I had dreams and visions .

& I thought it's was real and given .

I kept on running towards it.

There were supporters , I was confident .

When it's my time to make a decision , Someone proved me wrong .

She said , I don't know anything I want . I'm just poorly dumb and stupid .

I still insist that's the vision You've given to me .

To know the results , are all just dreams ... that'll never happen .

我的梦想。。都碎了。。

Maybe I'm just like what she said .

I'll never make it happen .

I'm just a born stupid poor IQ student .

In my workplace , people dislike me .

& I lost my job .

I fail to satisfy my boss because of my stuborness .

In my family , I bring disaster to my mother and her .

I can't listen and talk well .

I might as well die .

Now everyone is happy with their own good .

And I'm crying over my bad situation .

I will not commit suicide .

Telling myself over and over again .

I just need a break .

cause , it doesn't even matter anyway .

我希望。。

病菌远离我。。 神会把快乐还给我。。

amen .

My God reigns

I will smile towards this light .

John 1 : 4