3rd day..
still no news of them ..







What should i do now .




Goodnight ..

YOU MESSED AROUND WITH THE WRONG PERSON,

Today during work .. I...
Saw someone's back view super like L .
Yellow lion spike head .
Vest and shirt .
Blue pants that dont match to go with ..
Grey shoes . ( super alike the nike that i bought with him at leftfoot. )
Shucks , is it him ?
I went to look , but can't see the faceeeee !
The person went out from the kopitiam exit with his cigs .



My heart nearly stopped for a few seconds .




Sian lor .




Even if it's him .. so what ...?

Lol , same old thing what ... DUH !



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ACCUSED ME THAT I EFFING LIED ?
DON'T LET ME SEE YOUR GF ON STREET .
I STILL EFFING HAVE MY OLD PHONE WITH ME .
AND ALL THE SMSES YOU SENT ME THEN , WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER .



THEN LETS SEE WHO'S THE BEST ACTOR IN TOWN LAH HOR .



CURTAINS FINALLY CLOSING ..



LOL .


you can say whatever you want .
I have nothing to hide .



Hur ,
Good luck .


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UPDATE :

Needa pack up my room already , cause of moving to thy new house yo !

threw away all my primary old memories stuffs .

found lotsa neo prints and i'm keeping 'em ..

Thenn...

I threw all the things that the effing UGLIEST ghost gave me .

ALL MEANS ALL . not even a card is left .

Instead of feeling sad , I feel relieved .

Even though one of it used to touched my heart alot .

Now i wont see it anymore , so i won't think about him anymore .

But by throwing all of 'em away , it's a good ending point .

To embark on my new starting point .

And I'm happy . Cause I've forgotten the person .

who ah ? I don't know . I don't want to know .

Accused me with all you want..

Cus , not only me know that you're that kind of person .

and how flirt you actually are .

People misunderstand me , i won't care .

And I won't blame them . Cus they're also innocent .

hahaha ,. whatever . I hate explaining .

BYE .

ticks ticks ticks .
I'm racing with the time .




Busy like siao .
Don't even have time to shit .




drank green apple + mango ice blend bubble tea today .
super double shiokness .



Oh darling , anna sui's dollie head for $38 real 100ml tester .
Sucha good buy for collection . why not ?



Today is sucha chupalang day .
& , now , i don't even feel like the energy to write secrets here .





Cus , today got hella alot of people give me their effing attitude for nothing .
And hella alot of people gave me unplanned last minute decisions for me to do ..




& Imma so hella pissed off .
Don't simple say things are easy when you can't do it .




Don't assume things .
Easterframe Muster froam lah .




Lao niang now damn sleepy .
Goodnight .




Xoxo,
Cherlyn,.

I may fall . But I never stop trying ,

Thank God man , I'm finally feeling much better .
Today ..
Perry want us to reblow dry straight for our dollies .
and so we did . again , all over again .
lol , my dollie still looks the best among all . lalala ..
others all pong sai gao hair look . only mine is dangerously way too chio .
I'm not lying . it's true , even perry says so .
BLEAH .

huimin wash my hair for practice .
Had a bad headache after that .
super seh , on the way to work .
but manage to be early for work . so double ptl .



Had lunch and had my medicines .
Strength was all I needed from heaven man .
hur hur ..
do my perfume inventory .. wipe my australis duties .
wooosh , 4 hours gone . 6 receipts only ..
sbs ....
then needa do outlet return . double sian . cus got super alot of hidden chupalangs .
aiyah , OT until 10 . no double $$ .. sob sob .



Today while listening to songs in my music player and browsing through my daily picts from the past ,.
i find myself questioning myself alot of emo questions ..
which i myself dont understand or care all along .
like since when have i become so cold .
since when have i become so much bo chup .
since when have i become so shut down on the inside .
why am i such a unhappy person now ..
where did those happy smiles in my photos gone to ?

I really hate the way i am now ..



But , i just can't do anything anymore .
just holding on to someone . closely in my heart .
pulling myself through this hard time with God .
focused on the vision I had .
I just simply wanna obey and follow through .



ignore all those hurts and noises around me .
cus , maybe from there .. I can find my peace .




Just there ,
I learn to love myself more .
Still the same , no need explanations .


Cus , the best love I've ever found through God is the strong trust .

See this space below . This is lovely ..

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams!

Live the life you've imagined .

- God to cherlyn

Source : faith .

下起雨也要勇敢前进,脚步要更加坚定!
Cherlyn ah cherlyn , be brave !




btw , my poor ah boon dislocated his arms ..
he only got his arms fixed after a terrible 6 hours or more ?
super heartache luh .
Don't know whether he's better now already .
But he sound over the phone . as excited and sweet as always :D
Keep him in prayers ya .



Oh , ah piaos .. shoo shooo away from ah booon!



chucks chucks chuckszxzxzxzxzzz :D




Xoxo ,
Cher ;;

我恨你.非常...!

EFF . EFF . EFF .

CHERLYN CONDEMNS ALL SCREEN COWARDS , PHONE COWARDS , AND BLOODY WHAT EVER COWARDS .

screen cowards : People who don't dare to say facts infront of your face , only knows how to type on their private blogs to complain about you . seriously , irritating-ly FUCK ,.

SAME GOES TO OTHERS .

