Love's like a merry-go-round .

It looks fun , grand and romantic on the outside .

You feel lucky when you just got in it .

Happy when you feel like flying .

It's so fast , that the moment it stops , you feel dizzy and lost .

And you ask yourself , where to move on ..

- cher .

Less is MORE ... ?

Happy to know that I've been blogging for passing 500 posts of entries already .
wow , how long have I been blogging ?
hmmm, not as long as XX or DY . But confirm longer than Lao Zha Bor .

muahaha .



I think , today I won't be blogging about how long I've blog .
But , how long I've been staying in this house blogging my everyday life in this blog .





hahaha . I'm talking a lil strange here ..

Alright , My house now has been officialy sold .
My mom is kinda happy and excited of moving into a new place ..
I don't know .
But , that idea haven't been a good idea that I agreed or like .
I just had to move along , even when I hate it .

To be honest , I hate it .
I'm kinda upset over this episode of my life .
Especially , my mom's idea of selling away the house .


But, as time goes by ..
I've learned to not have anymore expectation from my mom .
Also , to really push myself and expand my heart to learn to understand people more .

When more and more people came to see the house .
Listening to them talking about prices of the house ,
My heart aches .
I don't know why this house meant so much .
To me the house is way beyond those prices , it's priceless .
It's precious .
Every corner of this house is filled with lots of memories .
I'm so gonna miss this place ..
I don't wanna leave .
don't wanna leave .


Today , a guy came on knocking on the door to see the house .
He saw , and he like the house .



They just finish signing contracts .
I was in my mom's room patting kinno , hopping the contact would fail .
Sad .. I then looked at kinno .
Somehow , I think kinno also knew what was happening .
He looked sad ..
He stayed quietly with me .




I don't like changes .
But I have to accept changes .
Through this , I know .. I have to learn alot of things .

To be more flexible .
To be more a more bold person .
To be more understanding , especially for our love ones .


Well , it's so easy to say .
hmmm , all I could say is .




I think I'd gained knowledge from this episode .




加油!



Xoxo ,
Cher .

When I say I am afraid . I mean it .

Can't you take my words seriously ?

Am I really a joke to you ?

Or do you really find things funny .

Is it really that funny ?

Damn Bugs . DIE DIE DIE .

Stop seeking for attention today !

不准哭...我不要装可怜无辜...................











But why can't people get it straight into their brains ?


Okay , let me go straight to the point .




I used to have this problem .

And people around me also have this same old problem some even worst .


which is .. Self sympathy .














Too much of it . cause serious problem .


when we're young , when we fall down , our parents will come ..


" are you okay ? are you hurt ? " and we'll go whining and crying .





Same problem when we're older .


When we're older , we meet failures or rejections in life ..


We go whining , crying and worst still come up with ..


" sigh , I'm so poor thing .. Why is my life so sucky and lousy .. "


they go out seeking for care , concern and attention ..


Make up stories , to show people how sad and poor state they're now going through .


but not finding a way to get out of the problem .








It's silly !


When after listening to all the encouragements and going back to the same old cycle !


Keep making the same mistake then give excuses to escape from things .





For me .. I whine ALOT .


But I know my limits and I know who can help me .


So when I'm in trouble , I'll look for shalynne my cgl or my family members .





I've met people before that's very weird .


When they're sad ,


they call up different people to tell them how sad they are .


telling one after another .


But still , standing at the same old ground .





Once , he accidentally cut his hand by some knives or whatever ..


And he went around telling people he's bleeding and doing nothing to it !!


Good griefs .








Another one , worst ..


Too bored already .


Come up with nice stories to bluff people around her to get attention .


saying that she got raped etc .














It's too silly of us human beings behaving like that isn't it ?

















hahaha..


sounding very judgemental .


But , sad to say .. Some people are too silly to fill themselves with self sympathy .


And cherlyn says , you guys gotta wake up !








Why go make yourself so sad and down when you can be happier ?


Why go attract attention by bluffing people when you already know that people around you do care about you ?


