HOME SWEET HOM-ED !
okays .
a scary and dangerous trip indeed .
duh ~
came home bout 11 ++
and bath-ed .
and online-d
called him .
yes him .
his name came into my mind first .
but he was outside .
browsed through his blog .
and saw something interesting .
found her blog went in .
and saw that .. hahas .
they're now together [:
good news ehs ?
love really needs courage .
my heart broke into pieces when i saw everything .
time really matters .
ive finally decided and yet hes moving backwards .
and everything is just so fcuked up .
i cried a hella bad ytd night .
can you imgine .
you just came back home .
you're so tired .
so lazy to get online already ,yet you went and saw the mushy stuffs him and her had ?
yes . its heart broken enough .
i nearly smashed my my com .
i exit right away and hoped everything was just a illusion .
and no . its not .
yes its true they're together .
i listened to ben .
took the courage to ask him .
it was suchha straight forward question .
and yet he did not even reply a single fur to me .
is he avoiding ?
or what ?
why cant he be honest with me that the bintan girl is acttually her ?
name not to be mentioned .
and called him this afternoon .
he's working .
and i asked him the question .
he hung up my phone !
what the hell ?
its so damn dissapointing .
tell me the fact even if its true right ?
i als wont die infront of you .
you wont drop one of your tooth .
RIGHT ?
it seems like he's just fooling me round and round .
please larr ..
stop treating me like a fool .
so stupid and the dumb is me !
he's a coward indeed .
he's actions speaks louder then words .
im like blind folded .
and the girls who like him are the blind folded ones too !
i still think of wanna step forward and meet him , tell him everything .
but i think its not worth it at all .
he is se selfish !
yes , selfish !
just feel like slapping him and wake him up .
im really sick lerrs .
so damn heart broken ..
ben is right .
everything is just like an accident .
can somebody just give me the medicine to mend my broken heart ?
guys from today onwards .
i wanna make this very clear .
im not anyone of you 's toy !
im nobody's .
i really thought ..
i really ..
i wanna add this .
i hate him to the core !