1 year plus with God already !
here's the entry for God .. my friends , blah blah and my loved ones who loves me too (:
Cherlyn's life transformation by God .
all these must start with 5 years ago..
when i began very rebellious against my mother and my elder sister.
imma single parent and i didn't get too much of my mom's attention since then.
she's always busy working . and my sister had to take care of my since very young.
and when my sister became a Christian, my mother was very against it.
they quarrel almost everyday . it makes my whole family in chaos that time .
i began to hate christian , and the church my sister attends !
i became a anti-Christ. started listening to anti-Christ rock bands song ..
etc.
had a thinking they're like family spoilers , and also i didn't like my sister going to church..
my relationship with my sister became worst and since then ,
i had no connections with my family anymore.
i became very sad , depressed in the situation i was in ,
and started smoking and drinking with my friends .
and slowly i pick up alcohol , drugs and glue sniffing.
i will make myself very seh everyday so that i will not remember about those sad stuffs.
stay out very late until i see the sun and go home .
and can just throw away my books already.
fighting and quarreling became a daily a routine for me .
wherever i go , i pick up fights and troubles .
simply thinking like I'm strong..
i became a very sad person that just don't feel like living on.
my life is like going to a downpour ..
like I've became a fighter , and girl gang lead in my gang .
became a heavy smoker , drug and sniff glue addict.
i will make myself very seh everyday so that i will not remember about those sad stuffs.
stay out very late until i see the sun and go home .
and can just throw away my books already.
fighting and quarreling became a daily a routine for me .
wherever i go , i pick up fights and troubles .
simply thinking like I'm strong..
i became a very sad person that just don't feel like living on.
my life is like going to a downpour ..
like I've became a fighter , and girl gang lead in my gang .
became a heavy smoker , drug and sniff glue addict.
fadelyn my gang assistant lead.a picture wit some gang members like super long ago ..
my gang became bigger and bigger , until my head gave me another block to lead.i had more troubles and fight to get in.
my head asked me to let out my girl gang to become a prostitute place for those uncle .
i was very against it , and i let all my girls out of the gang .
and i also left .
i also dont know how i get off so easily. hahaha , had some gang head to help me along the way.
a good friend of mine for 3 years , but betrayed me with fedalyn.
they set me up by saying i said false rumors about my gang members when i did not.
and they came and look trouble with me .
20 plus over ppl came..
and i fought one by one with them. until the 7th , i fell and was combed ~ wow.
friends that made me happy then betrayed me .
my boyfriend i have for 1 year plus also left me back then .
i felt so hopeless and lonely.
couldn't understand why i had all these.
had a lot times of attempting suicide but failed.
i then had my friends from another gang to find them back for revenge .we were on our bus with weapons . i had 17 girls following me ..
and on the bus while on the way to the place ,
i heard a voice , i know it's God .
he said, cherlyn , don't go . it's not worth it.
i dont know who is him , or what is he for . to me he's just like a history ah pek.
the calling was so strong ...
i alighted the bus and left . and my friends carry on and hit back on the revenge..
they had a police case and entered into the girls home .
because most of them had probation , yet they still wanted to help me.
now they're out already, but no longer friends .
i was very miserable back then.
my mom spent alot of time to pei me .
and soon , i went over to my sister's place at m'sia.
i was curios about her church and God .
therefore i agreed to go along with her to the church service at CHCKL.
i was touched by God when my sister was praying for me.
but still , i was a very strong Buddhist believer then.
i didn't dare to answer the alter call.
don't even dare t close my eyes to worship.
i had a christian boyfriend in new creation , he brought me there and i didn't felt right of the preaching over there .
and after awhile , he betrayed me. and i decided to leave the church and him.
i then asked my sister to help me find a cgl for me at sg CHC.
i found Shalynne and...
was saved in his arms again.i talked to shalynne for 3 whole hours on the phone .
and she invited me to a prayer meeting with mj at Chinese garden there.
Gods presence was so strong.
mj lay his hands on me , it was so strong that im falling .
human normal reaction was to stand i grab my feet and didn't wanted to fall.
then mj just said fill , and bomb i fell under God's power for the first time.
my whole body was weak . and finally i met God.
i experienced him , and felt him hugging me so tight that i didn't wanna let go.
He gave me such security , that i told God that i'm not going to deny you anymore.
people there had holy laughter . i was so shocked !
but candice and jiji then explained to me what was happening.
and after the prayer meeting , i had deliverance !!
man . touched then cleansed !
God is very real , i surrender my life to him.
i quited smoking and other bad habits within 1 week .
from a 1 day 3 pckts of marlboro red to no more !!!!
drug and glue free.
God totally transformed my life and was planted a new heart and soul.
holy spirit was even stronger in my life to guide me .
A very good friend . Jianwen that pull me through along the way.
i forget how he manage to help me.
but all i know is , he really encouraged me alot of times when i wanted to end down my life.
and all his jokes , lame stuffs . really cheered my up.
blahhh , can't praise him to much . later he haolian then yaya liao.hahahahahs.
i had classmates that pulled me through from depression.
i had to be suspended from class for a whole 1 term 2 weeks.and i couldn't cope with m studies .
God helped my to score well so tat i can be promoted to sec4 .
from a result slip of all red U 1 A to a no U 2As.
ohh , thank God.
met lotsa nice people in my cg.
if they weren't there , i don't know where i'll be..
my shiong sister and mom.
im serving in children's church now .
happily living for God.
having my Nlvls this year.
and , a life testimony of God.
im posting this because ....
it's been a year + with God.
(: hallelujah
