I'm going for aye hair cut soooooooooooooooooooooooooooon.
Rarrrr ,
Fringe is super freaking long .
I know what's hsiao yan's reaction will be like when I say I wanna cut my hair .
hahahaha .
She will be damn afraid of me do stupid hair styles ..
And will insist to go along with me to the salon.
Times like this .. I can only recall.. Repeating the same faces she'll show .
And the same recording when I use to record it in my phone .
Listening her say the same short recording of only 2 mins .
miss her !!!!!!!!!!




yeah , anyway , I'm going for a hair cut .
but that hair will only look nice with straight hair .
my hair are like not very straight , with a bit curly waves .
I like it , but I wanna change . Especially the hair colour !
I'm like confuse in a way to , Cause i personally like the way my hair is now .
Oh oh ! I'm Removing my pink hair extension already.
cause it's like abit tangled inside . super Gao Wei....
blah !
Yukiko my stylist will help me !
So no more troubles .



Mommy kept asking of my job and school .
It's very annoying .
Cause I've to keep repeating the same stuffs over and over again .
For the WHOLE DAY .
She'll go ..
( translated for you guys . she speaks mandarine )
Mommy : Mei ah .. when are you getting your pay huh ?
Me : Jan 3rd .
Mommy : When huh ? Why huh ? ( she like already know long ago )
Me : I thought I told you before that I got fired by my manager already ?
Mommy : Then when you getting your pay huh ?
Me : JANUARY 3RD !!!!!!!!!!!!
Mommy : I heard you lah .. Need to shout huh ...
Me : keep telling you . you never remember one leh ..
Mommy : Then your school chose already anot ?
Me : Yeah , Chose already . Now waiting for the result lor .
Mommy : Huh .. Then when start school ?
Me : Must see the school accept anot first ..
Mommy : Then which school huh ??
Me : Thinking of balestier ITE .
Mommy : when start school?
Me : ................
Me : *stares at her with fire in the eye*
Mommy : walk off -



few minutes later ....

Mommy : Go pack your room .. your this your that uh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


and the nagging goes ...


zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I know she cares about what I'm going through .
But seriously speaking ..
It's very irritating .


new year is around the corner ..
DA SHAO CHU is coming also .
Not interested to take ang bao this year.
Don't even feel like visiting relatives .

Well , hope for the future ..

Twins ~

Listening to this song , reminds me of lotsa old times man ...

):

Wooh wooh wooh .
Alvin and i are just friends !
normal , super ordinary good friends .


Get this clear from your filthy minds .



And to the bad mouthings idiot who is spreading false rumors !
If we're a pair , Then the idiot who is spreading nasty rumour is a lesbian with her Good friends !
And if believe it , You're also aye idiot .!


.....................................
morons ...... Pigs , Cows , Donkey , Rats ...
& and the whole entire farm !




grrrrrrrrrr ,
Can't believe it , Your skin is so thick that even when I confronted you ..
You still can act as if like it's correct and nothing happened .




Kiss my ass ?



Wait for this year to come ..
errmmmmm, maybe at the year of 21000 October the 3rd (:

I had dreams and visions .

& I thought it's was real and given .

I kept on running towards it.

There were supporters , I was confident .

When it's my time to make a decision , Someone proved me wrong .

She said , I don't know anything I want . I'm just poorly dumb and stupid .

I still insist that's the vision You've given to me .

To know the results , are all just dreams ... that'll never happen .

我的梦想。。都碎了。。

Maybe I'm just like what she said .

I'll never make it happen .

I'm just a born stupid poor IQ student .

In my workplace , people dislike me .

& I lost my job .

I fail to satisfy my boss because of my stuborness .

In my family , I bring disaster to my mother and her .

I can't listen and talk well .

I might as well die .

Now everyone is happy with their own good .

And I'm crying over my bad situation .

I will not commit suicide .

Telling myself over and over again .

I just need a break .

cause , it doesn't even matter anyway .

我希望。。

病菌远离我。。 神会把快乐还给我。。

amen .

My God reigns

I will smile towards this light .

John 1 : 4

I washed the toilet today.

*ps / It's damn tiring ..

