CHER'S -x 我做不到 (:

2012-01-12T09:21:00.000-08:00

Sickness please fcuk of you fcuking fcuk . Zzzzzzzz!!!

2011-08-09T07:53:00.000-07:00

There was an instance when I thought I have gone through enough to be courageous, but clearly it is not so. I am forevermore so doubtful and prudent of my next steps, never bold enough to venture, never taking risks; always afraid of falling. Perhaps my mind has grown accustomed, cognizant, that no one is going to be there if I do fall, and I have not so much strength in me for failed attempts, for “if at first you don’t succeed, try again”

I don't wanna engulf myself in any remorse .
I've got into too much melancholy .
Now , I must not disappoint .

Today , I have the say .
-Cherlyn ,.

2011-07-01T08:38:00.000-07:00

I start to think of you .

and .. love is sucha crazy thang .

everything is so clear and blue when you're not around .?

LOL...

2011-05-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

我明白..
太放不开你的爱,
太熟悉你的关怀..
分不开 ,想你算是安慰还是悲哀?

Just shut up !!

2011-04-18T09:00:00.000-07:00

Don't say things are easy .
Don't ever Promise things that are lost will come back .
For you had already used Me for your own dreams and goal .

When it's all unfair in the first place .

Very much like that . Enough ?

2011-02-27T21:37:00.000-08:00

Ah boon sticker ! LOLS !

Magazine Browsing , (:

My pictures have over flooded the words i have to say .,
okay , .
I love my off days .
Bathing kinno nao .

Chaos!

2011-02-12T09:59:00.000-08:00

I don't get it seriously with some girls now adays ,. Mather bytch that always try to you know ..
Ask their boyfriend get em LV bags and stuffs ..
And some guys are like : yeah I will get one of those for you on your birthday just not so soon ...
Know what if I'm the b.friend I'll be like ; how about No ??
But Fccvvk ! Guys are always tryin to give. But not all can afford !
And when it's their birthday the girls go whInning to them like hey dear, where's my LV ?
B.f ketps quiet cus hes speechless he's penniless !
G.f goes like : walau you cheat on me , jennifer's b.f got her a second LV already and I don't have Any ?!!
Guys get paranoid , beat the debate !
Lola this happen r.l to me seeing a couple fight over things like that and dOnt talk for months...,,,,!

And the Mather bytch just took her bonus lor , I'm like ,,..
You want the bag so urgent for what?? So urgent go buy your own lahh ?
They go on complaining it's different. .,,

Tsk !

N-am saying ?
I just bought a lip balm from chanel and they kept on questioning me whether it was from some guy or what ..
C'mon , buying a branded lip balm is a very normal thing ..
Not like all girls can't afford , then must let guys do all the shitass spending for them ..,
Damn , all their annoying shit face !!

Feels sorry for the guys .,,, lol

Bye !

2011-02-02T17:17:00.000-08:00

Fucked up ,, I feel so being used by all the ppl around me! All just insincere fake smiles with all kinds of mOtive ...

Rahhhhhhh!

2011-01-31T08:45:00.000-08:00

The rain reminds me of you running across the road to come and fetch me with an umbrella knowing that I would fall sick if I get into the rain ... Sighs .... I miss you ...

HE'S MINE

2011-01-18T07:16:00.000-08:00

AIN'T HE CUTE !!! HE'S SUPER DUPER HANDSOME !

You're gonna be mine soon !!

XOXO,
Cher ;;

Recovered!

2011-01-15T06:48:00.000-08:00

Have been sick for a whole 2 weeks .
and finally !! I'm healed !!
Lols , 2 weeks are seriously too long for me ..
Even though i fall sick often , but 2 weeks were ... omg ..
Scary . and all shitty . hate falling sick . and all the unwanted attention .

I'm so happyyyyyyyyyyyyy , that i'm no longer having the fever feeling .
hahs . and I'm dengue free (((:

ICE ICE ICE !
RIBENA , Ice lemon tea , ice cream , all the blends .. here i come !!
MUAHAHAHA . who can stop me now ? ???
huh .? who ?
BLEAHHH!!!

CHAOS!

Sweet embrace where are you?

2010-12-28T06:53:00.001-08:00

I'm writing with a very heavy heart .
Sis and I met a very tragic thing . None of us have expected this ,.
We were walking normally to get a cab after our lunch ,
And saw these 5 trees that were cursed . I was so scared , I told Sis don't go too near them..
My instinct kept telling me smethings is wrong, and my spirit doesn't feel right at all .
I begin to pray out loud and Karyn kept questioning what was that cursed tree about ..
Who knew suddenly..,
Sis got robbed by force and she flew outta the path.
A black motorcycle pulled away her sling bag by force they are Malay , nabei,
They rode their bike so fast that my Sis flew and fell on to the ground.
She knocked onto the ground and was bleeding badly!!!!
My heart pumped into silence. I ran to her and try to grab her up and found her bleeding all on the ground
I stood up and oie at them they look back but speed up and turned left .
Cb, their smoke smoke up the car plate . Pui!!!!!
Pcb, my sis lost all her valuables and mind . She gone stunned but remained calm,
I hold myself cool and stopped a car Malay somemore , pcb he just ask me to call for help to a cab driver..? And drove off,
Nabei, no wonder Malay are all going hell!!!!

We got into the cab and he speed us to a nearest medical hospital.
And one bkldl car try to cut our cab LANE!!!!!
But heng he dint dare to .
We contacted enren and we reached the hospital , according to Karyn the uncle dint charge us cab fares.
Sis got into the emergency room very fast as I kept on chasing them to speed things up..,
Karyn broke down and lost her emotions .
Sis head were all blood . All bloody her hair were all stocked altogether .
They clean her up and check her injuries,.
Not Only the head was injured , her Arm and leg got lotsa scratches too !
The crack on her heAd was around 1,5 cm and 2 cm deep.
My heart kept aching . But my sis is so brave that after the whole event , she dint drop one single drop if tears.
Me instead losing my patience cos the nurses and doctors are way TOO slow!!!!!

Enren reached together with Karyn family.
I felt more secure when I saw enren.

Sis did 5 stitches . 5 stitches!!!!<\3

Cut things compact now ,
We reported at the police station and present ourselves at the country inspector station.
They took photos for evidence,.
So on and so forth then we go to eat bak koot teh..
I was so touched, they rmbed !!!

Ending of we prayed a lil prayer when we were back in hotel .

And my lil prayer was :
If these were all just dreams that I often dreAmed....
I wanna wake up from this nightmare asap .
Amen,

Empty heart now,
Cher;;

2010-12-27T07:57:00.000-08:00

In sunway now ,. Cold and happy .
Lol , watching tv under aye warm blanket about prison breakers...
HAaas , today I ate super yum jap food and had crazy shopping at bodyshop .
I didn't knew or expect that it's possible for us to walk back to our hotel.
But well, we walked and we made it. I can assure you , it was super scary for a night blind like me!
Jesus Christ ! I simply just walked closely with her infront and I kept walking outta line ...

It's like wow , you know . Tired but fun tho ,.... HA!

And my sis just now slipped and nearly fell down .,,!!!!
Wahahha! I laugh Like mad!!!!!!

I hope she will do as her promise for tmr :
Hellokitty!#•
and buckoot,teh !!

Xoxo ,
Cher;;

2010-12-26T09:01:00.000-08:00

Taking Off tomorrow .

Bless me yo.

Xoxo,

Cherlyn,.

New mascara .

2010-12-21T08:26:00.000-08:00

病了。。。。。。

2010-11-30T07:29:00.000-08:00

fever , flu , cough , sore throat and severe headaches ...

:( :( :(

Sick cat now .
Good night .
; Cherlyn,.

2010-11-26T01:14:00.000-08:00

Tao Li.

I think she is our glory glory .
Everyone should be proud of her !

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At this time , this chapter of of my life ..
I am confused ; very confused .
Even though i have no regrets in my world .
As it is . As I am sucha moving on person .

It confuse me even more , the purpose .
The purpose I see in every individual is at most a hard rock . like a mega gangster rock star !
What about mine ? Honestly right now , i have none . Ofcause I have a purpose to live for .

How many actually . How many actually live their life like Bruce Lee .?

Look , all the Lilees are here .

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25.11
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY .,Huimin.
Today , i only remembered all our happy memories .
and i laughed at myself .
Imissyou !

Cher,.

2010-11-22T06:22:00.000-08:00

181818 后续.....

2010-11-16T06:51:00.000-08:00

I oughta feel so sorry for my diary .

how can i miss out writting about my big day ?

My birthday on OCT 9 ~~~

lols , first of all , i must say i really enjoyed my day :D

I celebrated my birthday at arena .

Crazy party night with kacey , allen , gresent and wilson .

I met 2 other birthday girls . And they made me dance drop dead .

And I actually got drunk by this particular drink from a table with full of blackies .

OMG . literally ? & lotsa funny things happen after that not to mention ..

K.c with the others can't stop video-ing me my ugly moments . LOL

they were mad hillarious .I even said my old address on the way home ???

According to k.c .. Lol ..

They actually asked for my keys .. and my reply was : 妖怪...(refers to my beloved domokun pouch )

-.-'' they searched my whole bag and found it . and say YAH ,, REALLY YAO GUAI !!

I must've beeen really irritating . oh , and..

>.<>

The vids are totally amazing . cos , the laughter i produced was something i can't laugh out now . in anytime ..

-_____________-"

My celebration with my family "grew"a lill bit different from the usuals .

And it's my first time to celebrate it with my the other relatives ..

My birthday celebration with my family was always cozy . with only my mommy,and sis .

But this year , i wouldn't say weird . but surprising-ly , my 3rd uncle asked my mom to invite me for a birthday dinner with his family and my second aunt that also stays in hougang ?

Honestly , I feel totally awkward at first , because you know he's actually one of the most feirce uncle out of 5 that i have under my mom's family tree catogory .

The reason he'd asked us out might be because he wanted to celebrate my sis' birthday too that actually falls on the same month with me just earlier by a few days?

IDK . but i really do appreciate that . Thanks三舅~!

I received gifts ofcos this year

the above picture are not specially featured okay .

I you guys must be thinking they're both hellokitty thats why i only post this .

But this is the only picture that i manage to capture before my heavy work arrive .

the keyboard from hui ! which im typing them now ~

And the kitty with teddy , my all time love from lingli ~ .

I also receive quite a few cool gifts this year i must say ,.

My mom bought me a pandant . a ruby like one . and she hid it from me .(i thought)

to make me find .!! I searched the whole room and found no clue .

Then find out that my mom didn't hide it away for me to find .

just that the week end maid misplaced it ..

hmmmmm..another mad love.

I shall assume tommy hilfiger's dreaming from my sis was a birthday gift as well . Ehem ..

Cg gave me aye surprise celebration after cg .

I went to the toilet super urgently right after cg , cos my bladder were bursting .

and when i came out , sha were announcing things . and half way through she bamp out the birthday song ! Super heart melting moment with a small lil cake with a warm hearting candle~

how sweet ?

They gave me aye printed half tee . that i mad love .

I super love half off shoulders nao . and the shirt got OMG printed in big Fonts .

ha . I like that ! Thanks Sha , thanks guys :)

Ehhhh...

I also got receive from ahboon !!!

I seriously thought he'll forget my birthday nor .

But he rmb sei .

As usual present sent directly to my door step .

hahahha XD

This year , very special .

GOT 2 !

One fury bag that caught ahboon's eye a whole time . and a pair of golden leaves falling ear danglings .

Super nice right ?

And ...

I'm Super cold now . i must hit the sack now .

Updates soon ,

Xoxo,

Cherlyn.

2010-10-26T07:45:00.000-07:00

Oh Bring back , oh bring back , oh bring back my ah boon to me to me !!

I MISS AH BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON !!!