Why go and make yourself so sick and want people to take care of you ?


Why why why ?


人活的好好的，为什么去不博取同情.





You guys must be thinking ..


Most girls fall in this area .


I'm telling you . You are wrong .





I've seen more guys doing more silly things to get attention .





Emo one side for nothing while people are happily enjoying in an outing .


then refused to tell the people what happen ..


Spoiling the mood by telling people he's very upset .


just upset .. or just thinking about stuffs .





It's not wrong !


you aren't wrong when you wanna go think about your stuffs .


But spoiling the atmosphere is your fault .


Since we're out and happy , why go think about those sad stuffs ?


Go sing K also sit one side emo .. still got feel to carry on singing mehhhh ?





Duh!











But , please get it clear .


I'm not trying to say when you're sad or you meet trouble you can't tell people .


Be wise !


Don't say you're okay , you're fine and alright when you're not at all !


Tell the right person , that you think they can help you or encourage you .


After listening , Get that advise straight ...


Don't go and find more people and complain with . it won't help ,


At all !














Self sympathy .. if you don't kick away that habit ..


you're gonna affect people around you .











Some people seek alot for friends attention and forgotten that your friends actually also need space .


When they have their work in their hands , they never contact you ..


You , becoming very desperate and you lose your faith for you poor friend .


go on whining about your friend ain't a good friend .





goes down to yourself , ending up with no more confident with yourself anymore .








Then go on , you get easily jealous .


Because of you don't have somethings like ..can be possessions or treatment .


You go on and feel like it's unfair ..


you're being neglected , people forget you ..


etc etc .














NO !


cherlyn says ..


Life ain't like that .


You don't really need all this to go around your world my dear .


Open up open up some happiness !





If you yourself can't love yourself enough . it will never work .


Learn to open up . Trust the one you love .


Think about the people around you . They love you !





C'mon , Jesus loves you too !


such a awesome person to love you ! what more can you ask for ??




















If you're sick today .


Ask yourself if you're happy .








Sometimes , you're not sick .


it's just that you're feeding yourself with the wrong medicine .








Laughter is the best cure (:









If you have the courage to attempt suicide .
Why not use the same courage you have to carry on the road you're stepping on ?







Xoxo ,


Cher .

Take Care & Farewell ！

A Song from khalil for all my love ones .
( opps , and all that are reading this blog :D )
With lotsa XOXOs ♥♥♥

A lil bit of Spells & Magic .

Blogger suck for a big time now adays .
Made my entries layout so ugly . like a big whole chunk of don't know what .


Souvenir for today .
Aye mos burger -corn soup toy -hp chain !
It's from the coin twisting thingy at J8 .
This was exactly what I wanted !
How lucky eh .
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..
Well it only happen once a day . -sis .


Xoxo ,
Cher.

#1 God .

Sis got this for me :D



It's glossy PINK ! Loves it !!!!!!!!

My sis got me the theme of the 1994 picture Gallery .
I want the year 92 one ... awww , guess it's outta sale at mac already .



Well ...Take a look inside !

Hellokitty...

She cheers me up . love her .

KKB tried to test me about hellokitty ..

and .. to my surprise , it actually do know alot about her !

hahaha !

Example ..

Do you know the actual height of hellokitty is the hight of 3 apples high ?

She's tiny isn't she ?

Heees . kinda proud of myself already talking about hellokitty .

Lol . okay enough of kitty .

sorry for the intro , made me sound like aye lil girl .

well , Imma innocent child in heart . what to do .

*giggles*

FINE .

Back to my dairy .

I know , I know ,

it's been quite some time since I blog about my thoughts and giving this blog aye update .

My bad , my bad for neglecting it .

But hey , here it is okay .

Cut the crap .

I feel kinda stupid and sorry about the previous post .

it's so emo lah , to say the truth . I don't like it too .

so negative right ? super not like me lah ...

hahahaha , whatever .

That's why you see , I don't need any people to comment about my blog aka dairy .

If not , i'll be so "gao wei" - uncomfortable in hokkien while posting .

