suddenly jan my primary school good friend appeared .
she asked me what am i looking for .
i ask her where's #03-3*3's mail box ..
she laughed at me and replied " eh siao eh .. since when 59* D got 3*3 der ? only your blk got lah "
i was shocked .. she took the letter on my hands and read the address written there .
the receiver name was " Denise Lim " .
and she threw away the letter on the floor and told me that since its not mine then i shan't care so much whoever it belong too .
i didn't think much and just walk away together with her .
she told me that it must be the post office staff or which ever company typed the details wrongly .
and then we happily chatted for awhile about new year and stuffs .
then , i came home .
something super weird happened again .
that letter that jan and i threw away is at my door step.
as for y'all know , this morning was raining heavily ,
so i thought when we threw away the letter, by now it should be damn wet already .
but that letter in front of me was clean and dry like how it was like in the first place .
that was super weird and scary .
i quickly opened my door and called jan about it .
her mommy decided to call the post office about it to check for me .
i showed her the letter , and she stared at me like I've done something wrong .

she said that she knew this person and her mother . they were very close ..
then she told me that " Denise Lim " is already dead like few years ago .
she committed suicide by jumping down the building from their building 59*D ......
that family moved away and they're no longer staying here anymore .

.....
...........



i was totally stunned .
i thought back and remember when i was primary 3 or 4 there was really this incident .
but i didn't know that person's name .
cause i was never too free to bother about other people .
auntie threw away the letter .
and i went back home .
i prayed about it and happily went to do my stuff .


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different things are happening around me .
be it happy , sad or what so ever .
i wanna win more souls for God .
so that devil will never snatch away people from death anymore .
be it anyone . some one you hate or who so ever .
we should love one another (:
if you're reading this i hope you know very well that God loves you and i love you too :D
there's many people whom i love has left me and i can't get the chance to see them or tell them anymore .
i hope they can hear me too .
I'm still fine :D
i shan't say much .
devil's not beating me down .
not saying about the sad things .
heeees , today i scored not bad for my math common test :DD
felt so happy after teacher announcing our marks .
haaaas , at least i scored better than the rest .
chey , who ask them don't wanna pay attention in class....
lol , neh ni neh ni poo poo ! :p

)':
i had a hair cut ..
hais .. i shouldn't have made this bad decision .
but i've no choice but to ...my short hair )):
sobs , i'm crying ..
HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME LAHS .


....

snap more pictures to let you people get use to it ...






lets be more ...
hais ..
abit more ..











ehem , look carfully ...


...
TAAADAAAAHS !
:p gotcha ...
HOHOHO ..

NEH NEH NI POO POO !

lol , xD



KONICHIWA ! :D
I'm back with my blogging again guys .
what an emo entry before .
lol , anyway ..
I'm thinking whether should i change to attend the Sunday service than the sat's one .
i don't know how should i put it .
but every time it just seem so ..
lol , guess I'll be separated from the rest who are in service 1 .
someone give me the trumpet please .
God !
...
mommy was super unhappy bout me coming home so late .
i missed Dr. AR Bernard's word today in svc 2 .
also , prayer meeting .

as y'all know ,i like Dr AR bernard very much !
i like his teachings ! :DD

yesterday was hom-ed late ..
mommy scolded me ):
i don't like her to be angry or what so ever .
yesterday night i kept quiet like a mute .
and she gave me her nagging shen gong .
she can nag me for 2 hours at the same thing .
and the more she nag , the more things she'll drag from past .
-______________-''
last part she even say ..
" tomorrow you better don't go anywhere i tell you ..go if you want and not come back ! "
i was like ...
lotsa stuffs came into my mind .
like , in future how am i going to face her .
how should i prevent all this for happening again .
i need to worry bout both parties .
and thats super tiring ..
and i admit , these few days I've been thinking of quiting everything ,only focus on my studies .
i know that's very selfish .. but ..anyway , i changed my mind ..
Dr AR Bernard ask this question yesterday in svc 1 .
" how's you relationship with God ? "
i sit back and start to think a while .
when pst was praying for us , i started to cry out more for God .
and then i can sense a big square thing is starring at my face .
i start to wonder what is it , and i tried to open up my eyes ..
its a camera !
and when i stare back at him with my teary eyes , he turned away ..
lol , maybe i should go and see that online web cast .
uhm , sikali they don't have that particular day one ..
recently i've been really dry , and I've told no one about it .
i shared with Amanda , and i found out she feels the same way too !
haaas , we should have prayer meetings again .
i don't understand some people sometimes , even if i know that person for a long time .
sometimes what ever they do will just confuse me ..
not to say them , me myself is also confuse bout the things that i do and say .
so overall , i guess i'm the ostrich so different from the rest ..
any way if you are blur of what im saying cause a ostrich pop out ..
i'm telling you why ..



few days ago i watched [ S POP ] that channel U siao show .
i watch it cause there's Stefanie sun !
she shared about lotsa stuffs we didn't know behind the screens ..
and the host together with her singing producer and teachers were all talking about her pattern ..
like what kind of habits she always like to do on the stage and stuffs .
i was like HAHAHA .
the host " quan yi feng " and stefanie was play-ed a personality test with the 3 person .
and heres how the game goes ...