That lucky cap must be enjoying his taiwan trip lor ..
humphs ,
JEALOUS ! ):

; C H E R ,.

2010-09-30T21:01:00.000-07:00

Melody that brings me to a whole new world .

One after another ...

2010-08-24T09:09:00.000-07:00

have anyone really felt the way im feeling now ?
the feeling of losing someone forever , and having the regrets all left behind under your heart .. it's silent pain . & it kills you slowly ..

Tell me how .. how can i live on like this ..?

I think I'm really going crazy soon .

God , SPARE ME ...!!!!!!!!

Cherlyn,.

My Love ; My Fate .

2010-08-20T11:24:00.000-07:00

You will fade away .

Sometimes , I do still feel sorry ;

But , each time I feel that way , I know that I'm happy .

Cus , Giving up now may seems like forever .

But to me its like I've done my greatest dance move under the lights .

So please be happy for me that i skip this page for now .

I have more things to do .

And that will not include the trouble-some twinkling sound outside my window.

I'm sure You know , It's not the rain drops .

That actually my heart is bleeding .

I'll miss you always .

Xoxo ,

Cherlyn

2010-08-20T08:49:00.000-07:00

Sun illuminated on our earth, but only once a day not forever.
Same as good things, not forever.
Don't take it for granted.

So what can I say ?

2010-08-15T00:10:00.000-07:00

What can I say - Carrie Underwood .

Piercing words, eyes are red
Watched your taillights in the rain
Empty heart filled with regret
I know we were both to blame

And I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
So I said all I had to say
In letters that I threw away

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
What can I say?

How did it come to this?
I think about you all the time
It's no excuse, but I wish
That I never made you cry

I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
I couldn't find the words to say

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
So what can I say? What can I say?

What can I say? What can I say?

I hate to think all you had of me
(I said all I had to say)
Is a memory I left you, pace between what was meant to be
(In letters that I threw away)
And the mess that it turned into

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
It's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
What can I say? What can I say?

Catch The Fire Yo,

2010-08-14T23:57:00.000-07:00

They ran pass Hougang ave 8 . & I manage to snap 'em .

oH YEA oH YEA oH YEAHHHH ~

LOL .

I left Ooosh the other day .

& Imma so not going back . I'm so happy .

MUAHAHAHAHAHA .

Went to Vietnam for holiday and I had fun .

The stones , the PHO , the NIGHT MARKET . and last but not least the elegance hotel @ honoi.

I really miss the great hospitalism over there . they really take good care of you .

I super wanna upload all the photos here .

Loves ttm,

Cherlyn,.

2010-08-01T06:11:00.000-07:00

今天，感触很多..
觉得..
我在这个世界拼命些什么.... ......? 累死我...

还有..这首歌..我很爱..

大口的呼吸像離了水的魚
大步的離去用我最後一絲力氣
每陣風每場雨都加速愛情的凋零
散發出斑駁的氣息
眼看愛慢慢的腐敗慢慢的解散
慢慢沉入暗黑的深海
這個世界上什麼東西不會壞
大口的呼吸像離了水的魚
大步的離去用我最後一絲力氣
每陣風每場雨
都加速愛情的凋零
散發出斑駁的氣息
都怪我偏偏要去愛
偏偏要等待偏偏幻想我會是例外
不管那時候愛得多不知好歹
壞了就該淘汰
明明我早就明白,...
....坏了就该淘汰

算了..
不该再想你了,. ((:

Xoxo ,
Cherlyn ;

@$@#%#$!@##%$@#$!@#!@#!

2010-07-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

Hi diary , I'm upset . VERY UPSET.

My 159 bus got stucked in the middle of no where @ shengsiong mart .
I gotta alight and walk to work if not , i'll be so damn effing late .
I got up from the last seat of my bus and got bumped into this si 38.
FAT , Block my way nevermind bag carry until so big dont know for what ,.
I say "excuse me" she look at me , then act like nothing happen continue talking on phone !
Sarah jessica Parker ahhhhh! I raised my voice this time to say excuse me ..
She then siam . then i walk pass her . she shout across " CB LAHHHH! "

WAH .. I jitao angry and should back : "HELLO! 好狗不挡路没有听过吖???"
then she keep quiet and look at me one kind , I took off my shades and look back at her 2 KIND .

rahhhhhhhhhhh,.
PU SENG AHHHH.

死三八,never die before .

Worst still , the stupid driver left the whole bus of passengers alone and gone to shengsiong shopping !!!!

HORRIBLE !

& someone ask me to help her take things from her bag today .
she didn't want to tell me where is it , so i searched .
And she blamed me for qiao-ing her bag .
Seriously ridiculous .
不要脸!!who wanna qiao your bag ?
next time ownself take , i'm not here to help you take things like your ah sam okay ,.?

Fuck up .

Lousy day.
;; Cher .

Finally ! :D

2010-07-24T03:55:00.000-07:00

Perry is talking to me as usual .
I can fly . He's redye-ing my hair soon .
I'm over the moon ..

And now ....

I'm going out to play with kacey my love & gang !

Lalalalalala .
Cherlyn ,.

我爱他...

2010-07-23T09:39:00.000-07:00

我爱他..很爱他..

你想象不到的那种爱. (:

Xoxo ,
Cherlyn.

Wish you'd never looked at me that way.

2010-07-17T08:52:00.000-07:00

Hi , I wish I could hug my kinno 24/7 .

Class now adays is sianified .
From friday till now . Perry wouldn't be coming up anymore .
He won't be talking to us anymore .
He won't say hello to me as friendly as before .
My heart is brokened .

Why is he so dao to us now .
Just by what they say , he just loses his trust for us now .
I really have nuts to say .
But we really do trust and respect him .

Hopes he comes back to us soon ,
& I hope I'll pass my test .
Hands don't shiver . PLEASE .

I don't know why , but i really hope to escape from this nest .
His words kept changing .
I can't tolerate his misbelieve.
Others are calling me not to leave but stay with his team .
But sorry , I hope I wouldn't be the chosen one to stay.
I really am thankful of him , But I won't wanna work with him .
Cus , I wanna be free .

While working @ Ooosh, the speakers played ByeBye * . Thought of Yan & huimin.
& now , I do miss huimin alot .
I wonder what she'd say .

BYE.
Cher;

JUNEEEEEEE.Want Love or Fame ?

2010-06-24T08:54:00.000-07:00

All random-ly up yo.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Xoxo
Yours Truely.

2010-06-22T08:55:00.000-07:00

Xoxo ,
Cher.

2010-06-18T08:06:00.000-07:00

Today when I was packing my bag for the day as usual .
I always had to have these things in my bag for the day which are super heavy ..

mirror,comb.
hair kit tools.
working uniform
make up pouch
notebook
daily schedule

And when I was folding my working uniform to put it in , i thought ,...
how i wish i don't have to carry my heavy hairkit tools wherever i go .
just simply working on my basics .
I thought again , hey no . it's my dream isn't it ..
why is it becoming sucha burden for me now ?
Isn't that what I want ? Lotsa questions kept popping out

I had this urge to not bring my hair kit totally man .
but I thought again , hey no . I can't live without them .
They're now my living tools already .

Isn't life too tough ..?
If I had to chose . so much .
Right now , I'm loving God ,I'm lovin' my job . lovin' school , loving my church.
And what else can I even complain ?
Sometimes I do blame myself for pushing myself too hard .
And neglect the people around me .
Like A. J . Thank God , they're always helping me out when i can't manage after school cus i have to rush to work .
they're always there to help me when i can't manage my models . like rinsing their coloured hair .
I always have to rush off , and i don't have the time to wait for the hair colour being processed .
They always help me to take care of my work etc , without any word.

Today , while we're putting dye one sha's head .
My head went blank . I was like in outta space thinking of fire fighters in space or whatever i guess .
Perry gave us instructions on what he wanna do , what he don't wanna see .
And When he ask me to do it . I went to do the things he don't wanna see ..
Like . omg , cherlyn what the hell are you doing ??

Ask me now , I don't know either .
Last week worst .

During work attatchment , I was curling a model's head .
super longgggggg , more than 20 inches man .
and it's artificial hair , all plastic-y and like elastic kind extention attatched.
To-The-Hair.
She claimed it's 100% real hair , I really doubt so .
Cus , When my curling thong gets into it right , smokes kept coming out .
And mind you , because it's not real hair I put the thong temperature to only 90 deg.
and , it's burning the hair like as if it's cooking ! burns my fingers like mad.
normal natural hair can take up to 180 deg. and hers were like .. wthhhhhh.. T_T
when i feel like giving up . i was just drawing the 3rd section only !
Like 6 more to go !!!
WOAHHHHH, worst still , I burn't my fingers more .
Not because of the irritating artificial hair .
Cus , I took the wrong side of the thong!!!
the heating part . instead of the handle ...
Omg ...
I dropped the thong on the tray .and started spraying setting hair spray on it .
Woah , It was super hot! AS hot As my mom's hot pot cooking chicken soup kind .
SOBS .. No more hu hu from mommy...
Perry came to take over me when he sees me getting out of hand .
and , same like me . he burned his hand handling the wrong side of the thong .
he threw the thong on floor and shouted OUCH!
Then he look at me with a face like . and said ..
Now i know why your hands were shivering when doing the hair already .
cherlyn , this kind of hair .. you must do qi gong one . look at me arrrh .. i do let you see ..
i said ,, ORH.....
hahahahahahahaha.
he was sweating like mad . cus it was VIP room ..

My life is too lucky to have people giving in to me .
I'm really guilty .
Upset .
Cus , of my dream ..
my mates , my colleagues have to give in to me so much .
and , I seem to have nothing to say , except to accept their offers of help .
I never asked from them , trust me . It's really their heart sincering wanting to help me .
I thank them today .
and one of them said..super touching ..
" Cherlyn , please don't mention .. looking at you so chiong for your dream, just makes me wanna help you more . Please don't feel that you're alone or you owe us kay ? I'll be there for you ! "
Woahhhh , The last time i hear this was super long ago liao ..
wait , like don't have ley .

I really feel super guilty .
And I feel like Imma super selfish , if i really were to take them for granted .
Ofcause I wont lahhh. But ..

Right now ..
There's really nothing much I can do . Except to accept .
Sigh . This kinda feeling sucks . Like super selfish ..

Sigh .

The other day me , eve and hiroko san was talking @ OOosh bar.
I asked hiroko san to give me a jap name .
I requested for a name starting with L .
And , she said something that sounds close to a vular word in hokk.
and Eve really laughed out loud saying the the vulgar word over and over again.
I was like .. Woahhh , laugh at me lahh .. it's not the bad word lorrr..
sherry heard the conver at the counter. and told perry ..
Then perry came and talk to me ..
saying that I shouldn't have share dirty jokes at his place .
I was like huh ?????
I didn't share any joke or laugh ? hmmm, okay ........
Then he said .. I know ! I went to scold Eve off already,...!
(in an angry manner)
I kept quiet . looked at him .
he then moved on saying about class ..

& Today , I heard news about Eve resigned ..
I was so shocked ..?!
I kept asking why..
And he told me it's not regarding me . so don't needa ask ....

Rahhhhh.
I really don't wish to know if it's really because of me ..
I really .....

): ): ):
Am Very guilty ...

Sighhhhh,,...

Shakarabahaiiiiiiiiiiii.

God , You raised me here .. I will not give up .
you're the only reason for me now to continue . So strengthen me again!

Xoxo
Cherrrrr.

It's been awhile .. isn't it ?

2010-05-15T09:55:00.000-07:00

才发现,很多东西不能只用一个角度去看..
很多东西要闯过了,伤痕累累,骈体岭伤..才能学会..
太多失望的记恨,不是一天两天.
而是要领悟了,在"心"爬起来..

