Been listening to....




Run Away - David Tao .

Nod your heads while listening yo ! haahahahah !

In love with another song by coco lee .
kinda nice music piece . loves the lyrics , and love coco's voice !
loves it ..!

[ 美丽的主题曲]....

我看著鏡子里面的自己
不知道為什么我會失去你
閉上了眼睛回味這段愛情
學習忘記
能不哭泣
我想不想一個人旅行
耳機里聽著自得其樂歌曲
遇見陌生人
我也不會有所懷疑
生命沒有你
明天仍為自己繼續美麗
世界只有個你
誰也不能代替
如何把傷心權利
換成快樂的能力
什么才是愛情
如何揮別過去
若有人再說愛我
我還有沒有勇氣靠近
我愿不愿意相信我自己
有一首原創美麗主題曲
不需要別人
也能在你生命流行
早晚有一天
還會遇到粉絲遇到知音
世界只有個你
誰也不能代替
如何把傷心權利
換成快樂的能力
什么才是愛情
如何揮別過去
若有人再說愛我
要选择微笑还是离去
世界只有個你
誰也不能代替
如何把傷心權利
換成快樂的能力
什么才是愛情
如何揮別過去
若有人再說愛我
我看著鏡子里的自己


This song may is kinda emo , loner type .
but some how it sings out honestly from the heart ..
it's just so close to some one's feeling .
* I admit I missed the someone in this song .. but , it's over already..
And I've learned to move on . Because I know , what's best for me ..
Which is where I am here today .

I think I hate myself sometimes ..
Locking up myself in the dark ..
Crying for the small things ..
Feeling weak for nothing . like a useless whinning child ..
Being stressed for the least thing , and blame it all by myself .
I know it's silly to keep putting myself back to the past and 依依不舍..
I clearly know what's the problem with me , and yet I keep doing it .
I hate it !
Don't ask me why am I like that .. Because I don't know too .

It's weird you see ..
Call me weird , Stuborn , Stupid , Dumb or 太依赖人了..
wait .. Being to relying on somebody is not very good ..
but .. isn't this how the way we live ? which is rely on someone's shouders when we need them ?
but why does this rely slowly builds up like an addiction , an need and something you can't live without .
And why does love , brings hatred or dislike at the end of everything.

I didn't like people who are not independent ..
But now ... I ask myself , was I even independent before ?
I crapped ?
Tell me who was ..?

A Loner ? A beggar ? Aliens ?They all also need love ..
Maybe , their heart is already dead bah ?


I like this part ..


若有人再說愛我
要选择微笑还是离去

To me this song concludes ..

The main person to love is , should be yourself first .

yeap . I think ..

Love and Live , just lack another letter . it's an I there ..

If you can't even love yourself enough , how would you be able to love others ?

How can you love someone , when you can't even treasure your life enough ?

okay okay ..

Too Emo like that for a whole post .

later people say I fake lah , lead 2 lives ..

Outside cheerful happy , At home emo elmo . don't know who is who ah !

Split personality ?! wahahahah ....

Hmmmm ,

There are some things that I feel I should not post it here .

so friends if interested to know can just ask me , if lucky , i might tell you !

LOL ..

Hearing my sister's sharing of a BFF is so fun .

I wanna make lil prayer to God for a good BFF too ..

ofcause huihui , you're still my best friend kay ! hahaha .

I want a BFF in church with me too.

hahaha .

A spritual good friend . Encourage each other in hard times ..

etc etc ...

so cool eh .

Not forgeting my bbff . kuah kb .boon boon boon !

important friend leh he .. tsk tsk .. best in sg and jb and some say batam ah .

LOLS !

Roahhhhhhhhhs .

I'm so messed up right now .

2 tim 1:7

Amen !

Okay okay , needa go now now now .

Xoxo ,

Cher

Love kinno ! A picture of my nono for you guys :D

hahahahahaha ! kinno siam .

psa 77:19

1 sam 16 :7 .

These cheered me up and encouraged me ..

Rahhh .

Gombedhetto !

Congrats Gerald and Eunice for the graduating from SOT yo .

Nothing much for update , but lotsa complaints only ..

sian ..

will do a ranting post soon .

hahahaha .

for now ...

I really don't know what to say ..

Chiaos !

I JUST DON'T LIKE IT .
NOT ONLY DISLIKE .
I HATE IT .



Ridiculous .





Would you understand .
Will you respect me for Christ's sake ?



Sometimes , I would rather just close one eye .
Don't care whatever is happening .
Act as if I'm in a dream and wake up in a whole new house knowing everything thing that happen was just a bad bad dream .

You are the owner of the house . The leader of the family .
Your decision is crucial .




But please , have some thoughts for others before everything you do .


I can understand your lousy attitude . that you actually don't care how people feel .
because you only thought of yourself as the bigger picture .