Imagine you just entered a big forest , with all kinds of animals ..
what's the first animal you think you'll see ..

your answer : ________________

and then you carry on to walk in the forest .
suddenly you heard some noise and you turn to the side ..
you'll see what animal ?

your answer : ________________

you carry on to walk on and you reached the exit of the forest ..
you looked back , what will be that animal you think you've saw ?

your answer : ________________

LOL , i try to write you answers down on a peice of paper .
heres the result ..
the first animal you saw is .. how people see you (:
the second animal is .. how you see yourself as .. (:
and the last animal is real self :D

i shared this with my cell group bros and sis ..
their answers were super funny and cute .
i asked even ask them why none of them chose pig as their last animal !
LOL .

and to tell y'all my answers ..
the first animal i saw was a : Tiger
second animal i saw was a : Ostrich
last animal i saw was a : Cat

LOL ! i see myself as a OSTRICH ?!
and then wth , people see me as a tiger ...
not at all lors ...
i was thinking .. i should have said butterfly ..
haaaaas !
butterfly isn't an animal anyways ..
hahahahas .
my last answe was super bo liao .
-______________-''



i read xia xue's latest entry .
and i saw some funny vid .
she actually tried to cook curry maggie mee adding " hua tian jiu " ( chinese rice wine ) and coconut milk .
mind you , she add them like they're free one ..
gosh . i cant even imagine she ate it .
i bet its a prank . so that she can hear people trying to do it and then " chua sai "
WAHAHAHAS , good one anyway .
but in her latest entry she show us her shopping sprees and stuff at U.S .
i tell you ! i want them all !
especially her juicy couture shoppings !!
Gosh , she's super lucky luhs !
and the stuffs she buy are like super cheap i think .
so attractive !
go and check out her blog luhs .
lol , i'm so super auntie now .
Gosh .
HAHAHAS .
by the way to tell you guys .
i haven't done any chinese new year shopping yet .
thats super sad i tell you .
i gotta go !
BYE !

原来这才是真的你
无法掌握自己的心
偶尔花言巧语
偶尔又选择逃避
自作聪明 ！！

原来这才是真的你
习惯演技
随时在磨练演技
望了什么叫做真心
你想找谁来演对手戏
这是你的权力就让你自己决定


super disappointed .
i didn't know that people can change so much .
the person i know and i always talk to made sucha let down .
he's just some one who like to wear mask everyday in his life .
just like this song .
sometimes i really feel that he'd never treat me like a friend before .
telling me off when he's having problem .
never cares or give a damn when i am .
this feels really hurts .
treating you only like someone who is good to talk to .
never care to give any concern to how other people may feel .
only worry bout his own circumstances .
neither do i still believe theres true boy girl "good friendship"
because i don't wanna get so worked up .
as a normal friend ..
he keeps all his thoughts in his mind .
and likes to run away from reality .
it just bloody shows that he's just a coward acting like he can do everything when he cant at all .
maybe now he wont even will think this whole chunk is talking about him right now .
hais ,
I'm just super stupid .
easily used by people like killing ants .

HELLO !

updating some pictures i took few days ago .
lol , was too lazy to upload them .
anyway ..

RIBENA PENCIL CASE !!!
inside got , pencils , ruler , eraser and sharpener !!
HEEEEES ! UBER HAPPY ! ;DD
loves all these .
THANKS MOMMY !

that super big screen in front of me now ..
haaaas , that background is cute ehs ?
;p ;p
本小姐 .. needs her own time ..



ACT CUTE TIME ! ..

wahahahahas !!!!
okay okay .
black and white edited .
its past :D

my sweet innocence (:


hohoho ~
my name is JIN LONG !
here to kill HUANG KAI JIE !!
by the way , today's episode is the best lah can !!
kaijie got stabbed in the stomach ..
WAHAHAHAS ,
serve him right .
as i said ..
bad people in drama / movies wont live :D

JEALOUS ME ~
hide hide !
ROARS !
I BITE !

LOL , was thinking whether should i post up all these pictures ..
cause , tang guo AH MA sure say imma zi lian kuang !!
WAHAHAHAS ,
no lahs no lahs ..
i'm just tooooo bored lah can .



today i hand up all my course works proposals ..
heeees , like finally .
then ..
had math remedial in school today !
my classmate chicken little joshua's mind is uber fast like..
vanish .
transformation topic , he see see nia bomb drawing out ..
I'm like still down there figuring how to draw that damn shape !!
wth !
that really shows how slow my mind is .
DON'T BLAME !
cause my brain got stuck by some Lego i guess .
LOL .
nah nah ni nah nah .
imma gonna get 5 distinction this year for my N level .
i say it .
imma gonna get it .