mommy im back from camp already :p
so tired .
camp was very cool.
everyone was so enthu .
pulau ubin was not that scary .
didn't join the night walk .
they wanted to och lor !
hahaha , got mata come ...
it was canceled- ):
my team won :DD
amplified is so much love <3




man , hate my da yi ma.
hate her visiting me during camp or other activities.
damn her.
i flare up during my camp !
i didn't know what was doing ..
i'm so so sad after that .
why didn't i just walk away .
why did i scold him back.
why can't keep my old self back .
i must have made me leader super heart broken and disappointed ..
most of all myself..
i feel so so bad ..
i shouted at people that i love.
it hurts me too.
i really don't mean to.
i really really don't .
i cant use any words to protect or defend myself now .
i really feel so ashamed of myself.
even though i said sorry to him already.
i may look so happy now .
just keeping my tears .
reached home and cried like ..
i really don't know what i'm doing .
i feel my life can fade away anytime now..
i feel myself standing at a very dangerous point in life right now.
i feel myself numb and dead inside.
for a second..i just want to sleep and not remember of a single part of me.

i just want to be kind.
the love you wanted is just so far away.