人的勇敢，很多时候都是要在软弱的时候才会诊的秀出来..
上帝也许才能从中让我门体验他的力量..

想东西其实很累..
而,以前的人我应该记完了..现在有点后悔..
我害怕在跟着人群走..

{♥}
因为有你牵着我,让我不再害怕黑暗.
让可恶天杀的魔鬼离开我的世界..
让我在被爱.
就因为我拥有你..
{♥}

将就够了..

赞美主!
Loves ,
Xoxo ,
Cher ,. ;;;;;

2010-05-04T08:55:00.000-07:00

I MISS HUIMINNNNNNNNNNNN~

All of us miss you ..

hiroko san miss you too ..

T_T

sigh ...

Cherlyn.

What hurts the most ..

2010-05-03T09:29:00.000-07:00

I don't know when did this seed grew at the bottom off my heart .
To reject everyone .
But since the day you saw me , you want me to remove the seed . I did .
& I promise to try to bloom another garden .
I want to be who Imma gonna be . not here . Ain't stoppin'
Faith arised in me , I step forward with expectation .
But , devil didn't let me go . he took away again yet again another friend of mine .
sand , xiao yan now .. hui min .
I really don't know how to react to this .
I just don't wanna try to be a stronger self from learning this lesson of losing .
I really hate it .
But I just have to go through it .
I can't be anymore sorry to have said those mean words .
but , I really can't bear to lose my friends .
I seriously miss huimin . I really am still in stunned world .
She was really still fine the other day ..!
Just in a few hours , devil took her away ..

My heart never stop aching when her name is being mentioned .
She's still so young , she haven't got married !
We haven't got to hit our dreams , how can she be so selfish to have chose to left us ?
all of a sudden ? all these question marks never left .

Looking at the photos we took , I told myself ..
Huimin , I will do my best of what you couldn't manage and you wished to do .
Imma gonna do your part extra to fulfil both of our dream .

Can you hear me talking ?
Beibei , I'm so happy when your father went to beat him up .
I'm so so sorry , I know you'll be upset .
But still , hearing of the news of him being beaten up just got me all excited .
Because , I feel he deserves it lor .
Don't be mad okay ? Ps : your dad looks super man when he's talking for you :)
*envy* I never had that kinda experience having my dad's protection !

Well , If that's really you in class today .
I hope , you'll really rest in peace .
Don't naughty! Stop wondering around already .. okay ?

Love you .
Xoxo ,
Cherlyn.

2010-04-30T15:11:00.000-07:00

You left .. all sudden .
Left nothing spoken .
You promise to come and see joyce hair .
You told me you love God ..
You're the silliest girl i've ever seen who's so in love with a lousy person .
You're also the most brave person who dares to hold a knife to protect her love one .
You taught me how to bear through .
You don't like me to be unhappy ..

And now , you're gone .
How do you think me and the other girls are going to take it ..
You always ask whether we're listening to you .
have you ever listen to what we say ?
And now , you can't hear us .. you're so selfish ..

You simply took away everything .
and gave us only a 3 month memory ..

Huimin , we really miss you ...
Rest in peace ..

Toothache the monster .

2010-04-09T08:23:00.000-07:00

2nd Wisdom tooth on the left side bottom is growing very the much .
It's causing me to be in pain for 24/7 very very the much .
Damn . HURTS MORE when sleeping ..
喜欢听歌的我,都会因为太痛到觉得歌很难听...
howwwwwwww .

PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!

PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!

PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!
PAIN GO AWAY !!

*PRAYERS*
Sobs ..

Eating pain killers . eat until sian ..
Last time I don't let ah le eat pain killers de ..
hahaha , I also never eat before ..
but really pain until .... sigh ..
eating it every 6 hours ..
unhealthy hor ??

pray for me lah .

Test didn't go well for me today , because toothache strucked me halfway during blow drying .
Pain killers weren't by my side ... had to bear through it . with my head spinning ....
SIGH...
Perry must me very dissapointed ...

Cried ...

Tired le .
Good night .

2010-03-28T08:27:00.000-07:00

Don't ever leave me in the dark anymore .

Just , secure me in your arms safe .

Cus , I'm tired of searching for you .

MARRRRRCHHHHH.~

2010-03-23T08:50:00.000-07:00

LIFE'S BEEEN TIRINGGGGGZXZXZXZXZXCZXZXZZXSSSZXZX.
Ask me how am i? I'll reply not as good as you .
LOL .

school work school work school work school work school work church worrkkkkzxzxzx .
rahhhhh . where's my rest day ?? hahahaha .
Schedule is powderful packed .
Kite flying sessions with vin is really super fun .
and oh , yeah . I'm enjoying my classes to the max .
Coloring , perming comes in . wheeeeeeeeeee .

Even though I have my freedom , i still feel restricted .
Sometime , I feel I'm worst than a prisoner .
Wth, move to new house don't even have big door's key .
Gotta hit the bell everytime . . stupid lor .
I don't know whatever . I just feel it's super immature of 'em .

I don't know what .
Recently my dad sent me aye sms saying that he met up with aye accident .
that he injured his arms and legs .
I didn't even bother to reply . Am I heartless or what ?
I can even treat it like nothing happen ..
TSk... I really don't want to care much .

Found any difference with my hair ?
I dyed it . Perry chose jap black for me ..
hahahaha .
Okay lah , many ppl say i look better with black hair ..
But I feel kinda uneasy to it now .
cus , i feel super blackkkkkkk .

I really just wanna love myself more .

Well boon boon .,

Please get well sooooooon!

Xoxo

Cher ;

2010-03-02T07:16:00.000-08:00

Finally forgotten him .
But during sat's service , that bitch actually sat right behind me .
wahhhhh ,. ji tao moodless .
And she's tone deaf . so she sing damn loud with tone gone wrong .
super distracting .
Thank God i get over it . I thought I couldn't .

Finally recovered from my super high fever .
becoming super forgetful .

Ahhh , cherlyn come back .

Xoxo,
CHER.

I love ALPEOR .

2010-02-24T08:19:00.000-08:00

I LOVE ALP ALP ALP ALPEOR .
lalalala .
loving it more than yamano .
OOOPS .
check it out ..!
My new love of skin care brand .

Alpeor's website . HERE

hahahaha , I got discounts , you don't have .
Alpeor's effect is just way too awesome .
Their skin care penetrates the fastest !
And you know what , they're best formulated for allergic skin .
Double shiokness .

I'm just so lucky to have met alpeor's CEO , Mr Alex .
His own philosophy have really inspired me .
& I really admired his attitude of how he's running alpeor's skin technology .
Super specific , accurate and efficient .
We need more this kind of people in the world of face mannnn .

LOVES for ALP ALP ALP ALPEOR ! :D

Wearing their night cream tonight .

XOXO !
Cher.

I don't like you . Get it ?

2010-02-24T08:10:00.000-08:00

I don't need your diamond blings or your dirty money .
No point of you going around asking about me .
Quit searching .

Cus , I'll never let you in .

; Cher .

Pervert Fuck Off .

2010-02-22T07:41:00.000-08:00

Today , a super heavy rain struck down when I leave Ooosh .
then bobian took a cab down to hougang from town .
then met this si indian uncle driver super sicko .
I told him where i wanna go , after awhile while waiting for traffic light ..
He said .. " sorry ah , miss please excuse me ah ... my baby brother is misbehaving .. "
Then I was like , huh ? Then I act like i never hear . Cus i don't get him .
Then he adjusted his seat to the lying down kind .
And he fucking UNZIPPED HIMSELF ! FUCK seriously .
he effing show his black penis lah . WAS DAM EFFING GROSS .
& I was seriously fucking shivering scared .

He adjusted his seat back to normal when the green light shown .

Wanted to call someone .. then mobile no batt . don't know why can't on. maybe kennah rain water then sot diao . !!
Walau,damn pissed off that moment .

Then he keep looking at me at the mirror .
then I use hand cover my face , then look outside ..
then fake fake talk on the phone . which i think work alot .

I was damn pissed off .
He kept on rubbing his penis , and making alot of noise .
Keep on "tsk " and he kept on talking to his "baby brother" aka his penis to behave ..

WTH LAHHH .

Then when reach hougang le that time ..
He say .. " aiyoh , young lady , you so pretty .. i don't charge you lah .. have a nice day ..."
I was like .. easter frame muster froam .
I throw $10 on the don't know what and stomp out off the cab .

I FEEL FUCKING OFFENDED MAN .
Why me .. so suay ???

WALAU .

Whoever is cursing . you better stop !

I'm so worried over someone .
I can't sleep at all .
Don't forget me .. will you ?

Cher ;

New year planszxzxzxzzxxzz!

2010-02-13T04:49:00.000-08:00

I re-edited .
I'll cut short . In point forms .

No boyfriend for 2 years .
learn to be more patient .
Master the skills that perry san teach .
Be as good as perry san .
Win myself .
Save $400 per month ? (hmmmm)
Cut the length of my hair . no more long hair !
By the end of the year , I wanna be a ready hair stylist .
Forget about my past .
Focus more on what I'm doing .
Don't wear lip gloss on windy days .
Buy more mascaras , it's never enough . *abit wrong hor ?* Shakehead*
Drink more water in the morning .
Eat my meals on time .
Eat more carrots T_T
Practice to be more polite .
I wanna smile more often .
kick the habit of funny expressions .
no more Tsk .
Yes to the word awesome .
Spend more time with kinno .
Listen to more happy songs .
Delete all the emo songs .
Love my new toilet .
Wear good push up bras . no more cotton on .
Practice healthy skin care routine daily. ( which I'm doing now )
Remember to wash my towels .
Practice on dollie heads 3 times a week .
Spend lesser on food . and more for shoessssss :D
wanna get a DKNY watch . still considering .
Go for driving lessons by the end of the year . ( unconfirmed )
Have more revelations and visions from God . spend longer quiet time .
Quit eating fries . no more fries from macdonald's .
Wanna buy a good lasting boots . price ain't a problem .
Hoping to change the attitude of myself .
Buy new shades .
Think more positive .
Have my schedule planned monthly properly .
Be more flexible to changes . * Cherlyn cannot be so systematic!!!*
Be a less perfectionist .
Be more acceptable to the things around me .
Be more open in inspirations .
Forget L .
No more Cantonese songs .
Overcome the fear of height .
learn to be more brave .
accept criticism .
learn how to encounter sarcasm
Have more grace with people I don't like .
Quit disagreement .
Buy more snacks and toys for kinno .
Be more organised .
Walk faster .
Work on everything I've listed .

Happy Chinese New Year to all !

Gong Xi fa Cai ahhh .

Cai yuan gun gun lai ahhh.

Kuai gao zhang da ahhhh.

Xue ye jin bu ahhh..

Fu ru dong hai shou bi nan shan ahhh !

Huat AHHHHH !

Imma Lucky child .

2010-02-06T07:25:00.000-08:00

Even though I'm feeling not as happy as before .
Even though I've lost quite alot of few things because of my mistakes .
That made me so cold to all the things happen around me ..

But I will never deny one thing ..
That I'm really blessed with lotsa good people around me .
My life can be filled with lotsa suay things , I can tell you .
Eh no , Perri san says they're not suay things .. they're called challenges ..
Yep .. But , seriously speaking , I always have good people that give grace and help me along the way ..

People that are close to me will know ..
The first person that helped me alot through this hard time ..
Jacelyn .. my current boss .
I mean .. ofcus , partly if it's not by her ..
I won't be here today to have the chance to work part time and study .
Like cey said , " you think what , your mom open shop ah . want what time work jiu what time work ? "
But surprisingly , she approved ?
I don't know her well .. but from recently after a few months of observing her ..
I can feel , she's a not bad person . and I kinda look up to her .
It's very rare when I look up to a person okay ?
Lol ..
Recently in my work place , my manager accused me of copying checking perfume inventory .
My manager reported to her , and she agree and approved to fine me a whole sum of $80 for copying .
Which made me so angry that I actually asked her out and reason with her .
She didn't believe me . until I asked her to check the cameras again .
She didn't said anything . she kept quiet . and looked at me .
She just said okay .
Then after a few days , I heard from my cey that during company meeting she actually speak up for me.
she felt so bad that she need to take back her words .
Because , she never took back her words . thats her principle .
But because of me .. she ...