I'm dreaming of aye PINK christmas !!! :D

HAVE A MERRIER CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR GUYS !

AND LEAVE 2008 BEHIND YAW !!

with loves , cherzi (x

To.. More Than Words ..
I don't wanna hear your bullshits .
I don't wanna hear your explanations .
You guys have sacked me .
Then don't expect me to go back .
I use to care alot about your sales for xmas .
Now I don't even bother alright .
So what rise my pay now to $6 . Lao niang bu xi han .

So what if that staff bullshitted , and now you guys blame her .
You people were the one who approve it what . So shut up .

You all don't need me in the company , neither do i want this job .
Outside are having more good part timer jobs that are way better than yours.
I confirm they'll have much more better management .
Much more benefits i gain .



Don't come and pai ma pi to me now lor .

Say what y'all have bonds with me already ..
no one can replace me ..
customers miss me lah ..
WHATEVER .
It'll never work .
So go ahead and find someone better than me .
By the way .
Stop calling my house . It's my family phone. not your hotline for NKF or STAR AWARDS.



PISSED . TOTALLY PISSED WITH THEM .
making me feeling like a fool !
stupid pineapple wasabi paste banana !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
grrrrrrrrrrr .




i stupid ?
no .

I never regret anything I've ever done in my life .
Because , I came over it .






I won't do any complains .
So people who are also angry with them the same way like me too .
Don't go disturb their business .
Never . Thank you .
ps / don't go to cineleisure's mtw. Go to Plaza sing / tamp / tiongbr .
They're stupid pineapple wasabi paste banana. GET IT ?





kay lah .
After all these rantings ..
I'm not angry already .
forgive forgive and forget .
SUA .
no more (:




ha ..................
finally a night to sleep .

Good night .

some old photos . funny tho ~












Great Dj ---

Fed up with your indigestion.
Swallow words one by one.
Your folks got high at a quarter to five.
Don’t you feel you’re growing up undone.

Nothing but the local DJ.
He said he had some songs to play.
What went down from this fooling around.
Gave hope and a brand new day.

Imagine all the girls,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums.

Oh.

Nothing was the same again.
All about where and when.
Blowing our minds in a life unkind.
Gotta love the bpm.
When his work was all but done
Remembering how this begun.
We wore his love like a hand in a glove.
There’s a future plays it all night long.

Nothing but the girls,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums…..

Imagine all the girls.
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums,
Ah ah ah ah, ah, ah, ah, oh.

All the girls
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums





Love this song .
& it's a never ending listening to this song .



am VEXED VEXED VEXED .
Didn't felt like doing anything for today.
Penniless at home.


so many things gone ,
like in a week ?
phone luh , job luh , wallet luh ....
all so important .

My sister is back , and there she goes .
pouring me over and over with cold waters .
like ..
Woahh , job lost .. now ITE also dont know what course to choose ?
And there she goes.. Saying all those nasty words like Imma good for nothing .
For a whole day .
Even when I'm doing the dishes . She never stop .
The only way to escape for all these was to stay in my room to act asleep .



Mom's back . There they go as a team . WORST .
totally hopeless .






gotta be up tomorrow morning.


My family isn't at support to my life when i look back.
Tomorrow , seriously...
don't feel like going home .

But where else can i go ?



That's how i feel , diary .
Record this down , so that I'll not find myself repeating it ever again .



I'll go home still . But I don't wanna speak a word anymore .
I find them all not worth it at all .

I GOT FIRED !
shocking isn't it ?

Was supposed to be working on wednesday like in the afternoon .
& when i reached there ..
Aye staff told me i could go home already , because they had enough workers already.
Me like stunned said , Oh , okay . So am i working tomorrow ?
She said no need , because they had enough workers already , they don't need me .
Then i replied , So i go home now ?
She said yeah , We'll inform you again when you need to come down to get your pay.