Hey black shortie , since you like to play screen show .
I play with you .
First thing first .
Don't label me .
Don't fucking judge me .
Seriously , YOU ARE NO ONE TO JUDGE ME .
Even if we WERE friends last time or even much closer ,.
YOU ARE NO ONE OKAY .

I already said , I don't give a damn about you .
Cus, you don't effing give a damn about what I said or explained to you .
I give you what you give me dude .
Don't act as if I need your understanding or forgiveness .
Don't believe , Suah . I also don't care .

Because , I've been honest to you .
No point wasting my effort to be nice to you .
Seriously , don't act like as if I owe you a living or I should be sorry towards you .
本小姐,use to care , but now ? HELLL NO .



You can blame on me all you want .
Keep those fucking FAKE shits and lies that you assumed tangled in your heart and mind ,
FOREVER .
I DON'T CARE .
& I won't care anymore .



JUST DON'T FUCKING COME AND "O.O" WITH ME ANYMORE .
it's no longer cute / adorable to me .
infact , disgusting .




ask me to fuck off .



HEY ,
YOU FUCK OFF FIRST LUH OKAY ?
Or maybe jolly well roll off flow off . or like a dust kennah i blow off by 1 single second .



You're just an eye sore blister to me now .
with all you fake lies and you Good acting of sympathy .
hur hur , carry on and go ahead to those who don't know you well enough .



Cus I've seen enough .




Nuff said .
Shucks , I just made myself swear like mad because of a irritating DUST .



Fuck seriously .



aiyah , I don't care lah .
my flu sucks too .




Sorry dear diary ,
I just dirtied you with his shadows of his name .
I know how you feel .
And i feel sorry for you .
but , surely not him .



Good night earthlings ,
Bye dear diary ,.



Fuck off , Ghost .

Your tiny eyes when you smile .
Your warm hands that warms me up .
Your strong arms that protect me from harm .
Your lips that brings sweet melodies to my ears .
Your heart that melts my heart .




You just make my day so well .




Loves ,
Cher .

So what , if they have the world ?

Almost like nothing to fill in about over here this empty blank space.
Maybe all left with my sadness in my heart .




I got the feeling that this post is gonna be yet another emo entry,.
How ... I feel quite bad leh .. Aiyuh , my blog anyway right ..?


Haha , In my daily smiles you guys surely feel that Imma super happy person .
But people who read my blog would know . I am not ..





It's not that I have a "split personality " kinda thing ..
Just that , I don't know why . I don't like people to see my weak side .
Sigh . & I'm use to it already . People call me a fake .


I don't care . anyways (:



Alright , new class have started for me ..
Doing my professional hair styling course currently .
Met a super "bubbly" lady that's super noisy in my class .
I don't like her .. But I have to face her daily for now .
Her voice really irritates me every single second when she speaks .
Because she like to ask stupid questions .
Questions like i think she didn't ask before some brain processing like we do ..?
Yeah , which is damn irritating .
What ever the lecturer says , she surely would comment on it .
Super distruptive lah . Tsk , she's irritating .





I talked to her privately about her problem durring lunch .
Like the way she like to ask people questions .. Her question sometimes can be quite offensive .




Erm , just take this example :
* Irritating Girl * : hey , you have a tattoo ! when did you got that ?
*Person A* : Oh , 14 .
* Irritating Girl * : I see , so young got tattoo ahh ...! You must be a chao ah lian last time lahhh !
* Person A * : Ermmmm....*Silence* ...
* Irritating Girl * : AIYAH , NO NEED SHY LAH .. I ALSO AH LIAN . but why your ang gong so cartoon one ???
* Person A* : ( Ignores her )




She's 20 , but look like 30 and the way she talk is like 10 years old .
I'll take it as she have some mental problem that caused her to be so suay .
Cus she have to live up with that pea brain for the rest of her life .
Btw , she's not ah lian at all . Just a ah lian wanna be .



I think even ah lians are better than her . More mature than her .
Shucks , I sound super mean now .



Whatever .




我也许就像你说的一样、就是和全世界不爽.
不开心的都收着.泪都流在心里,..
然后在心里加了锁头.谁都不让靠近、
别人给的关心，说的话都不听.




现在的我还是觉得..一个人就够了.




真的...



Cher;

Imma super upset .
Somebody effing play a joke on my hair .
And now it's effing spoilt .
I'm now damn boiled with hatred . Don't let me see his face again .
Cus I'll really give him lotsa uncountable tight slaps on his cheek till he cry .



I'm really super disappointed with him .
And my hair today is really effing ugly .
He cut it so thin that it look super like don't know what the fuck .
In fact the condition of my is like lousy now .
Serious . I force myself to work .
If not , i don't even feel like stepping outta the house .



I can't sleep at all when I think back .
Cus , this is the first time I feel so regret .
& fucking hopeless about it .




Damn it, seriously .
fuck up , And now , It's reaching new year . I so don't wanna show up .
Fuck , Sorry , I just swear damn alot .
Cus , I'm fucking angry now .
Don't stop me .




Never been so upset before .
Cried for NIGHTS AND NIGHTS . thanks to that mother fucka !




Give me a million ,and I'll sue you to jail . Damnnnnn !



Don't feel like meeting anyone . Anymore !
And fuck , no more camwhore sessions !





Feel my griefs ?
But you have no way to help me .



Thanks vin anyways .
for cheering me up as always .




Love ya .
Cher .