I'm so greatful (:

Before entering into her company , I really considered a effing long time .
Cus i have to work on week ends , which will make me miss my weekend svces ..
God told me it'll be temporary . & I'm gonna make it through.
I prayed a long time in making this decision .
Even sha also actually objected .
But I kept on praying . & believing .
And who knows .. Everything went well .
Jacelyn actually don't need part time .. but she approved to let me continue .
I always thought of her giving me the worst scenarios and outcome .
But she always give me the best scenarios going according to my schedule .
Where to find seriously ?
Boss going according to you . totally not bossy . super nice right ?

What made me felt bad is that ..
She actually don't treat others that well like me ..
From others sight , I'm really favoured by her .
Because everyone knows that I won't stay long . But she's still keeping me .
and all her secret blessing gifts she gave ..
Just because she feels that I have great potential in her company ..
She told me that her doors will always be wide open for me .
She dotes me like no body's business man ..

I'm really touched .

Really thank God for her ..

haha ,
my friend sent me like a chain email for new year self changing chart or smth .
I've done half of it . and will post it up in my blog soon .
Oh ! and more updates about Ooosh with perry san ! my superstar .

MORE MORE MORE UPDATES SOOONNNN.
Till then .
bye :D

Xoxos ,
Cher.

2010-01-29T09:31:00.001-08:00

3rd day..
still no news of them ..

What should i do now .

Goodnight ..

YOU MESSED AROUND WITH THE WRONG PERSON,

2010-01-28T06:15:00.000-08:00

Today during work .. I...
Saw someone's back view super like L .
Yellow lion spike head .
Vest and shirt .
Blue pants that dont match to go with ..
Grey shoes . ( super alike the nike that i bought with him at leftfoot. )
Shucks , is it him ?
I went to look , but can't see the faceeeee !
The person went out from the kopitiam exit with his cigs .

My heart nearly stopped for a few seconds .

Sian lor .

Even if it's him .. so what ...?

Lol , same old thing what ... DUH !

------------------------------------------------*

ACCUSED ME THAT I EFFING LIED ?
DON'T LET ME SEE YOUR GF ON STREET .
I STILL EFFING HAVE MY OLD PHONE WITH ME .
AND ALL THE SMSES YOU SENT ME THEN , WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER .

THEN LETS SEE WHO'S THE BEST ACTOR IN TOWN LAH HOR .

CURTAINS FINALLY CLOSING ..

LOL .

you can say whatever you want .
I have nothing to hide .

Hur ,
Good luck .

------------------------------------------------------*

UPDATE :

Needa pack up my room already , cause of moving to thy new house yo !

threw away all my primary old memories stuffs .

found lotsa neo prints and i'm keeping 'em ..

Thenn...

I threw all the things that the effing UGLIEST ghost gave me .

ALL MEANS ALL . not even a card is left .

Instead of feeling sad , I feel relieved .

Even though one of it used to touched my heart alot .

Now i wont see it anymore , so i won't think about him anymore .

But by throwing all of 'em away , it's a good ending point .

To embark on my new starting point .

And I'm happy . Cause I've forgotten the person .

who ah ? I don't know . I don't want to know .

Accused me with all you want..

Cus , not only me know that you're that kind of person .

and how flirt you actually are .

People misunderstand me , i won't care .

And I won't blame them . Cus they're also innocent .

hahaha ,. whatever . I hate explaining .

BYE .

2010-01-27T08:00:00.000-08:00

ticks ticks ticks .
I'm racing with the time .

Busy like siao .
Don't even have time to shit .

drank green apple + mango ice blend bubble tea today .
super double shiokness .

Oh darling , anna sui's dollie head for $38 real 100ml tester .
Sucha good buy for collection . why not ?

Today is sucha chupalang day .
& , now , i don't even feel like the energy to write secrets here .

Cus , today got hella alot of people give me their effing attitude for nothing .
And hella alot of people gave me unplanned last minute decisions for me to do ..

& Imma so hella pissed off .
Don't simple say things are easy when you can't do it .

Don't assume things .
Easterframe Muster froam lah .

Lao niang now damn sleepy .
Goodnight .

Xoxo,
Cherlyn,.

I may fall . But I never stop trying ,

2010-01-25T08:28:00.001-08:00

Thank God man , I'm finally feeling much better .
Today ..
Perry want us to reblow dry straight for our dollies .
and so we did . again , all over again .
lol , my dollie still looks the best among all . lalala ..
others all pong sai gao hair look . only mine is dangerously way too chio .
I'm not lying . it's true , even perry says so .
BLEAH .

huimin wash my hair for practice .
Had a bad headache after that .
super seh , on the way to work .
but manage to be early for work . so double ptl .

Had lunch and had my medicines .
Strength was all I needed from heaven man .
hur hur ..
do my perfume inventory .. wipe my australis duties .
wooosh , 4 hours gone . 6 receipts only ..
sbs ....
then needa do outlet return . double sian . cus got super alot of hidden chupalangs .
aiyah , OT until 10 . no double $$ .. sob sob .

Today while listening to songs in my music player and browsing through my daily picts from the past ,.
i find myself questioning myself alot of emo questions ..
which i myself dont understand or care all along .
like since when have i become so cold .
since when have i become so much bo chup .
since when have i become so shut down on the inside .
why am i such a unhappy person now ..
where did those happy smiles in my photos gone to ?

I really hate the way i am now ..

But , i just can't do anything anymore .
just holding on to someone . closely in my heart .
pulling myself through this hard time with God .
focused on the vision I had .
I just simply wanna obey and follow through .

ignore all those hurts and noises around me .
cus , maybe from there .. I can find my peace .

Just there ,
I learn to love myself more .
Still the same , no need explanations .

Cus , the best love I've ever found through God is the strong trust .

See this space below . This is lovely ..

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams!

Live the life you've imagined .

- God to cherlyn

Source : faith .

下起雨也要勇敢前进,脚步要更加坚定!
Cherlyn ah cherlyn , be brave !

btw , my poor ah boon dislocated his arms ..
he only got his arms fixed after a terrible 6 hours or more ?
super heartache luh .
Don't know whether he's better now already .
But he sound over the phone . as excited and sweet as always :D
Keep him in prayers ya .

Oh , ah piaos .. shoo shooo away from ah booon!

chucks chucks chuckszxzxzxzxzzz :D

Xoxo ,
Cher ;;

我恨你.非常...!

2010-01-23T08:14:00.000-08:00

EFF . EFF . EFF .

CHERLYN CONDEMNS ALL SCREEN COWARDS , PHONE COWARDS , AND BLOODY WHAT EVER COWARDS .

screen cowards : People who don't dare to say facts infront of your face , only knows how to type on their private blogs to complain about you . seriously , irritating-ly FUCK ,.

SAME GOES TO OTHERS .

Hey black shortie , since you like to play screen show .
I play with you .
First thing first .
Don't label me .
Don't fucking judge me .
Seriously , YOU ARE NO ONE TO JUDGE ME .
Even if we WERE friends last time or even much closer ,.
YOU ARE NO ONE OKAY .

I already said , I don't give a damn about you .
Cus, you don't effing give a damn about what I said or explained to you .
I give you what you give me dude .
Don't act as if I need your understanding or forgiveness .
Don't believe , Suah . I also don't care .

Because , I've been honest to you .
No point wasting my effort to be nice to you .
Seriously , don't act like as if I owe you a living or I should be sorry towards you .
本小姐,use to care , but now ? HELLL NO .

You can blame on me all you want .
Keep those fucking FAKE shits and lies that you assumed tangled in your heart and mind ,
FOREVER .
I DON'T CARE .
& I won't care anymore .

JUST DON'T FUCKING COME AND "O.O" WITH ME ANYMORE .
it's no longer cute / adorable to me .
infact , disgusting .

ask me to fuck off .

HEY ,
YOU FUCK OFF FIRST LUH OKAY ?
Or maybe jolly well roll off flow off . or like a dust kennah i blow off by 1 single second .

You're just an eye sore blister to me now .
with all you fake lies and you Good acting of sympathy .
hur hur , carry on and go ahead to those who don't know you well enough .

Cus I've seen enough .

Nuff said .
Shucks , I just made myself swear like mad because of a irritating DUST .

Fuck seriously .

aiyah , I don't care lah .
my flu sucks too .

Sorry dear diary ,
I just dirtied you with his shadows of his name .
I know how you feel .
And i feel sorry for you .
but , surely not him .

Good night earthlings ,
Bye dear diary ,.

Fuck off , Ghost .

2010-01-16T08:16:00.000-08:00

Your tiny eyes when you smile .
Your warm hands that warms me up .
Your strong arms that protect me from harm .
Your lips that brings sweet melodies to my ears .
Your heart that melts my heart .

You just make my day so well .

Loves ,
Cher .

So what , if they have the world ?

2010-01-13T04:44:00.000-08:00

Almost like nothing to fill in about over here this empty blank space.
Maybe all left with my sadness in my heart .

I got the feeling that this post is gonna be yet another emo entry,.
How ... I feel quite bad leh .. Aiyuh , my blog anyway right ..?

Haha , In my daily smiles you guys surely feel that Imma super happy person .
But people who read my blog would know . I am not ..

It's not that I have a "split personality " kinda thing ..
Just that , I don't know why . I don't like people to see my weak side .
Sigh . & I'm use to it already . People call me a fake .

I don't care . anyways (:

Alright , new class have started for me ..
Doing my professional hair styling course currently .
Met a super "bubbly" lady that's super noisy in my class .
I don't like her .. But I have to face her daily for now .
Her voice really irritates me every single second when she speaks .
Because she like to ask stupid questions .
Questions like i think she didn't ask before some brain processing like we do ..?
Yeah , which is damn irritating .
What ever the lecturer says , she surely would comment on it .
Super distruptive lah . Tsk , she's irritating .

I talked to her privately about her problem durring lunch .
Like the way she like to ask people questions .. Her question sometimes can be quite offensive .

Erm , just take this example :
* Irritating Girl * : hey , you have a tattoo ! when did you got that ?
*Person A* : Oh , 14 .
* Irritating Girl * : I see , so young got tattoo ahh ...! You must be a chao ah lian last time lahhh !
* Person A * : Ermmmm....*Silence* ...
* Irritating Girl * : AIYAH , NO NEED SHY LAH .. I ALSO AH LIAN . but why your ang gong so cartoon one ???
* Person A* : ( Ignores her )

She's 20 , but look like 30 and the way she talk is like 10 years old .
I'll take it as she have some mental problem that caused her to be so suay .
Cus she have to live up with that pea brain for the rest of her life .
Btw , she's not ah lian at all . Just a ah lian wanna be .

I think even ah lians are better than her . More mature than her .
Shucks , I sound super mean now .

Whatever .

我也许就像你说的一样、就是和全世界不爽.
不开心的都收着.泪都流在心里,..
然后在心里加了锁头.谁都不让靠近、
别人给的关心，说的话都不听.

现在的我还是觉得..一个人就够了.

真的...

Cher;

2010-01-08T07:27:00.001-08:00

Imma super upset .
Somebody effing play a joke on my hair .
And now it's effing spoilt .
I'm now damn boiled with hatred . Don't let me see his face again .
Cus I'll really give him lotsa uncountable tight slaps on his cheek till he cry .

