yanyan , imy ): alot alot ....

我很不快乐。 好想念以前的单纯简单的日子。
好想燕燕。。
这几天有好多的埋怨和不想。一直得不明白。
吃不下，也睡不着。眼睛一直没有办法安心的睡觉。
一直的麻痹， 直到天亮。。
就这样失去了一个好朋友。心理知道她会离开了， 不会再回来了。。
心里那么沉重的压力已经好多好多。为什么还要这样的刺激我。。
我的心和世界都似乎暂停了好几天。。
一时的打击，也不想和谁哭诉。 只想一个人，
一时之间在自己的生命里便了好大的改变。。
只记得当时任性的我。。爱， 很，都不想管。
只想做自己。没有为了谁。
不想在安慰谁。 也不想再伪装自己的笑容。好想不要再坚强了。
好多的不想 。
可是当一切都还没停顿时，我的好朋友也在这个时候离开了。
就在一霎那， 我觉得一切都好想错觉。 真实感不见了。
我，也不见了。。。

A song for my love ones . people around me , those who was and are .
i miss yan yan ... sigh ..

Bye Bye - Mariah Carey .

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]



i miss my ahma ):
but somethings need to be let go and end with a nice full stop.
and come to and end (:
i miss my dearest friend , and sister .
yanyan left me and her family just like a blink..
i miss xiaoyan .. yanyan )':
the other day we were still chatting on the phone ..
we were sharing each other's burdens ..
and you asked me to cheer up and booked me to pei you watch mummy, cause you like jet li.
sigh , i really don't understand why she need to chose this way .
i don't understand why she wanna go with that damn guy ..
why didn't she look for me . why she wanna end her life like that .
rmb we agreed and promised each other to be each other's bride's maid , and jiemei.
rmb that i booked you early for this year christmas at church to know God , my savior.
sigh , how can you just leave like that without any reasons .
how do you think i can manage to lose a friend like you in my life .
first sandy , and now you . how can y'all just leave like this . leaving me all alone ..
have i failed to be your good friend . your bff ?
you'll be at a better place , i all my daily prayers i pray.
i miss you .. yanyan )':
i will try to visit you mama and help her along through this difficult time .
R.I.P my friend .



i will keep these tears of mine in my quiet nights and move on along the way .


greatest xoxo. (signing off with the way you like to call me as always ..)
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