Right ?

Ehem , I wonder if people are reading this . they'll be thinking when I'm going to start .

But they'll never know I've already started writting about my dairy .

Hmmmm , I do have more thoughts to fill in here .

Somehow my brain now is still working on while I'm typing here .

Imma genius .

Okay , you see ..

I'm really amazed by God doing in everyone's life .

I don't know what He've did in yours , But I know , it's surely good :)

While Gloria Goh was sharing her testimony yesterday during cgm .

About how she counted all the blessings that God blessed her with .

It's so true .

I asked myself , have I done it before .

No . In fact , I've forgotten about the blessings i had experienced before .

maybe some of them , but it's like to me it's no longer that exciting anymore ..

Isn't it sad ?

and when I got home , I had a chat with my sis .

We're talking about some drugs issues first , and then some gangsterism stuffs.

I started talking and talking and it slowly became aye form of story testimony thingy .

No why , when my sister throw to me a question asking me ..

What was the main reason you went to play drugs and put yourself there outside .

It's so stupid and childish . Didn't mommy always thought you not to?

Then I replied , Out of fun . Naughty , didn't thought of anything . just liked the "Seh" feel .

And then she asked ..

didn't you know , taking drugs will cause and lead you slowly to death ?

OR worst , sudden death .

hmmm , I thought for awhile and laugh ..

Eh , I didn't know leh .

Funny isn't it .

At the back of my mind was .

Oh goodness , God really did picked me up from the death valley man .

PTL .

Then slowly , my sis started to question me about some other stupid things I've done .

I could sense her curiosity . not because she's stupid .

It's just simply because , she really don't see and don't understand why I'm doing all these things ..

That's like .. no benifit at all ?!

I didn't want to say everything to her .

Eh , c'mon , I don't know about you . But for me , I've never been so opened up with my family members before .

I feel embarassed . I thought I don't like to bring up the past , it's sinful and it'll make me CRY !

And hey , how much courage do you think you could use up to say it ?

You could've the courage to say it . But it's people mind to accept it .

I warned her thrice to tell her not to change her impression of mine after listening .

and she smile and nodded her head .

I started to speak . and said every single thing to her .

Like accounting to shalynne like that . like a leader .

And she listen , can sense she still didn't understand me .

hahahahaahaha .

Ehhhh.. I think I did not cry while saying .

and then to speak of the past , it goes on to big rewind back to the first time I got saved .

When I got in to my bed , it was like ..

Man ... I've came a very long way .. didn't I ?

Theres so many times , I didn't understand so many things .

But I've got through it .

So if , in the past of did it . I'm sure this lil trouble I'm facing now wouldn't be so big .

Because , God wouldn't give you something you can't handle with ! Amen ?

I started to pray ..

I began to slowly realised that .

Whether imma christian anot , God loves me .

It made me thought of how people love each other .

Some people try to keep a person their side , control them to not them stray away .

Some people get jealous easily . fight for their rights not thinking about anything .

God gave me a high bird eye's view of the whole picture .

I really couldn't express how much gratitude .

Because , firstly . I've not very lucky . I've never experienced much of a Father's love .

My mimi plays 2 charactor in my life . as a papa and mama .

I then felt the heartache of God , stretching his hand reaching out to me .

Wounds all over , dry and helpless . and he kept me safe .

Although until now , sometimes I couldn't accept myself for who I am .

I doubt myself . But Daddy God said , I've forgotten the past you didn't like .

Because , I don't like what you don't like too .

It came with such warmth , that he said dearly to me .

My dear daughter , Trust me . when you can't see my working hands . Trust my heart .

Believe in me , pull up yourself for you will stand strong for me again .

Though you keep falling . But my dear , you never fail to impress me .

wow .................

Though it was rainning like the entire zoo , with thunder and lightning .

I had a wonderful peaceful sleep .

Awesome !

The First thing that I'd learned in church was to put God first .

I take it as a Strong basic foundation in my spiritual life .

What about you ?

Bye , Earthlings .

Xoxo ,

Cher .