I'm really super disappointed with him .
And my hair today is really effing ugly .
He cut it so thin that it look super like don't know what the fuck .
In fact the condition of my is like lousy now .
Serious . I force myself to work .
If not , i don't even feel like stepping outta the house .

I can't sleep at all when I think back .
Cus , this is the first time I feel so regret .
& fucking hopeless about it .

Damn it, seriously .
fuck up , And now , It's reaching new year . I so don't wanna show up .
Fuck , Sorry , I just swear damn alot .
Cus , I'm fucking angry now .
Don't stop me .

Never been so upset before .
Cried for NIGHTS AND NIGHTS . thanks to that mother fucka !

Give me a million ,and I'll sue you to jail . Damnnnnn !

Don't feel like meeting anyone . Anymore !
And fuck , no more camwhore sessions !

Feel my griefs ?
But you have no way to help me .

Thanks vin anyways .
for cheering me up as always .

Love ya .
Cher .

2009-12-30T08:21:00.001-08:00

What if today I'm blind , and I manage to type this .
And so what if today I'm ugly and I made you vomit ?

LOL .

okay , super random .
worldly words to describe me ?
I'll choose Ugly and Blind .
Ugly on the inside and the outside .
Blind in my decisions .
and thats me , with thousands of imperfections within me .
But , You love me still .

Faithfully .

And I've decided ,. To give You my all .
As for the rest of my life , to be with You , till Eternity .

In your hands I'm warm .
By the moulding of Your love I became beautiful .
In Your eyes I'm precious .
Oh , what else can I say about Your unconditional Love ?

How true is that ?
That You are Love .

Xoxo ,
Cher.

Imma happy girl .

2009-12-14T07:13:00.000-08:00

saw my new ahgua floral outfit ? lols !

okay , enough of laughing .

This month is the most heartwarming month..i can say ..

listening to all christmas songs all around me ..

Watching christmas lights ..

hahaha . childish of me ..

but it always melt my heart .

lalalala , i dont know what i'm saying already .

But imma super happy .

with myself , my friends and God !

heeeese...

Xoxo.

Cher

opps , I love 大头贴!

2009-12-03T07:11:00.000-08:00

A story of a deaf girl who wanna play violin ..

Loves it ..

Am inspired !
But more excited !

Cus i'm going for svc at this coming sat !
I miss svc ! super duper muchhhhh .
& I miss my cg alottttt .

muackkks .

With loves ~
Cher.

Silence , for a moment .

2009-11-19T05:44:00.000-08:00

I can see how dumb you are .
Asking dumb question . hanging on that fake sacarstic smile on your face .

I hang on with my anger . look at you with my warm fiery eyes .
Dumb kind soul , hear me . I'm no one for you to judge .
Now wouldn't you shut up .

Back ground sounds are stomping up through my ear drums .
I closed my eyes and bow down , hearing the back of your gossips and complains .

Heads spinning , spirit low .

The silence in my heart so clear telling myself , that I know I know .
Complicated mind boiling up in my mind that I have to keep myself reminded .
Again and again , that he's safe and sound .

Too much sayings and reasons running wild .
The rain drops falls on my right cheek .
I look up at the fading sun & was reminded of your smile . so dearly .

My heart feels heavy . I hold on to my breath .
I keep the peace of heart within me .

& learnt , Love is patience .

Ain't stucked anywhere .

2009-11-17T20:54:00.000-08:00

My grandpa passed away recently on the black friday of thirteen .
it's just coincidence lah .
All I know is .. I have the coolest couple of grandparents .
& They're now resting in peace .

Am having fever now . Sick .
I'm beginning to miss grandpa already .
Am missing all the happy times .

Well grandpa , I know you hear me saying i love you .

& Thanks for being the coolest grandpa in my life !
I will keep all the sweet and happy memories with you and forget the face before you left .

Farewell ahgong ..
( take good care of ah ma ! )

Cher;
your ah mei .

2009-11-12T06:54:00.000-08:00

SO WHAT

SO WHAT .

It's so no big deal at all .
don't behave sucha big *@!$!
sick. oh damn . damn it .
乐for u ? oh i hate u .

So Get Lost!

A nice song for all my sisters out there :D

2009-11-06T07:33:00.000-08:00

A persons without vision wouldn't be able to do great things .
And now .. I have quite a number of decisions to make .
which sucks .

But still , I'll remember my first priority from the start till the end .

刺猬-温岚..

最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单是寂寞或
悲惨一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无
声黑暗心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无
声黑暗心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还
傻刺猬的坚强全都是假象

我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

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about now what's on my mind .. ?
唉．．．懒得去管　顺其自然!!!
gotta ring up boon boon boon now .
Bye !

Xoxo ,
Cher .

2009-10-30T07:12:00.000-07:00

I DID NOT PHOTOSHOP MY FACE .

WHY MY EYES LOOK BIGGER ?

COSMETICS LAH .DUMB .

DIDN'T YOU NOTICE I APPLIED MORE MASCARA ON MY LOWER LASHES ?

ESTER FRAME MUSTER FROAM ....

JEALOUS OF MY BIG EYES , GO LEARN MAKE UP AND MAKE IT BIG .

ROAH !

okay . thanks anyways . i didn't know that I had such huge eyes .

until you comment. (:

So ..

I DID NOT PHOTOSHOP MY FACE .

My Nose ,

My eyes ,

My hair .

My everything lah okay .

Tsk x10 !

2009-10-30T05:59:00.000-07:00

BOOOOOOOOOO!

updates yo ,

It's raining heavily outside .

I'm kinda in a super good mood .

but , great grand aunt came to visit .

and that's a anna sui thing .

never mind .

hahahahaha .

my kinno is freezin' cold now .

And I'm so odeaso boreddd .

oh , my blog .

Nothing much to really update about actually ..

I sleep early to wake up early the next day daily .

Cool or what ? =.= my night life is so sian now ..

and ah boon must have bored his ass out everytime when i fell asleep in the middle of chat .

hahahaha ..

sorry lah ..

The other day had an awesome chat with manda ..

When I say awesome .. you know what I mean ..

I really had fun !

We chatted for like a while .. prayed for each other ..

I thought we both felt much better and encouraged after that .

Kept laughing..

Fighting ! means 加油for koreans .. hahahahah ..

FIGHTING !

With loves ,

Cher.

2009-10-21T05:49:00.000-07:00

Time's running out .

2009-10-18T05:39:00.000-07:00

Feeling very down and very very tired ..

craving for my 无敌铁金刚 strength from my daddy God ..
biu biu biu all my enemies !

RAHHH !

Happy belated birthday to Casper lim ah gui !
May all your wishes come true ahh .
Stay strong and positive yeah.
Jiayou (:

Xoxo ,
Cher.

Meet my irritating Sister ...

2009-10-14T07:38:00.000-07:00

I may have done things that's not right .
Mistakes and mistakes .
I'm just not as smart as you in words . But that does not mean that I stupid or dumb .
And even if I've done the wrond things in the past ..
That does not give you any right for you to bad mouth me to mom .

And that does not mean that you can act like a 和事老..
Because you're just faking things around . just to get mom's trust .
and cheat her .

Sis ...

That's all you can do ?

you're ...
real born lazy , retarded and irritating monster .
Everyday diao at home use computer ..

Kay kiang step one hand of house hold wanna lead things ..

When she can't even handle herself .
flexy foarm .

Everyday at home so free .. choose job to work .
Job never choose you already good liao lor .. muster frame ....
Now so free at home .. walk my kinno very hard meh ?

Veryyyy xin ku mehhhh ?

Action speak louder than words .
and for now .. I don't see any more effort coming out from you .
It's like as if you dont care .

It's not I wanna condemn you or suan you ..
it's that what you're doing now is really super fake .

You don't want people say .. then don't let any chance to let people say you lah ?
I thought that's what you've always like to say ???

Wa nao wee ..
at home eng eng cheng cheng take money ..
I still need to help you ah ..

Eh , hello . Last time when you not around ..
I walk kinno , bathe him , feed him .. all by myself .. Did I complain ?
It's just a simple task to do .. a simple respondsibility .

You can't even fulfil a simple task as a dog owner ?
Then please , don't have the cheek to say that you treat him good .. you love him .
Crap lah kay ?
Or like kay kay say what morning walk him already ..

I thought you say kinno one day eat once enough already ?
You just fed him ..
Don't tell me you effing starve my dog from morning till now ..

MUSTER FRAME ....!

You can give all kind of excuses that you're busy .
But please spare a thought for other people can .
Flexy foarm . Work until so tired .. come home ..
you simply just feed him and ask me to walk him ..

Push every respondsibility to me ..

Behind my back tell people you take good care of him ?

PUI . plus BOO lah okay .

Lousy . As usual . Say only .. Action . Zero lei .

Got cert ? Just some ink that's printed with your name on .

I can imagine how my new house will look like with your that kind of yaya papaya mindset .
Current house like that ..
New house .. no need say .
Still ugly with you incharging (:

By then please hor .. Don't blame on the contractors or designer .

Yah lah . That concludes my angry post over this yaya papaya .
I knpow you guys will surely feel sorry for me living with this kind of sister ..

and also for kinno .. a lousy owner .

Keep her in prayers lah k ?

Cry baby ..... only know how to cry mother ..
want money , go work yourself .

That's what you say mah right ?

Everyday at home eat sleep use comp .
So fat ..
I see le also gao wei ...

NIGHTMARE SOME MORE !

Muster frame lah .

* not happy with my freedom of speech ? eff off . Cause you're an eye sore to me also .

Bye .

it's 本小姐's 17th Birthday on 9'Oct !

2009-10-12T07:02:00.000-07:00

♥ - Fish&Co - BillyBombers - KBOX - LJS - ♥

Ling li made this birthday card for me !

She spent 2 days doing it yo.

So sweet of her .. Thanks sweetheart (:

世界上没有别人比他跟懂我了!!.....
BOOON BOOON BOOOOOOOOOOON~~~~~~~~~~

礼物!

Jianwen came over and pass me his present for me .

诚意满满哦~

hahahaha .. ah boon drew himself up there . Stick man !

BAHAHAHA ...
I BURST OUT LAUGHING WHEN I SAW IT .
♥ so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! XD

and 熊宝宝's wrapping paper ! ♥

What could it be ?
His clues were : It's Pink and HARD . You'll get Real high when you see it ..

My answer ? : A Calculator ....

Result ....
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Yes ....

it is .....
SONY ERICSSON HELLOKITTY EDITION'S PHONE ! ♥

I nearly faint when I see this .
Goodness ..

The other day I asked a friend to help me check whether this phone is still selling ..
they told me it's limited edition .. and it's ... Sold out !!!!!!!!

And how did he get it ??
No idea !

I can't stop saying uh-uh like shin chan ever since i received this ..
UHHHHHHHHHHHHH UHHHHHHHHHHH ~~~~~~~~~

Because I was like so shocked !
I was so so surprised ..

Thanks boon boon for the present ..

Also .. All the well wishes from you guys .

Not forgetting sweetie edna's blog entry on my birthday !

You guys really cheer me on !

I felt all the love from you guys from the sincere smses you guys sent .
They're so much appreciated .
I'm so so touched , Encouraged and loved !

万分的感谢~~
Let us all continue to 加油 yeah!

With truck loads of loves ..
Cher ♥

2009-10-06T08:35:00.000-07:00

Trashing all my anger out in prayers .

Job 23:10 .

Phew .
Someone returned me back my IC yo.

Awesome .
Thank God .

2009-10-05T06:32:00.000-07:00

I will remember the way of how you're treating me all these while .
And you better bare all these in mind .
But one thing I promise to myself , I'm not going to treat you any better too in future .
And , I will not effing allow myself to follow your selfish footsteps .

All the things you said .. you expect me to believe ?
Talk to my hand .
You wanna play selfish ?

Like to see me suffer ?

Ha . See who's gonna be at the losing end .