But have you ever thought ..
This will actually hurt my feelings ..?


............


Enough said .
I'm always in the wrong .

The Back Crew Hero .

Sometimes .. I feel like a lil worm .. like this ..
I'm kinda inspired by the picture above . Are you ?



Today , I went for job hunting with huihui :D .
hui hui is awesome ,
she cheered me up several times when she see me got rejected or she can sense that I feel discouraged ..
I've never had a good feeling about finding a job or having a job all along . hopeless .
Upon the stress I had from my mommy etc .. I was totally upset regardless I'm at home , or outside in the city .
I feel totally small , and useless ..
And ...


Huihui's a cheering machine . She almost filled me up with confidence over and over again .
I feel so secure when I'm with her . She's like a lucky star . A good friend :D

Loves her ! ♥ ♥ ♥



Finally gotta feeling to blog how I really feel.
I really feel very very glad .

God never fail to put wonderful people in my life .


God is good all the time . All the time , God is good .



During today's Cgm ..
Although it felt a lil rushy , messy .. The presence of God is still good .
In fact , God spoke to me during worship .

God totally appeared to me like a papa .
Showing me lotsa scenes about this wonderful servant of God .
A lady with full of dreams and vision ..
Showing her love and service around the people around her .
Staying positive , full of faith and on fire for God..
Encouraging the the weaker ones .

It then turned into a point that , she was trying really hard to put the smile on her face wherever she go .
She picked up a phone call . she broke down and cry . because she had to give up a big lot .
I don't know what it is .
Then a crowd came over , not on her side . She stood strong and continue to where she know she's gonna be .
Criticism came ..
But she continue to smile and said Amen .


God then show me ,
when she was alone in her secret place praying and seeking God alone .

Enjoying her quiet time .

and I'm shocked when the lady turned around .
God show me her face .
Her face was full with tears and compassion worshipping God ..
It turned out so familiar , that I took a zoom look again ..

And it was none other than .. my sister .



I was so shocked . stunned , and really speechless .

You guys must continue reading .


Because , all along I've been thinking that ..
I've always been the only one giving up things .
I've always been the only one losing out , to sacrifice .
The only one to feel lonely .

I'm so selfish .. to think that I'm the one that really suffered alot .
That actually , She went through much more !
How can I have the thinking that she'll be always strong .
How can I have the thinking that she also have her hard times outside alone ?
How can I have the thinking that the smile on her face actually fades ?

How could I ??

How could I not appreciate this sister that have looking after me , keeping me in her prayers ?
How much more could I expect from God .
without her , everything could be different .
I wouldn't have experience the realness of God so close ever before the first time !

All this mindsets hit me so hard in my heart and mind .


I couldn't stop speaking in tongues . I just want God to give her whatever she can't receive .


God then tied a peace purple ribbon over her neck .
And told her that she is free .




I felt so touched . And totally understand what God was trying to tell me .
I feel really really amazed by God .



I don't know where I had this courage from to post this entry .
I don't know how my sis will feel after reading this .
after all she reads my blog .


I'm really not speaky mushy kind of person .
I don't know how to show my appreciation some times .
That's why , some times I prefer to not say anything in case everything leads to a quarrel .

Our fellowship sometimes could be a total silence for a whole hour .

I feel bad about it .



And I wanna say a BIG Thank you to my beloved sister .
I wanna take back all the times when I made her utterly super upset .
& I want her to know , from the bottom of my heart that ..
Daddy God loves her , and I love her too .


Like the others ,
Jie , I'm so so so proud of you !


Jiayou !


ps // Thanks for borrowing me your ez-link card to go for cgm today .
you've done a big big help :D

Xoxo ,
♥ Cher .

I'm blind in the dark .....

It's all about Cherlyn .