I thought nothing was happening .
& i went home thinking great . " A off Day finally ! "
While on the train i then thought for awhile .
Eh .. So am i working on friday.. Or SAT ?!
Then..
Eh .... Why are they giving my pay so early ?
Weird enough . I called up my pals , to ask them how they feel about it .
They immediately shouted at me over the phone like ..
" cherlyn goh , are you silly or what ?! You've just got fired lah ! "

Me in stunned expression starring at the phone .
I got fired ?!!!
immediately I felt super angry .
And shouted why to my pals .. WHY ???????????
they calmed me down and ask me to go back and check with them again.
I thought , It'll be super effing embarrassing .
Why should i go all the way down to ask them those question .
And what If I'm really sacked ?!
I then felt stressed .

But .. I didn't cry .





I then ring up xuelian .
She's always calm at all times when things happen .
She's in singapore anyways . Right in time to save this poor me here .
She first cheer me up , and talk a lil ..
We went out for movie . Watched twilight .




I will marry him .
ROBERT PATTINSON !




Xue lian and I falled in love with him immediately after the movie !
He's just so cool lah .
Got this intense look . Totally cute !





Our movie ended like nearly midnight .
We took cab home over to her place .
And i stayed overnight at her place . ( slept with lily ,)

Xuelian's mom cooked fried rice for me at the next morning .
So nice of her eh ? She never cook for xuelian's friend before one leh .


Reached home at 12 pm.
Bathed and fed kinno .
Walked him ..
I then in vanishing mode quickly get changed into my school u and ran to school .
why ?
To get my N level result !

& guess what ..
I passed my math and science !!!!!!!
super happy .
But I didn't get As for my food studies .
Sad enough . Much tougher this year . Expected to fail , but at least ....
you know , sigh .



Alvin khoo my bestie got first in class !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CONGRATS MY DEAR !
heees , so happy for him .
He wasn't present there for the result release .
So when i knew , I told him .. He was like ..
Eh , NI PIAN SIAO UH ! KUA ZHANG LAH .. FIRST IN CLASS ?!
Lol .. Me in excited manner told him , DUI LAH , DI YI MING .. KAI XIN MAH ??????????
then he said .. " orh , I now call me mother go down take result .. "
He called me back and asked ..
" what course do you wanna enter .. lets study the same course ! "
hahahahaha , I told him those girly girly courses . He got pissed and ignored me .
:p




YEAHHHH , after so ...
discussed with him what course shall we take together ..
not confirmed yet .
Maybe .. hair fasion design bah :D
i feel like studying nursing , and he don't mind .
(But I'm afraid of seeing blood !)



soon enough later I listened to shalynne and called up my manager to make things clear .
She in very firm manner told me that I won't be working anymore .
Then like when will i get my pay etc.
then , when I asked for the reason why ..
She asked rachel ( a staff who likes to fart ) to take over the phone .
She then told me ..
"oh , 你要知道? 我不喜欢你做工的风格。。 你没有做错事。。 我就是不喜欢你咯。。"
(translate )
" oh, you wanna know ? I don't like the way you work . You did nothing wrong . I just don't like you .. "

I felt totally rejected .........



Aye answer that's totally unfair .
but , what to do ?

I then replied .. Okay,well , thank you . bye bye .




Man ............................
Should be i quit the job lor . Not me being sacked !
yeah , most people think the way.
But me , I think , It's their lost . So it doesn't matter to me in anyway .
Just that I lost a job for christmas . No new year bonus .
No more gucci bag , no more new phone ................

BUT . In another thought .
I can spend more time with my cg and my family for this christmas and new year .
(: So good or bad ? both wise .
God will prove me a better future out there der !




Mommy kept asking me for about my job ..
what should i do ..........?







I need ribena right now ))):

I just wanna have a good sleep. Is that so hard Santa ?



Today is a super lao fu zi day .
i woke up early in thy morning like 8 to get ready for my work at 10am.
I left my house at 9,15 & guess what when I'm in the lift .
I was trapped in the lift ! for the first time in my life !
The whole lift broke down . & i was stucked . Regretted taking the lift .
Whole place was super dark . All i could think was a miracle to happen .
Because I had no mobile phone with me .
& nobody seems hear my lift alarm . They could be thinking kids are playing prank again -.-
I sat inside there for a super long 2 hours then a kind Malay auntie notice me , and helped me .
30 mins later i was then saved out breathing fresh air .
Was about to faint . But then I remember I gotta work ..
I then rushed down . Chiong through the rain . Was drenched ....
-______________- LUO TANG JI !
but very very surprisingly ..
My lao wu po manager didn't scold me or throw anything at me .
^^ shi kai xin der lor ~~~

Was about to request for my off days on sat .
Then she automatic came forward to say that she will not let me work on sat anymore .
Then apologized to me .. Said it was just a misunderstanding .
I then just accepted and thank her (:

Isn't this awesome ?! I was super troubled for a whole day about it .
& It was solved so easily ! Thank God uh !