Damn bitch .
You messed around with the wrong person .

Hating you is so tiring .
But , I really really hate you .

2009-10-01T08:04:00.000-07:00

WATCH IT YO.

This cheer me up .
XD

Kac.失望.ey

2009-10-01T07:48:00.000-07:00

That I tusted you .

You cheated me again .

But I learned my lesson ..

Trust nobody in the marketplace .

Super upset .

Damn you.
But I'll try to forgive you .
But for the time being .
I hate you . So Shut Up .

Girls cheat better than guys .
I believe it now .

Cries ..
Cher .

How are you ???

2009-09-27T08:55:00.001-07:00

SO FAR SO GOOD .

I know you miss me very very very much .
hur hur hur .

Someone lost part of his memory from a accident .
And he manage to remember everyone and everything .
But he just dont remember me .
Pictures and messages in his phone still can't let him recall who exactly I am .

Man , it sucks to be forgotten. Why me ???

Sigh ,..
Well , hopes better for the future buddy .
Get well soon .

Xoxo ,
Cher

Updates yo.

2009-09-26T07:58:00.000-07:00

Rainning days sucks .
Wonder why people say rainning day's are romantic . XIAAA .

So lei zhei , must bring umbrella and all , some more so colddd !

Miss my night life .
Everyday meeting the sun in the morning is terrible .

My favourite lunch of all yo .
Black pepper chicken rice with the yummy soup ! 3.50 nia :D
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This .

Eating fruits almost everyday .
It just cost me 1.5o and I have like 6 kind of fruits inside there .
super shiok !

Today I got fined of 30 cents of dian perfume wrong .
They got the perfume hidden at the display , never tell me , blame me of not asking .
How cunning .

Suan niao ...

then got one 怪叔叔came into my shop today testing me about fragrance .
see me gong gong like that ..
Then I let him test the perfume , he end up asking me whether they are all original .
=.= like only airport sell the originals .. what's wrong with them .

He then ask me about the prices . We sell cheaper , he say it's fake .
Other people sell so expensive you complain , we sell cheap you complain .
=.= what's wrong with you man .. Hello ???

He wanted hugo boss . then hiam say he's afriad of buying the fake ones ..
walk around my shop like walk garden like that ..
In the end still buy , made me earn my push money .
So ... not bad lah huh ..

Btw , He finished almost all the tester's papers ..
Goodness .

A super funny thing happened today .
I supposed to call a customer to come down and collect her goods .
And I ending dialing the wrong number .
A bangala answered , and I tell him I dialed the wrong number .
Then about a few minutes later ..

He called back !
Bangala : elllllorr , you calll me ar ?? you find me arrr ? "
Me :Yes , Sorry I call the wrong number ...
Bangala : Oh , isit , okie okie , you call me for what arrr ?
Me : Wrong number lah dey!
Bangala : You find who ar ???

*-老娘not happy already-*

ME : CALL WRONG NUMBER LAHH! *kup*
bangala : ......*tooot toooot toooot*

-few minutes later -

He call again . ( my shop phone no caller id )

Bangala : elllloR , tell me lei , why you call ar ????
Me : I tell you I call wrong right . you call back again I call police send you go back bangaladesh !
Bangala : okie okie lah .. don't angry arrr .. I just want to know ... ...... ...............
* I kup the phone *

hahahahahahhahaha !

Lols, Okay .
bad example lah huh ..
don't learn don't learn . (:

I got the first place for today's sales yo .
Call me queen .

Bitches , get outta my way !

hahahahahaha .

Xoxo ,
Cher .

I miss church svc ...

2009-09-19T07:52:00.001-07:00

I think of You whenever I feel it's hard to go on .
I think of Your love and grace whenever I feel it's hard to accept or forgive .
I think of You whenever I feel lonely all these while .

I miss your presence !
So so so much already .

恨不得马上把工作辞了,
恨不得在感受你的同在.

and most of all , I miss all my friends .
It's been quite awhile since I meet you guys .
Boohooohooo.

I got 8 mosquito bites this morning when I wake up .

And I have to work an hour more tmr .
rahhhh , working life is so whinny - complainy for me ..

Sad ..
Who else still really reads this blog ?

ahhh , and kinno stinks . oppps ..
abit random cause he haven't bathe for the week .

When you think I've forgotten you , remember , I miss you .

Bahhhhh . Bye for now (:

I do not know alot .

Will you come and be my all ?

With loves ,

Xoxo ,

Cher.

Imma so so tough cookie .

2009-09-17T08:17:00.000-07:00

Studying shampoos , perfumes and cosmetics now ..

Issey Miyake is my all time favourite .
But recently I'm so in love with tommy girl . No idea why .

And I love Paris Hilton's " just love me " .
Just love her lah . madness , she rocks .

CK stinks . and Burberry Brit don't smell that good to me.
At all .

Most of all , Montblanc's men's perfume smell super man . Loves it .

hahahahhaa ,

Oh , I thought I achieve quite a good result today .
I manage to dian finish a row half's perfumes without a single mistake !
no mistake means no fine . so ? Awesome for me and you .

The new word I like to say now adays is ...

CAN

I can make things work .

I can sort things out .

and most of all ..

I can do all things through christ who strengthens me .

Loves !
Xoxo ,
Cher .

It's not easy being me .

2009-09-12T23:14:00.001-07:00

Don't read my blog if you think it's all crap .
Again and again , I say . This is my blog . Not your entertainment .

This url won't change .
My blogging style won't change .

I've never wanted you guys to appreciate this blog or dairy of mine .

-------------------------------------------------------♥

Your words affect my every move in my life .
Because , you're play aye important role in my life to guide me in this walk .
But before you ever speak an advice , have you ever spare a thought for me ?

It's so easy for you to say ,
have you ever thought of your judgement over me is how serious ?
Saying of easy to wait for another opportunity .
How long more .Please , it's close to a year already
Staying at home for 5 days , can't find any doings for my body .

Collecting coins , like a beggar . Desperate to just do dwell in desired place .
Say nice , I have faith in God. just to convince myself that I really place him as my first priority ?

How have you seen me as ?
Being free of weekdays , escaping that saturday to go to church ?

In the end , you still ask me to look this episode in a bigger picture .

I want to get connected .
And your reply was all negative .
Who's doubting me .

The people around me, are sacrificing .
And how can I be even more selfish ?
To keep my foot and working hands out there when I have a good chance .
I have faith that my heart won't change .
But where are your trust with me ? Zero .

It's disappointing .

Cause , I thought , you knew me better ...

You've never taught me how . or any solutions to help this time.
But all choices and choices to want me to prove my heart for God .
Just by going to desired place .
Stressing me out , judging me . Is this all you can do ?

I can't face you to tell you all these .
But deep down , I really wanna have a big quarrel with you .

I wanna scream all out at your face .
Can I ?
Can we work things out ?

All alone here .
Buried with all these .

Have you ever thought of this ,
That will I be able to handle this all alone ?

You just said ..
What ever you do , I support you .

Is that even convincing ?

Why does everyone think that I can do this all by myself .

Sorry ,
我做不到...

2009-09-07T08:40:00.000-07:00

Love's like a merry-go-round .

It looks fun , grand and romantic on the outside .

You feel lucky when you just got in it .

Happy when you feel like flying .

It's so fast , that the moment it stops , you feel dizzy and lost .

And you ask yourself , where to move on ..

- cher .

Less is MORE ... ?

2009-09-06T08:29:00.001-07:00

Happy to know that I've been blogging for passing 500 posts of entries already .
wow , how long have I been blogging ?
hmmm, not as long as XX or DY . But confirm longer than Lao Zha Bor .

muahaha .

I think , today I won't be blogging about how long I've blog .
But , how long I've been staying in this house blogging my everyday life in this blog .

hahaha . I'm talking a lil strange here ..

Alright , My house now has been officialy sold .
My mom is kinda happy and excited of moving into a new place ..
I don't know .
But , that idea haven't been a good idea that I agreed or like .
I just had to move along , even when I hate it .

To be honest , I hate it .
I'm kinda upset over this episode of my life .
Especially , my mom's idea of selling away the house .

But, as time goes by ..
I've learned to not have anymore expectation from my mom .
Also , to really push myself and expand my heart to learn to understand people more .

When more and more people came to see the house .
Listening to them talking about prices of the house ,
My heart aches .
I don't know why this house meant so much .
To me the house is way beyond those prices , it's priceless .
It's precious .
Every corner of this house is filled with lots of memories .
I'm so gonna miss this place ..
I don't wanna leave .
don't wanna leave .

Today , a guy came on knocking on the door to see the house .
He saw , and he like the house .

They just finish signing contracts .
I was in my mom's room patting kinno , hopping the contact would fail .
Sad .. I then looked at kinno .
Somehow , I think kinno also knew what was happening .
He looked sad ..
He stayed quietly with me .

I don't like changes .
But I have to accept changes .
Through this , I know .. I have to learn alot of things .

To be more flexible .
To be more a more bold person .
To be more understanding , especially for our love ones .

Well , it's so easy to say .
hmmm , all I could say is .

I think I'd gained knowledge from this episode .

加油!

Xoxo ,
Cher .

When I say I am afraid . I mean it .

2009-09-03T05:25:00.000-07:00

Can't you take my words seriously ?

Am I really a joke to you ?

Or do you really find things funny .

Is it really that funny ?

Damn Bugs . DIE DIE DIE .

Stop seeking for attention today !

2009-08-31T06:13:00.000-07:00

不准哭...我不要装可怜无辜...................

But why can't people get it straight into their brains ?

Okay , let me go straight to the point .

I used to have this problem .

And people around me also have this same old problem some even worst .

which is .. Self sympathy .

Too much of it . cause serious problem .

when we're young , when we fall down , our parents will come ..

" are you okay ? are you hurt ? " and we'll go whining and crying .

Same problem when we're older .

When we're older , we meet failures or rejections in life ..

We go whining , crying and worst still come up with ..

" sigh , I'm so poor thing .. Why is my life so sucky and lousy .. "

they go out seeking for care , concern and attention ..

Make up stories , to show people how sad and poor state they're now going through .

but not finding a way to get out of the problem .

It's silly !

When after listening to all the encouragements and going back to the same old cycle !

Keep making the same mistake then give excuses to escape from things .

For me .. I whine ALOT .

But I know my limits and I know who can help me .

So when I'm in trouble , I'll look for shalynne my cgl or my family members .

I've met people before that's very weird .

When they're sad ,

they call up different people to tell them how sad they are .

telling one after another .

But still , standing at the same old ground .

Once , he accidentally cut his hand by some knives or whatever ..

And he went around telling people he's bleeding and doing nothing to it !!

Good griefs .

Another one , worst ..

Too bored already .

Come up with nice stories to bluff people around her to get attention .

saying that she got raped etc .

It's too silly of us human beings behaving like that isn't it ?

hahaha..

sounding very judgemental .

But , sad to say .. Some people are too silly to fill themselves with self sympathy .

And cherlyn says , you guys gotta wake up !

Why go make yourself so sad and down when you can be happier ?

Why go attract attention by bluffing people when you already know that people around you do care about you ?

Why go and make yourself so sick and want people to take care of you ?

Why why why ?

人活的好好的，为什么去不博取同情.

You guys must be thinking ..

Most girls fall in this area .

I'm telling you . You are wrong .

I've seen more guys doing more silly things to get attention .

Emo one side for nothing while people are happily enjoying in an outing .

then refused to tell the people what happen ..

Spoiling the mood by telling people he's very upset .

just upset .. or just thinking about stuffs .

It's not wrong !

you aren't wrong when you wanna go think about your stuffs .

But spoiling the atmosphere is your fault .

Since we're out and happy , why go think about those sad stuffs ?

Go sing K also sit one side emo .. still got feel to carry on singing mehhhh ?

Duh!

But , please get it clear .