1 . I love Pink. and I hate Orange .
2 . I don't wear beige color bras .
3 . I love cutting my hair sometimes .
4 . I wash my hair twice everytime .
5 . I have serious 洁癖.
6 . I love Gerald butler .
7 . Imma Christian .
8 . I used to be "小燕子"in my group of girlfriends back in primary school .
9 . I'm made of water . I prefer to gulp then drinking sip by sip .
10 . I hate mee rebus .
11 . I love using a straw to drink chilled drinks .
12 . I love Ribena .
13 . I adore people with Great Confidence .
14 . I like wise man .
15 . I can cook . ( not better than my sis or my mom )
16 . I write better with black ink pens .
17 . I cry alot . and I can cry on command .
18 . I don't like people that lie to accomplish somethings .
19 . I can learn languages super fast .
20 . I love to dance secretly in my room .
21 . I enjoy Praise and Worship in my room .
22 . Bathing is my way to cool myself down .
23 . I forget things that I don't want to remember easily .
24 . I don't like to walk behind people who're smoking .
25 . I hate rude people in the public that speaks loudly .
26 . I love cam-whoring with my friends .
27 . I'm not a very stick on person , but I call up jianwen every night to chat .
28 . I love everyone around me even though I don't really like some of them .
29 . I'm very straight forward . I don't 拍马屁 .
30 . I like sincere people . with no motives .
31 . I don't like the feeling of being sick .
32 . I love Veggies .
33 . Imma drama queen .
34 . I believe everybody can sing .
35 . I have stage fright . It's a miracle whenever I sing on stage for choir .
36 . I'm afraid of heights .
37 . I am tall .
38 . I've zero knowledge in wheels . oh , only scooters .
39 . I'm lousy in racket games .
40 . I like to give kinno a big shock and laugh at his reaction .
41 . I don't like noisy shoes and places .
42 . I love coffee .
43 . I can't eat sea food .
44 . I don't like waiting .
45 . I feel happy when I receive good news from my friends .
46 . I like good quality stuffs .
47 . I only carry leather bags .
48 . I'm well taken care of by my strong mimi . although imma single parent .
49 . I think I'm the luckiest girl in the whole wide world .
50 . Some times I cry in bed when I miss my grandma and hsiao yan .
51 . My Blanket in the most precious one that I can't live without .
52 . I pretend I'm on the phone when I met people I don't like .
53 . I hate being stalked by strangers .
54 . I don't like the feeling of people not trusting you .
55 . I hate explaining .
56 . My favorite number is 9 .
57 . I love nail arts .
58 . I've met someone that look really like me here on earth ! *Twinnie*
59 . I feel really really honored to have shalynne as my CGL . She taught me how to love .
60 . I Love Jesus . He's my first priority .




Lol ...
did you guys really read it through ?
Im just a lil bored to post about this I guess..



well ...

Blogger is sucky now adays ..
I can't seem to upload any pictures still ..
Rawrrrs .

Anyways .......





Happy 20th Birthday City Harvest .

The 20th annivesary was way to awesome !
hahaha .. here's the whole day ..

11pm : met twinnie at city hall and went over to her place to stay overnight .
12 + : reached ..Bathed and ate twinnie's hand cooked maggie mee .♥
1am : we caught aye horror movie showing at chnl 8 ( was showing about christianity too ! ) twinnie was so scared !
3am : we're still awake , listening to twinnie's life story sharing :D
-all the way till 5.30 am- : We pack up and get changed for choir .
6am : met choir peeps for shuttle bus to go S.I.S . ( the bus was so comfy .. I fell asleep )
630am + : Reached . and started choinging for choir .
- Served 2 services - Enjoy!

I was totally having a hard time looking for my cg during the svc .
Because I have night blindness .
Was praying hard till I find them .
My night blindness actually got worst .. sigh ..
Everytime when I'm alone in the dark .. And I can't see .. I'm so so so afraid ..
:'(



luckily Gerald came to my rescue ..! If not I really wouldn't know what to do ..
Thanks bro .. :)


The presence of God was very strong throughout the service .
I fell under the power of God when Pst alex prayed for the church .
Was touched .
I found back my first love with God .
And felt so save in his arms again .
it's so papa love .
That experience .. is irreplaceable .



I didn't get the miracle building block , cause I was serving .
Got 2 umbrellas . 1 purple for my sis . and 1 pink for myself .
But I left it on Gloria's car ... hahahaha .
Oh , The first time on her car is so funnnnnnnnnnnn !

Although we're lost , but it's enjoyable man .
lol , my sister helped us to find our way back to the right track home .
how lovely !


Home sweet home after a long day .
Had a good rest .


Ate botak jones with sis .

and ......

I receive a prank call today .
My sister settled it for me .
hahahahaha . sis pretend to be miss lim and my mom!
hilarious to sis' face that way ..



LOL ..
I'm still wondering .. who could it be ..
it's just so strange .
Well , I shall just ignore this matter and go to sleep now !
it's 315 am already .



Chiaos !



Xoxo ,
Cher!

I don't know why . some how my blogger is having lotsa of problems now .
I can't seem to upload pictures here . or edit fonts and structure .
Weird . My comp is really having a problem . Omg , Is it sick too ?
Woah , Human virus ..Computer virus ..Geeez . Virus are everywhere ~


I got so so so many things I wanna update about .


Good ness ..

Can't wait to say bye bye to July .











Lying on my couch , cuddling with kinno .. listening to pouring rain outside ~~




Anddddd .. chewing this



Awsome-ness !
This no ordinary chocolate .
this is ..
chocolate with popping candy inside !!!
too cool or what lah !

Sis kept it in the fridge . I ate it :D
Hoho . bet she got more than enough . hehehe ..



Excited for august .
Where my job will start around soon..
what about you guys ?
Excited ?


Have a nice day :D

-with loves ,
Xoxo
Cher♥