Today business was good .
Raining outside , but still got alot of people that are coming to do shopping .!
No need to catch mosquitoes of cause good lah .
-_________- ''
But alot of people = alot of presents ..
Then if the counter people can't handle , I need to do their job also .
I don't like to be at the counter to wrap presents .
Because they suka suka will anyhow throw pen knives and scissors around one .
Then I'll end up having scars around my skin .




If you're looking at me now ..
You'll see my face like as if you owe me a million dollars .
):




Just the smell of the rain , reminds me of you sheltering me .
I miss you.

谁还记得是谁先说。。 永远的爱我。。

Days have been really tiring .
Really tiring , but can't get to sleep every single night .
Sometimes in the middle of the night , I got nightmare , and i'll stare in blank spaces till the next morning .
I'm too stressed already ? Or is it the surrounding is troubling me .
I really don't know .
I'm thinking alot lately .
Like changing a job . Planning to work at body shop after Christmas .
Better pay and environment there for me lor .
Because my manager recently just twisted her words .

I agreed to work at more than words is basically because she allowed me to take off on every Sat.
But now , she twisted her words and said that she wouldn't employ me is i cant work on Sat.
And want me to avail myself to work on sat for this 2 weeks before x'mas .
I don't wanna miss out for my Church Service and cg .
So I've decided to go fight for my off on Sat .
If she don't agree with my simple easy request . I quit .
I have good working attitude . And I'm like their best worker there lor .
They can't afford to lose me . Therefore ....
nyahahaha.
I hope to work lesser hours now adays .
But recently , My boss like me alot and added me super alot of hours to work .
-_____________-''
sian lah .

tell you all a secret ..
I've got 7 customers that say that I'm cute and friendly.
They even reuested for my msn !!!!!!!!
LOL . all girls lah , and they all often spend $50 and above .
3 of them even praised me to my manager to give me higher pay siah !
happy happy ..
because they wanna meet me out for x'mas , And they don't mind coming to our church !
got new friends already . finally something positive about this job .
can meet cute people !
-.- thats all.





My blog .

She gave me up.
and left .

cherlyn's daily life now ...


- wake up 9 in the morning , drink water , brush teeth , wash face .
- fed and walked kinno .
- then was informed that I'm working 5.30 today in thy evening ..
* so i enjoyed okto channel wearing my $3 whitening mask from watson's on my dry face.
- my body is made of water . drank lotsa water . but my ulcer is super pain lah !
- super bored , cause okto channel was showing barney show . No sponge bob or tom & jerry !
- Wenta watch project runway and Nv ren wo zui da on Youku.com ~
- bathed kinno cause he stink ! ( and he loves rubbing his body on my bed ) So i had to change my bed sheets also ! -_______- ''
- onlined , chatted with my sis . kennah semi scolded with marbles shooting right in the eye all the way form china.
- was guilty about the stupid idea of mine to work on cny and i mian bi si guo-ed .
- got ready , dolled up and vanish to work .. still thinking of what my sis said .
- thought for a whole day . even while serving customers .. still can't put away the $10 per hour pay.
- Work day ended like 12am . Sales was lousy , 2000+ only ~ expected 4000+ . WHAT HAPPEN TO THOSE XMAS SHOPPERS ?!!
- Reached home by cab with La cher @1am . because of the slow closing .
- bathed and walked and fed kinno .
- kinno kept whinning when i chased him outta my room . So i let him in just for tonight .
- Still thinking of my sis' xyzzzxzxzxzxzx . Can't sleep . Now blogging .
- Too bored , playing sushido now . Ulcer still hurting like eff.