I'm not trying to say when you're sad or you meet trouble you can't tell people .

Be wise !

Don't say you're okay , you're fine and alright when you're not at all !

Tell the right person , that you think they can help you or encourage you .

After listening , Get that advise straight ...

Don't go and find more people and complain with . it won't help ,

At all !

Self sympathy .. if you don't kick away that habit ..

you're gonna affect people around you .

Some people seek alot for friends attention and forgotten that your friends actually also need space .

When they have their work in their hands , they never contact you ..

You , becoming very desperate and you lose your faith for you poor friend .

go on whining about your friend ain't a good friend .

goes down to yourself , ending up with no more confident with yourself anymore .

Then go on , you get easily jealous .

Because of you don't have somethings like ..can be possessions or treatment .

You go on and feel like it's unfair ..

you're being neglected , people forget you ..

etc etc .

NO !

cherlyn says ..

Life ain't like that .

You don't really need all this to go around your world my dear .

Open up open up some happiness !

If you yourself can't love yourself enough . it will never work .

Learn to open up . Trust the one you love .

Think about the people around you . They love you !

C'mon , Jesus loves you too !

such a awesome person to love you ! what more can you ask for ??

If you're sick today .

Ask yourself if you're happy .

Sometimes , you're not sick .

it's just that you're feeding yourself with the wrong medicine .

Laughter is the best cure (:

If you have the courage to attempt suicide .
Why not use the same courage you have to carry on the road you're stepping on ?

Xoxo ,

Cher .

Take Care & Farewell ！

2009-08-26T06:34:00.000-07:00

A Song from khalil for all my love ones .
( opps , and all that are reading this blog :D )
With lotsa XOXOs ♥♥♥

A lil bit of Spells & Magic .

2009-08-23T08:07:00.000-07:00

Blogger suck for a big time now adays .
Made my entries layout so ugly . like a big whole chunk of don't know what .

Souvenir for today .
Aye mos burger -corn soup toy -hp chain !
It's from the coin twisting thingy at J8 .
This was exactly what I wanted !
How lucky eh .
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Well it only happen once a day . -sis .

Xoxo ,
Cher.

#1 God .

2009-08-22T23:05:00.000-07:00

Sis got this for me :D

It's glossy PINK ! Loves it !!!!!!!!

My sis got me the theme of the 1994 picture Gallery .
I want the year 92 one ... awww , guess it's outta sale at mac already .

Well ...Take a look inside !

Hellokitty...

She cheers me up . love her .

KKB tried to test me about hellokitty ..

and .. to my surprise , it actually do know alot about her !

hahaha !

Example ..

Do you know the actual height of hellokitty is the hight of 3 apples high ?

She's tiny isn't she ?

Heees . kinda proud of myself already talking about hellokitty .

Lol . okay enough of kitty .

sorry for the intro , made me sound like aye lil girl .

well , Imma innocent child in heart . what to do .

*giggles*

FINE .

Back to my dairy .

I know , I know ,

it's been quite some time since I blog about my thoughts and giving this blog aye update .

My bad , my bad for neglecting it .

But hey , here it is okay .

Cut the crap .

I feel kinda stupid and sorry about the previous post .

it's so emo lah , to say the truth . I don't like it too .

so negative right ? super not like me lah ...

hahahaha , whatever .

That's why you see , I don't need any people to comment about my blog aka dairy .

If not , i'll be so "gao wei" - uncomfortable in hokkien while posting .

Right ?

Ehem , I wonder if people are reading this . they'll be thinking when I'm going to start .

But they'll never know I've already started writting about my dairy .

Hmmmm , I do have more thoughts to fill in here .

Somehow my brain now is still working on while I'm typing here .

Imma genius .

Okay , you see ..

I'm really amazed by God doing in everyone's life .

I don't know what He've did in yours , But I know , it's surely good :)

While Gloria Goh was sharing her testimony yesterday during cgm .

About how she counted all the blessings that God blessed her with .

It's so true .

I asked myself , have I done it before .

No . In fact , I've forgotten about the blessings i had experienced before .

maybe some of them , but it's like to me it's no longer that exciting anymore ..

Isn't it sad ?

and when I got home , I had a chat with my sis .

We're talking about some drugs issues first , and then some gangsterism stuffs.

I started talking and talking and it slowly became aye form of story testimony thingy .

No why , when my sister throw to me a question asking me ..

What was the main reason you went to play drugs and put yourself there outside .

It's so stupid and childish . Didn't mommy always thought you not to?

Then I replied , Out of fun . Naughty , didn't thought of anything . just liked the "Seh" feel .

And then she asked ..

didn't you know , taking drugs will cause and lead you slowly to death ?

OR worst , sudden death .

hmmm , I thought for awhile and laugh ..

Eh , I didn't know leh .

Funny isn't it .

At the back of my mind was .

Oh goodness , God really did picked me up from the death valley man .

PTL .

Then slowly , my sis started to question me about some other stupid things I've done .

I could sense her curiosity . not because she's stupid .

It's just simply because , she really don't see and don't understand why I'm doing all these things ..

That's like .. no benifit at all ?!

I didn't want to say everything to her .

Eh , c'mon , I don't know about you . But for me , I've never been so opened up with my family members before .

I feel embarassed . I thought I don't like to bring up the past , it's sinful and it'll make me CRY !

And hey , how much courage do you think you could use up to say it ?

You could've the courage to say it . But it's people mind to accept it .

I warned her thrice to tell her not to change her impression of mine after listening .

and she smile and nodded her head .

I started to speak . and said every single thing to her .

Like accounting to shalynne like that . like a leader .

And she listen , can sense she still didn't understand me .

hahahahaahaha .

Ehhhh.. I think I did not cry while saying .

and then to speak of the past , it goes on to big rewind back to the first time I got saved .

When I got in to my bed , it was like ..

Man ... I've came a very long way .. didn't I ?

Theres so many times , I didn't understand so many things .

But I've got through it .

So if , in the past of did it . I'm sure this lil trouble I'm facing now wouldn't be so big .

Because , God wouldn't give you something you can't handle with ! Amen ?

I started to pray ..

I began to slowly realised that .

Whether imma christian anot , God loves me .

It made me thought of how people love each other .

Some people try to keep a person their side , control them to not them stray away .

Some people get jealous easily . fight for their rights not thinking about anything .

God gave me a high bird eye's view of the whole picture .

I really couldn't express how much gratitude .

Because , firstly . I've not very lucky . I've never experienced much of a Father's love .

My mimi plays 2 charactor in my life . as a papa and mama .

I then felt the heartache of God , stretching his hand reaching out to me .

Wounds all over , dry and helpless . and he kept me safe .

Although until now , sometimes I couldn't accept myself for who I am .

I doubt myself . But Daddy God said , I've forgotten the past you didn't like .

Because , I don't like what you don't like too .

It came with such warmth , that he said dearly to me .

My dear daughter , Trust me . when you can't see my working hands . Trust my heart .

Believe in me , pull up yourself for you will stand strong for me again .

Though you keep falling . But my dear , you never fail to impress me .

wow .................

Though it was rainning like the entire zoo , with thunder and lightning .

I had a wonderful peaceful sleep .

Awesome !

The First thing that I'd learned in church was to put God first .

I take it as a Strong basic foundation in my spiritual life .

What about you ?

Bye , Earthlings .

Xoxo ,

Cher .

2009-08-16T02:04:00.000-07:00

Been listening to....

Run Away - David Tao .

Nod your heads while listening yo ! haahahahah !

In love with another song by coco lee .
kinda nice music piece . loves the lyrics , and love coco's voice !
loves it ..!

[ 美丽的主题曲]....

我看著鏡子里面的自己
不知道為什么我會失去你
閉上了眼睛回味這段愛情
學習忘記
能不哭泣
我想不想一個人旅行
耳機里聽著自得其樂歌曲
遇見陌生人
我也不會有所懷疑
生命沒有你
明天仍為自己繼續美麗
世界只有個你
誰也不能代替
如何把傷心權利
換成快樂的能力
什么才是愛情
如何揮別過去
若有人再說愛我
我還有沒有勇氣靠近
我愿不愿意相信我自己
有一首原創美麗主題曲
不需要別人
也能在你生命流行
早晚有一天
還會遇到粉絲遇到知音
世界只有個你
誰也不能代替
如何把傷心權利
換成快樂的能力
什么才是愛情
如何揮別過去
若有人再說愛我
要选择微笑还是离去
世界只有個你
誰也不能代替
如何把傷心權利
換成快樂的能力
什么才是愛情
如何揮別過去
若有人再說愛我
我看著鏡子里的自己

This song may is kinda emo , loner type .
but some how it sings out honestly from the heart ..
it's just so close to some one's feeling .
* I admit I missed the someone in this song .. but , it's over already..
And I've learned to move on . Because I know , what's best for me ..
Which is where I am here today .

I think I hate myself sometimes ..
Locking up myself in the dark ..
Crying for the small things ..
Feeling weak for nothing . like a useless whinning child ..
Being stressed for the least thing , and blame it all by myself .
I know it's silly to keep putting myself back to the past and 依依不舍..
I clearly know what's the problem with me , and yet I keep doing it .
I hate it !
Don't ask me why am I like that .. Because I don't know too .

It's weird you see ..
Call me weird , Stuborn , Stupid , Dumb or 太依赖人了..
wait .. Being to relying on somebody is not very good ..
but .. isn't this how the way we live ? which is rely on someone's shouders when we need them ?
but why does this rely slowly builds up like an addiction , an need and something you can't live without .
And why does love , brings hatred or dislike at the end of everything.

I didn't like people who are not independent ..
But now ... I ask myself , was I even independent before ?
I crapped ?
Tell me who was ..?

A Loner ? A beggar ? Aliens ?They all also need love ..
Maybe , their heart is already dead bah ?

I like this part ..

若有人再說愛我
要选择微笑还是离去

To me this song concludes ..

The main person to love is , should be yourself first .

yeap . I think ..

Love and Live , just lack another letter . it's an I there ..

If you can't even love yourself enough , how would you be able to love others ?

How can you love someone , when you can't even treasure your life enough ?

okay okay ..

Too Emo like that for a whole post .

later people say I fake lah , lead 2 lives ..

Outside cheerful happy , At home emo elmo . don't know who is who ah !

Split personality ?! wahahahah ....

Hmmmm ,

There are some things that I feel I should not post it here .

so friends if interested to know can just ask me , if lucky , i might tell you !

LOL ..

Hearing my sister's sharing of a BFF is so fun .

I wanna make lil prayer to God for a good BFF too ..

ofcause huihui , you're still my best friend kay ! hahaha .

I want a BFF in church with me too.

hahaha .

A spritual good friend . Encourage each other in hard times ..

etc etc ...

so cool eh .

Not forgeting my bbff . kuah kb .boon boon boon !

important friend leh he .. tsk tsk .. best in sg and jb and some say batam ah .

LOLS !

Roahhhhhhhhhs .

I'm so messed up right now .

2 tim 1:7

Amen !

Okay okay , needa go now now now .

Xoxo ,

Cher

2009-08-16T01:12:00.000-07:00

Love kinno ! A picture of my nono for you guys :D

hahahahahaha ! kinno siam .

psa 77:19

1 sam 16 :7 .

These cheered me up and encouraged me ..

Rahhh .

Gombedhetto !

Congrats Gerald and Eunice for the graduating from SOT yo .

Nothing much for update , but lotsa complaints only ..

sian ..

will do a ranting post soon .

hahahaha .

for now ...

I really don't know what to say ..

Chiaos !

2009-08-12T04:33:00.000-07:00

I JUST DON'T LIKE IT .
NOT ONLY DISLIKE .
I HATE IT .

Ridiculous .

Would you understand .
Will you respect me for Christ's sake ?

Sometimes , I would rather just close one eye .
Don't care whatever is happening .
Act as if I'm in a dream and wake up in a whole new house knowing everything thing that happen was just a bad bad dream .

You are the owner of the house . The leader of the family .
Your decision is crucial .

But please , have some thoughts for others before everything you do .

I can understand your lousy attitude . that you actually don't care how people feel .
because you only thought of yourself as the bigger picture .

But have you ever thought ..
This will actually hurt my feelings ..?

............

Enough said .
I'm always in the wrong .

The Back Crew Hero .

2009-08-07T09:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes .. I feel like a lil worm .. like this ..
I'm kinda inspired by the picture above . Are you ?

Today , I went for job hunting with huihui :D .
hui hui is awesome ,
she cheered me up several times when she see me got rejected or she can sense that I feel discouraged ..
I've never had a good feeling about finding a job or having a job all along . hopeless .
Upon the stress I had from my mommy etc .. I was totally upset regardless I'm at home , or outside in the city .
I feel totally small , and useless ..
And ...

Huihui's a cheering machine . She almost filled me up with confidence over and over again .
I feel so secure when I'm with her . She's like a lucky star . A good friend :D

Loves her ! ♥ ♥ ♥

Finally gotta feeling to blog how I really feel.
I really feel very very glad .

God never fail to put wonderful people in my life .

God is good all the time . All the time , God is good .

During today's Cgm ..
Although it felt a lil rushy , messy .. The presence of God is still good .
In fact , God spoke to me during worship .

God totally appeared to me like a papa .
Showing me lotsa scenes about this wonderful servant of God .
A lady with full of dreams and vision ..
Showing her love and service around the people around her .
Staying positive , full of faith and on fire for God..
Encouraging the the weaker ones .

It then turned into a point that , she was trying really hard to put the smile on her face wherever she go .
She picked up a phone call . she broke down and cry . because she had to give up a big lot .
I don't know what it is .
Then a crowd came over , not on her side . She stood strong and continue to where she know she's gonna be .
Criticism came ..
But she continue to smile and said Amen .

God then show me ,
when she was alone in her secret place praying and seeking God alone .

Enjoying her quiet time .

and I'm shocked when the lady turned around .
God show me her face .
Her face was full with tears and compassion worshipping God ..
It turned out so familiar , that I took a zoom look again ..

And it was none other than .. my sister .

I was so shocked . stunned , and really speechless .

You guys must continue reading .

Because , all along I've been thinking that ..
I've always been the only one giving up things .
I've always been the only one losing out , to sacrifice .
The only one to feel lonely .

I'm so selfish .. to think that I'm the one that really suffered alot .
That actually , She went through much more !
How can I have the thinking that she'll be always strong .
How can I have the thinking that she also have her hard times outside alone ?
How can I have the thinking that the smile on her face actually fades ?

How could I ??

How could I not appreciate this sister that have looking after me , keeping me in her prayers ?
How much more could I expect from God .
without her , everything could be different .
I wouldn't have experience the realness of God so close ever before the first time !

All this mindsets hit me so hard in my heart and mind .

I couldn't stop speaking in tongues . I just want God to give her whatever she can't receive .

God then tied a peace purple ribbon over her neck .
And told her that she is free .

I felt so touched . And totally understand what God was trying to tell me .
I feel really really amazed by God .

I don't know where I had this courage from to post this entry .
I don't know how my sis will feel after reading this .
after all she reads my blog .

I'm really not speaky mushy kind of person .
I don't know how to show my appreciation some times .
That's why , some times I prefer to not say anything in case everything leads to a quarrel .

Our fellowship sometimes could be a total silence for a whole hour .

I feel bad about it .

And I wanna say a BIG Thank you to my beloved sister .
I wanna take back all the times when I made her utterly super upset .
& I want her to know , from the bottom of my heart that ..
Daddy God loves her , and I love her too .

Like the others ,
Jie , I'm so so so proud of you !

Jiayou !

ps // Thanks for borrowing me your ez-link card to go for cgm today .
you've done a big big help :D

Xoxo ,
♥ Cher .

I'm blind in the dark .....

2009-08-03T10:00:00.001-07:00

It's all about Cherlyn .

1 . I love Pink. and I hate Orange .
2 . I don't wear beige color bras .
3 . I love cutting my hair sometimes .
4 . I wash my hair twice everytime .
5 . I have serious 洁癖.
6 . I love Gerald butler .
7 . Imma Christian .
8 . I used to be "小燕子"in my group of girlfriends back in primary school .
9 . I'm made of water . I prefer to gulp then drinking sip by sip .
10 . I hate mee rebus .
11 . I love using a straw to drink chilled drinks .
12 . I love Ribena .
13 . I adore people with Great Confidence .
14 . I like wise man .
15 . I can cook . ( not better than my sis or my mom )
16 . I write better with black ink pens .
17 . I cry alot . and I can cry on command .
18 . I don't like people that lie to accomplish somethings .
19 . I can learn languages super fast .
20 . I love to dance secretly in my room .
21 . I enjoy Praise and Worship in my room .
22 . Bathing is my way to cool myself down .
23 . I forget things that I don't want to remember easily .
24 . I don't like to walk behind people who're smoking .
25 . I hate rude people in the public that speaks loudly .
26 . I love cam-whoring with my friends .
27 . I'm not a very stick on person , but I call up jianwen every night to chat .
28 . I love everyone around me even though I don't really like some of them .
29 . I'm very straight forward . I don't 拍马屁 .
30 . I like sincere people . with no motives .
31 . I don't like the feeling of being sick .
32 . I love Veggies .
33 . Imma drama queen .
34 . I believe everybody can sing .
35 . I have stage fright . It's a miracle whenever I sing on stage for choir .
36 . I'm afraid of heights .
37 . I am tall .
38 . I've zero knowledge in wheels . oh , only scooters .
39 . I'm lousy in racket games .
40 . I like to give kinno a big shock and laugh at his reaction .
41 . I don't like noisy shoes and places .
42 . I love coffee .
43 . I can't eat sea food .
44 . I don't like waiting .
45 . I feel happy when I receive good news from my friends .
46 . I like good quality stuffs .
47 . I only carry leather bags .
48 . I'm well taken care of by my strong mimi . although imma single parent .
49 . I think I'm the luckiest girl in the whole wide world .
50 . Some times I cry in bed when I miss my grandma and hsiao yan .
51 . My Blanket in the most precious one that I can't live without .
52 . I pretend I'm on the phone when I met people I don't like .
53 . I hate being stalked by strangers .
54 . I don't like the feeling of people not trusting you .
55 . I hate explaining .
56 . My favorite number is 9 .
57 . I love nail arts .
58 . I've met someone that look really like me here on earth ! *Twinnie*
59 . I feel really really honored to have shalynne as my CGL . She taught me how to love .
60 . I Love Jesus . He's my first priority .

Lol ...
did you guys really read it through ?
Im just a lil bored to post about this I guess..

well ...

Blogger is sucky now adays ..
I can't seem to upload any pictures still ..
Rawrrrs .

Anyways .......

Happy 20th Birthday City Harvest .

The 20th annivesary was way to awesome !
hahaha .. here's the whole day ..

11pm : met twinnie at city hall and went over to her place to stay overnight .
12 + : reached ..Bathed and ate twinnie's hand cooked maggie mee .♥
1am : we caught aye horror movie showing at chnl 8 ( was showing about christianity too ! ) twinnie was so scared !
3am : we're still awake , listening to twinnie's life story sharing :D
-all the way till 5.30 am- : We pack up and get changed for choir .
6am : met choir peeps for shuttle bus to go S.I.S . ( the bus was so comfy .. I fell asleep )
630am + : Reached . and started choinging for choir .
- Served 2 services - Enjoy!

I was totally having a hard time looking for my cg during the svc .
Because I have night blindness .
Was praying hard till I find them .
My night blindness actually got worst .. sigh ..
Everytime when I'm alone in the dark .. And I can't see .. I'm so so so afraid ..
:'(

luckily Gerald came to my rescue ..! If not I really wouldn't know what to do ..
Thanks bro .. :)

The presence of God was very strong throughout the service .
I fell under the power of God when Pst alex prayed for the church .
Was touched .
I found back my first love with God .
And felt so save in his arms again .
it's so papa love .
That experience .. is irreplaceable .

I didn't get the miracle building block , cause I was serving .
Got 2 umbrellas . 1 purple for my sis . and 1 pink for myself .
But I left it on Gloria's car ... hahahaha .
Oh , The first time on her car is so funnnnnnnnnnnn !

Although we're lost , but it's enjoyable man .
lol , my sister helped us to find our way back to the right track home .
how lovely !

Home sweet home after a long day .
Had a good rest .

Ate botak jones with sis .

and ......

I receive a prank call today .
My sister settled it for me .
hahahahaha . sis pretend to be miss lim and my mom!
hilarious to sis' face that way ..

LOL ..
I'm still wondering .. who could it be ..
it's just so strange .
Well , I shall just ignore this matter and go to sleep now !
it's 315 am already .

Chiaos !

Xoxo ,
Cher!

2009-08-03T04:48:00.000-07:00

I don't know why . some how my blogger is having lotsa of problems now .
I can't seem to upload pictures here . or edit fonts and structure .
Weird . My comp is really having a problem . Omg , Is it sick too ?
Woah , Human virus ..Computer virus ..Geeez . Virus are everywhere ~

I got so so so many things I wanna update about .

Good ness ..

2009-07-27T03:25:00.002-07:00

Can't wait to say bye bye to July .

Lying on my couch , cuddling with kinno .. listening to pouring rain outside ~~

Anddddd .. chewing this

Awsome-ness !
This no ordinary chocolate .
this is ..
chocolate with popping candy inside !!!
too cool or what lah !

Sis kept it in the fridge . I ate it :D
Hoho . bet she got more than enough . hehehe ..

Excited for august .
Where my job will start around soon..
what about you guys ?
Excited ?

Have a nice day :D

-with loves ,
Xoxo
Cher♥

2009-07-27T03:25:00.001-07:00

Support him ! Jeff Wang / 王建复 . [梦途]

Had a fun chat with him on facebook just now :D
He's as friendly as a brother !

I listen to his songs okay..
There are a handful of songs that I really like ..
1 ) 毒药
2 ) 疯了
3 ) So what
4 ) 心碎的记号

Ehem ...

My sister is so going to buy his album right ?
yes ! :p *answer from background*

Woooots .

2009-07-21T09:20:00.000-07:00

We celebrated Thomas' birthday on Sunday !
Hoho .
We went around . from the west to town .

- Not inspired from this fountain thingy at all -
some more the wet surfaces looks super unglam luhs !

Wanted to slack around at ION .
But it's not open yet ..
So....

Candice : The black glass pieces from the building looks like it's gonna drop down at anytime !
True eh ? hahahaha . It's chio anyways !

Giorgio Armani ~

Still constructing ..

Oh. Lots of people were q-ing for LV .

Look at the queue !

Discount ? Sale ?!!
SALE :DDD *laughs*

Aiya . don't know what .
Just thought that girl was kinda brave then took this picture .
I felt kind of sad for her though .
No idea why ...

Random ...

Meet miss talllllllllllllllllllllll . check out her tall shadow man .

Had dinner at Mad jack :)

Here's the Birthday boy yaw .

and ... Chocolate drops for his memorable birthday :D
hahahaha .

Looks like as if kennah tortured like that ....
Lols ~

Tiramisu :D

Plaza Sing for chua bing :D Ice Ice baby!

Negative thomas . Looks shuai here eh ?

Had real fun hanging out the whole day with the choir peeps :D
Happy day !

Home sweet home with ....

Chilled 苦茶... ):

all pretty smiles :D

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.
Today's practice didn't get to see our sweet糖果..
Candice !
Get well soon .. (: (: (:

With loves ,
Cher.♥