I seriously can't be bothered with other stuffs that comes in my way now .
other than church , family , and work .
other stuffs that upsets me , I'll just ignore and move on .
Although feeling hurt . I'll learn like the lil nonya , 忍!!




Oh , While reading through the above .
I found out that i haven't ate anything for a whole day !
How stupid .
& I'm starving now .
feel like eating sweet corns and youtiao !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gonna count the corns tonight before i sleep so that I wont think too much .
It's 3 am now , sweet corns and youtiao is no where to be found .
I'm hitting the sack NOW .



Good night .

THIS PROVIDENCE: My Beautiful Rescue

I LOST MY HANDPHONE !!
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

AT VIVO D:

i miss my bling bling ~

I wanna go for teeth whitening ! ))):

my hp's bill numbers are making me cry.
wanna peng to starhub already lah!
idiotic singtel .
network system so lousy..
every time make me miss out for some calls / smses !!!!!!!!!
plans are all at their benefits .
So I've decided !
humph! ):



I feel really touched..
each time when I see/hear the encouragements from my friends .
those may just be simple words .. simple cards .. simple surprises ..
But it does make a difference , and mean alot to me . (:
It's the sincerity that counts :D

They may not be in the same church with me / a christian.
But still I respect them , & love them lots !
They may be super anti-Christ.
But they still treat me good.
I'm really blessed with good friends around me.
Thank God (:



I may not often display my unhappiness out on my daily faces (:
But that doesn't mean that I'm trying to be fake.
Trying to cover my happy smiley mask over everything I am inside.
It's just that I made a decision to choose to be happy (:
I choose to not listen to any of those criticism about being who I am.
& I choose to not let the dark clouds swallow away my rainbow .

I am who I am . Not who you knew or anything / names you label me as .




This is not aye angry post (:

E369 PHOTOS .. CLICK HERE
:D :D

OLA !
It's been so so so long I've done a proper entry already .
mannnnnnnnnn...
life has been great guys .
So no worries about me kays ?
hahaha , been working (:
finally a job that will not crash with my weekly service and choir practice.
although the work place's people are quite weird .
All filled with les and gays .
Not only in my shop . In other outlets , and my work place .. " phew ? "


I'm now working at M.T.W ...
Alot of people mistaken the shop "More Than Words" and "Minitoons" are the same company .
But they're different leh !
When i knew it for the first time , I was also quite shocked .
hahahaha ,!
So get it clear uh ..!



I'm working quite well .
Because of those old experience i had .
So i can pick up this job quite fast .
Although I can meet those cute soft toys everyday and talk whole day long..
But still there'll still be unhappiness for this job..
I know very well of my purpose of this job .
so I would try my very best to perform well in that circle (:



Anyway , SOME INTROS ~ ( I almost wanted to slap this 2 names of the below . So beware )



I have a weird female manager .
She have a weird name .
( which I think it's not like a name . Cause it's my childhood friend's best friend )
MELODY .
then , I could also change my name to kitty already ?
Lol , super huang miao .
She's a super career women . A lesbian .
And her girlfriend is also working in the same outlet with us ..

So whenever they have conflicts or quarrel ..
I would be the sad one kennah scolding for nothing .
-..- RAWRS !
And my work trainer Rachel is also a les ..
Her girlfriend in another outlet of M.T.W .
like wise .. I will also be the one kennah her scolding for nothing if their relationship goes wrong .





Then Melody's girlfriend worst !
her character is like a super big ICE MOUNTAIN hidden inside a VOLCANO !
most of the time quiet . But will suddenly lose her temper and start throwing sissors around ..
T_T
I almost went botak ..
LOL , just kidding lah .





>.<>
Last time sell shoes , watches , flowers , ice cream , perfume , pen and more also not like this one .
SIANIFIED .
But I guess this kind of environment would be a place where I can train myself to be more equipped for God .
To shine in the market place or wherever I go .
& most importantly , to let them see Jesus in me .
God , i love you . Thanks for taking care of me !
I don't know how my life will be without him through this hard time .
By faith , I rely on God .



My covenant with you oh God ..
will always remain (: